Rebirth
This always happens... I decide that no one reads my livejournal so I stop writing in it and then a few weeks later, I change my mind and want to update it again. I don't really know why, Maybe it's because this is a way to express myself to all of of the "friends" that I have, or in reality, "friends" that I don't have... Allow me to elaborate. The way I see it, I have two types of friends. I have the friends that I hang out with and talk to on a regular basis and have actual conversations with, and then I have the (as I like to call them) "hey, how's it going?" friends.
Definition of the "Hey, how's it going?" friend: The bulk of our conversation goes as follows-
Me "hey, what's up/how's it going?"
Them "nothing/good, you?"
Me "nothing/good"
**awkward silence**
**someone leaves or goes about some other business**
I've come to realize that the majority of my friends are "hey, how's it going?" friends, which is kind of disheartening, but I guess it's kind of my fault for not being interesting to talk to. I guess it's best that I just hold on to the few good friends I have and hold on tight. I'm already doing a bad job of this and feel like I'm losing a dear friend to me whom I won't name at this time. Hopefully I can change this soon.
Anyway, Homecoming was AMAZING, I'm not one for going to dances, especially school dances, but I have to say that Homecoming was the most fun I've had in a long long long time. There are two reasons homecoming was fun and that's because of my friends and MOST importantly, because of Elise. (WARNING: for those of you who are sick of me and Elise being mushy and/or affectionate physically and verbally, I suggest you skip the following incredibly long paragraph)
(Affectionate paragraph below)
The past two homecomings (Sophomore and Junior years), I've gone to homecoming but we were the "only friends" couple. This year I knew I would have way more fun going with someone I'm absolutely and madly in love with. I arrived at Elise's house at about 4:15 not knowing what to expect. Of course I knew the whole time that she would undoubtedly look beautiful as she always does, but holy shit, she was breath-taking. I was speechless when I saw her. Everything about her was enthralling. Simply telling her she looked beautiful would make me sound like a fool, but of course being in the awe-struck stage that I was, those are the only words that spewed out of my mouth which was not even close to explaining just how angelic she looked. I couldn't help but smile everytime I looked at her at dinner which probably freaked her out a bit and if it did I'm sorry but I couldn't help myself. I don't think I told her enough how incredible she looked. I don't think I tell her that enough in a normal setting either. So I'll take a little bit of time now on top of this already long paragraph. Elise, your beauty captivates me. I am utterly enraptured by how gorgeous you are. I could write more but I think I'm coming on too strong and probably annoying a lot of people.
(Affectionate paragraph above)
Anyway more about homecoming. I was already having a great time knowing that I was going with Elise and the night only got better and better every minute. I got ready and junk in the morning and was quite pleased with the way I looked. The only time I ever even consider me being remotely good-looking is when I'm dressed up in a suit or tuxedo and even then I'm as modest as possible. After that I got dropped off at Elise's house and her mom and my stepmom took a few pictures of us. Elise's mom drove us over to Josh Smith's house after that for even more pictures. It was Elise, me, Kelly, Josh, Rachel, Han, Crystal, and David. We took a ton of pictures at Josh's house and then went to eat at Red Robins. It was a nice dinner. As mentioned above if you read the affectionate paragraph, I couldn't stop smiling everytime I looked at Elise. After dinner, we headed off to the dance. The decorations were nice and everyone who worked on them did a good job. When we got there Elise and I went and got our pictures taken. After that we socialized for a bit while people were still arriving. I didn't know so many people would want a picture of Elise and I, but we took what seemed like a million pictures. It was kind of interesting. I wasn't expecting to do that much dancing, especially fast dancing, but when it came down to it, there's no way I could've turned her down. I danced more that night than I think I have in my entire life but I'm extremely glad that I did, even if my type of dancing was just me making an ass of myself. All I cared about was that Elise had fun and I'm pretty sure she did so I was happy. After the dance, our group, along with Charles, Emily, James, and Janese, went to Woodhaven lanes to do some bowling. There were so many people at Woodhaven lanes that came from the dance. There's no way I could remember them all so I'm sorry if you were there and I talked to you and I don't mention you in here. I sucked at bowling but I don't care because I was just there to have fun, which I did a lot of. After bowling... well I'm sure you all know what happened that night so I don't need to further explain. That was pretty much my Senior Homecoming and I wouldn't have changed a single thing except for a certain un-named ape-fucking whore saying mean and unnecessary shit to Kelly. Oh well, I can't wait for Prom =).
On Sunday, I almost got kicked out of my house because of the Saturday night incident. I think my parents hate me, but I'm just gonna stop doing anything stupid for a long while and maybe they'll forgive me. I was considering moving out but I don't think that would be the right choice. Hopefully things will get better. Even though all of that crap happened I wasn't gonna let it get me down because I just had the happiest month of my entire life (yes, Elise and I started dating exactly a month ago on sunday). Besides, I had to work on Sunday so I wouldn't see my parents much that day hopefully giving them a little time to cool down. Well that's about all I have to write. Monday I had to work also, nothing too exciting. As far as today goes, I went over Elise's house after school until drumline. She got the day off because of a garbage truck running into a telephone pole outside of the school or something. I sure could've used a day off from school!! Oh well, I guess I'll just have to blow the school up or something..... (that's only a joke, incase someone decides to blow up the school, I wouldn't want to be blamed for it).
I think I finally figured out why I decided to start up my journal again. It's because of a man by the name of James A. Janisse. Not only do his journal entries (which I read on a regular basis, his journal is almost like my bible) inspire me to write long entries such as this one, but I owe it to him and anyone else who is interested in reading my thoughts to keep this thing alive. Expect updates more often now. Goodnight.
