*sigh*
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I find myself in a horrible situation. My best friend is moving out from my mother's house where she has been renting a room for a couple of years. Apparently she left the place in less than stellar condition and has been cleaning this last weekend (giving her notice 3 weeks ago). My mother has informed that it looks like ten junkies have been crashing there, or alternatively that it looked like a hide-out for a bunch of homeless people. In other words...it's DIRTY.
Problem is this: a) my friend has been doing all her final exams as well as work these past three weeks and moving into a new place. not an excuse but just a perspective, so she hasn't found the time to do anything before this weekend.
b)my mother calls me every day almost, shouting, repeating herself, particularly the parts about my friend being a bad friend and that she'll disappoint gravely along the way. That said friend will not EVER be welcome in my mother's home again if the room isn't done by tomorrow (which is bad since I'm planning to move back in a few years time). She also keeps telling me that my friend has ruined her holiday and the last 14 days of her life etc. etc. etc. And she keeps repeating it every day. She calls for ½ an hour, 1 hour, sometimes I manage to stop it after 10 minutes.
I can't not take the phone. She'll just call my boyfriend instead (to whom she described the whole miserable mess for half an hour yesterday after briefly congratulating him with his very good grades). If neither of us picks up the phone she'll just harvest the current anger and use it next time I do pick the phone. Knowing my mother it would be a very bad idea to subject oneself to a double dose of her agression.
This is driving me mad. I'm also a sort of of spokesperson for the both of them and convey them messages from one another, somehow. So I get yelled at from both parties and naturally both parties are badmouthing one another and I really don't want to take sides.
I yelled back at my mother earlier today telling her I didn't want to know about it and I had exams to concentrate on. her response?: "Darling you HAVE to know about this. You have to know what kind of a person your best friend is. She'll let you down somewhere along the road as she's let me down. she's got a flawed character bla bla bla I can't trust her, you can't trust her...Besides it's your friend's fault that you can't concentrate, we wouldn't be having this conversation if she was a decent human being.etc. etc. etc. "
I don't condone my friend's behaviour in any way, but it's just not my fight. I don't want to know, I don't want to spend time on this and I don't wanna hear bad things about either of them. I'm so sick of this. It's ruining my concentration and I feel like I'm zapped out most of the time. I have thousands of pages to revise and this situation is just getting worse escalating into the utterly grotesque.
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In other news things are ok. I'm stressed out, sick and tired of the place I'm living at, alternating between to hot and too cold and generally quite miserable.
Happy holidays!
(and I really don't mean to be this whiny hopeless person. It's just seemed to sneak up on me. bad things usually do. There are so many not so great things going on and right now I just want to be left the hell alone from anybody who's gonna shout at me. I hate shouting. It's if being shouted at pulls the inner strings ín me to the point of bursting and with my mom calling me over the fucking phone daily and shouting I might as well be back home at the time before I left. This is insanity and I'm probably overreacting. I'll go and heat up some food. Bah. )
I find myself in a horrible situation. My best friend is moving out from my mother's house where she has been renting a room for a couple of years. Apparently she left the place in less than stellar condition and has been cleaning this last weekend (giving her notice 3 weeks ago). My mother has informed that it looks like ten junkies have been crashing there, or alternatively that it looked like a hide-out for a bunch of homeless people. In other words...it's DIRTY.
Problem is this: a) my friend has been doing all her final exams as well as work these past three weeks and moving into a new place. not an excuse but just a perspective, so she hasn't found the time to do anything before this weekend.
b)my mother calls me every day almost, shouting, repeating herself, particularly the parts about my friend being a bad friend and that she'll disappoint gravely along the way. That said friend will not EVER be welcome in my mother's home again if the room isn't done by tomorrow (which is bad since I'm planning to move back in a few years time). She also keeps telling me that my friend has ruined her holiday and the last 14 days of her life etc. etc. etc. And she keeps repeating it every day. She calls for ½ an hour, 1 hour, sometimes I manage to stop it after 10 minutes.
I can't not take the phone. She'll just call my boyfriend instead (to whom she described the whole miserable mess for half an hour yesterday after briefly congratulating him with his very good grades). If neither of us picks up the phone she'll just harvest the current anger and use it next time I do pick the phone. Knowing my mother it would be a very bad idea to subject oneself to a double dose of her agression.
This is driving me mad. I'm also a sort of of spokesperson for the both of them and convey them messages from one another, somehow. So I get yelled at from both parties and naturally both parties are badmouthing one another and I really don't want to take sides.
I yelled back at my mother earlier today telling her I didn't want to know about it and I had exams to concentrate on. her response?: "Darling you HAVE to know about this. You have to know what kind of a person your best friend is. She'll let you down somewhere along the road as she's let me down. she's got a flawed character bla bla bla I can't trust her, you can't trust her...Besides it's your friend's fault that you can't concentrate, we wouldn't be having this conversation if she was a decent human being.etc. etc. etc. "
I don't condone my friend's behaviour in any way, but it's just not my fight. I don't want to know, I don't want to spend time on this and I don't wanna hear bad things about either of them. I'm so sick of this. It's ruining my concentration and I feel like I'm zapped out most of the time. I have thousands of pages to revise and this situation is just getting worse escalating into the utterly grotesque.
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In other news things are ok. I'm stressed out, sick and tired of the place I'm living at, alternating between to hot and too cold and generally quite miserable.
Happy holidays!
(and I really don't mean to be this whiny hopeless person. It's just seemed to sneak up on me. bad things usually do. There are so many not so great things going on and right now I just want to be left the hell alone from anybody who's gonna shout at me. I hate shouting. It's if being shouted at pulls the inner strings ín me to the point of bursting and with my mom calling me over the fucking phone daily and shouting I might as well be back home at the time before I left. This is insanity and I'm probably overreacting. I'll go and heat up some food. Bah. )