scared.
I am so scared of everything right now.
I got a job offer that I'm not going to pass up, but I don't know if I'm good enough for it, and I don't want to fail. I also won't be teaching, I'll be doing other things that I'll be good at, but I'm really freaked and I don't feel like I have anyone to talk about it with.
I started loving someone I shouldn't have and now I feel a little torn apart about it. I do not feel good about this. I do not feel like I can talk to anyone about this either and there will be no resolution.
I am going to michigan this weekend to see a friend I haven't seen in years, but I am worried that we won't have any time to actually catch up.
I haven't eaten regularly or slept regularly for awhile and it's catching up with me. I need to take a long nap, finish this application, eat a good meal, and fucking relax. The people you love will sometimes not love you. The things you sign up for you might not be ready to do. And life moves on. faster than fast, even with you dragging your feet.
But I want to crawl into bed and be hugged by everyone I love until I feel safe again. I don't feel good about anything and my heart is all caught in my throat.
I got a job offer that I'm not going to pass up, but I don't know if I'm good enough for it, and I don't want to fail. I also won't be teaching, I'll be doing other things that I'll be good at, but I'm really freaked and I don't feel like I have anyone to talk about it with.
I started loving someone I shouldn't have and now I feel a little torn apart about it. I do not feel good about this. I do not feel like I can talk to anyone about this either and there will be no resolution.
I am going to michigan this weekend to see a friend I haven't seen in years, but I am worried that we won't have any time to actually catch up.
I haven't eaten regularly or slept regularly for awhile and it's catching up with me. I need to take a long nap, finish this application, eat a good meal, and fucking relax. The people you love will sometimes not love you. The things you sign up for you might not be ready to do. And life moves on. faster than fast, even with you dragging your feet.
But I want to crawl into bed and be hugged by everyone I love until I feel safe again. I don't feel good about anything and my heart is all caught in my throat.