"I've decided tonight, I'm staying alive..."
-Jason
<3Elise<3
Definition of the "Hey, how's it going?" friend: The bulk of our conversation goes as follows-
Me "hey, what's up/how's it going?"
Them "nothing/good, you?"
Me "nothing/good"
**awkward silence**
**someone leaves or goes about some other business**
I've come to realize that the majority of my friends are "hey, how's it going?" friends, which is kind of disheartening, but I guess it's kind of my fault for not being interesting to talk to. I guess it's best that I just hold on to the few good friends I have and hold on tight. I'm already doing a bad job of this and feel like I'm losing a dear friend to me whom I won't name at this time. Hopefully I can change this soon.
Anyway, Homecoming was AMAZING, I'm not one for going to dances, especially school dances, but I have to say that Homecoming was the most fun I've had in a long long long time. There are two reasons homecoming was fun and that's because of my friends and MOST importantly, because of Elise. (WARNING: for those of you who are sick of me and Elise being mushy and/or affectionate physically and verbally, I suggest you skip the following incredibly long paragraph)
(Affectionate paragraph below)
The past two homecomings (Sophomore and Junior years), I've gone to homecoming but we were the "only friends" couple. This year I knew I would have way more fun going with someone I'm absolutely and madly in love with. I arrived at Elise's house at about 4:15 not knowing what to expect. Of course I knew the whole time that she would undoubtedly look beautiful as she always does, but holy shit, she was breath-taking. I was speechless when I saw her. Everything about her was enthralling. Simply telling her she looked beautiful would make me sound like a fool, but of course being in the awe-struck stage that I was, those are the only words that spewed out of my mouth which was not even close to explaining just how angelic she looked. I couldn't help but smile everytime I looked at her at dinner which probably freaked her out a bit and if it did I'm sorry but I couldn't help myself. I don't think I told her enough how incredible she looked. I don't think I tell her that enough in a normal setting either. So I'll take a little bit of time now on top of this already long paragraph. Elise, your beauty captivates me. I am utterly enraptured by how gorgeous you are. I could write more but I think I'm coming on too strong and probably annoying a lot of people.
(Affectionate paragraph above)
Anyway more about homecoming. I was already having a great time knowing that I was going with Elise and the night only got better and better every minute. I got ready and junk in the morning and was quite pleased with the way I looked. The only time I ever even consider me being remotely good-looking is when I'm dressed up in a suit or tuxedo and even then I'm as modest as possible. After that I got dropped off at Elise's house and her mom and my stepmom took a few pictures of us. Elise's mom drove us over to Josh Smith's house after that for even more pictures. It was Elise, me, Kelly, Josh, Rachel, Han, Crystal, and David. We took a ton of pictures at Josh's house and then went to eat at Red Robins. It was a nice dinner. As mentioned above if you read the affectionate paragraph, I couldn't stop smiling everytime I looked at Elise. After dinner, we headed off to the dance. The decorations were nice and everyone who worked on them did a good job. When we got there Elise and I went and got our pictures taken. After that we socialized for a bit while people were still arriving. I didn't know so many people would want a picture of Elise and I, but we took what seemed like a million pictures. It was kind of interesting. I wasn't expecting to do that much dancing, especially fast dancing, but when it came down to it, there's no way I could've turned her down. I danced more that night than I think I have in my entire life but I'm extremely glad that I did, even if my type of dancing was just me making an ass of myself. All I cared about was that Elise had fun and I'm pretty sure she did so I was happy. After the dance, our group, along with Charles, Emily, James, and Janese, went to Woodhaven lanes to do some bowling. There were so many people at Woodhaven lanes that came from the dance. There's no way I could remember them all so I'm sorry if you were there and I talked to you and I don't mention you in here. I sucked at bowling but I don't care because I was just there to have fun, which I did a lot of. After bowling... well I'm sure you all know what happened that night so I don't need to further explain. That was pretty much my Senior Homecoming and I wouldn't have changed a single thing except for a certain un-named ape-fucking whore saying mean and unnecessary shit to Kelly. Oh well, I can't wait for Prom =).
On Sunday, I almost got kicked out of my house because of the Saturday night incident. I think my parents hate me, but I'm just gonna stop doing anything stupid for a long while and maybe they'll forgive me. I was considering moving out but I don't think that would be the right choice. Hopefully things will get better. Even though all of that crap happened I wasn't gonna let it get me down because I just had the happiest month of my entire life (yes, Elise and I started dating exactly a month ago on sunday). Besides, I had to work on Sunday so I wouldn't see my parents much that day hopefully giving them a little time to cool down. Well that's about all I have to write. Monday I had to work also, nothing too exciting. As far as today goes, I went over Elise's house after school until drumline. She got the day off because of a garbage truck running into a telephone pole outside of the school or something. I sure could've used a day off from school!! Oh well, I guess I'll just have to blow the school up or something..... (that's only a joke, incase someone decides to blow up the school, I wouldn't want to be blamed for it).
I think I finally figured out why I decided to start up my journal again. It's because of a man by the name of James A. Janisse. Not only do his journal entries (which I read on a regular basis, his journal is almost like my bible) inspire me to write long entries such as this one, but I owe it to him and anyone else who is interested in reading my thoughts to keep this thing alive. Expect updates more often now. Goodnight.
"I've decided tonight, I'm staying alive..."
-Jason
<3Elise<3