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im pretty lost and confused. You can say you are....but you are most likley more secure in the world then I am.
I dont know what I am or where in the world I am..
If I was fully a tranman...I would be sure of myself. But im not sure of anything. I hate my body...I hate being traped in something I am not only am unhappy in but dont understand. You can say you want surgery...To change your sex or simply make you more attractive. Try being lost. In every sense of self and reality you can have. Emotion and logic neaither make sense...Life and Death are all out of whack.. Just like in the brain Pleasure and pain in the brain overlap ...so are things in life..Dreams and awake. I dont know what to belive. I cant live just telling myself..Oh im just so awesome right....Like some do..-_-
Ive gotten to the point where I dont NEED a relationship. and that makes me happy. Sure Id like one. And I am at the point where I would glady throw myself out there for a new chance.
BUT I dont need someone elses love...I need my own..I need to find a realization...Only the most basic and macabre things make sense to me...but there has to be more then that. So my peers..some of you may find me foolish for not partaking in the childish things of adolescance but there is more...And I plan on understanding it all..and myself...
Because I am tired of feeling torn about who I am
and yeah I have a theripist now...you can laugh...STFU...Just because someone has a license dosnt mean they dont care about who they talk to...and yeah maybe it wouldnt help...but I need someone to talk to about this..someone who isnt biased...and the woman i go to is one of the most caring women i have ever met...just because some people can keep things inside..I cant..I have no morals and I dont care if I let you or anyone else down when I say something. i am empowered enough to belive in myself as a being.
"Where are we what the hell is going on"
on a lighter note pcm cosplay list to be posted soon
and thanks for your suport hopefully someday I will be feeling better
I dont know what I am or where in the world I am..
If I was fully a tranman...I would be sure of myself. But im not sure of anything. I hate my body...I hate being traped in something I am not only am unhappy in but dont understand. You can say you want surgery...To change your sex or simply make you more attractive. Try being lost. In every sense of self and reality you can have. Emotion and logic neaither make sense...Life and Death are all out of whack.. Just like in the brain Pleasure and pain in the brain overlap ...so are things in life..Dreams and awake. I dont know what to belive. I cant live just telling myself..Oh im just so awesome right....Like some do..-_-
Ive gotten to the point where I dont NEED a relationship. and that makes me happy. Sure Id like one. And I am at the point where I would glady throw myself out there for a new chance.
BUT I dont need someone elses love...I need my own..I need to find a realization...Only the most basic and macabre things make sense to me...but there has to be more then that. So my peers..some of you may find me foolish for not partaking in the childish things of adolescance but there is more...And I plan on understanding it all..and myself...
Because I am tired of feeling torn about who I am
and yeah I have a theripist now...you can laugh...STFU...Just because someone has a license dosnt mean they dont care about who they talk to...and yeah maybe it wouldnt help...but I need someone to talk to about this..someone who isnt biased...and the woman i go to is one of the most caring women i have ever met...just because some people can keep things inside..I cant..I have no morals and I dont care if I let you or anyone else down when I say something. i am empowered enough to belive in myself as a being.
"Where are we what the hell is going on"
on a lighter note pcm cosplay list to be posted soon
and thanks for your suport hopefully someday I will be feeling better