Twenty Seven
I'll keep this short in case my computer or internet crashes.
This has been a weekend of highs and lows, good things and bad. I went to Against the Grain friday night, which is the college kid to 30-something social group at mom and dad's church. It was a lot of fun. Although, I did beam Jeremy in the back of the head from four feet away during a game of dodgeball (he was on my team... oops!). It was good to meet some new people and I'm looking forward to going back next week. I also graduated from training at work friday. Sixteen weeks. Four months of training. Some of those weeks were very difficult, but now I'm on the other side. I really hope I do a good job. I don't want to let anybody down, especially Eric. I know they took a chance on me and I want to show them that their chance was a good idea. I start writing monday for the Northern New England team. Paul from training is also on my team, which is good because his jokes keep me from getting too serious.
I talked to Betta today and I told her some of the things that i had been feeling but I couldn't articulate before. I feel a lot better. I hope she knows where i'm coming from now, and I'm glad that she's patient with me. I really feel a lot better because I couldn't really express what I was feeling or where I was at. I've also been dealing with some personal stuff this weekend, things that I've needed to resolve for a long time. It feels good to be addressing some of the problems that I've let get me down for so long.
I rented Legends of the Fall because it was supposed to be a good guy movie, a movie about what it is to be a man. But most of the good people died, and everybody who loved anybody didn't get to be with the one they loved. It was really sad, especially the second part of what I just said. But it's given me a lot of things to think about. I'm going to go for a walk now and think about them some more.
I still feel lonely and i still feel like the walls that bound my reality have been blown away; it's been hard to know what to do outside of the protective walls of college. But this week I've started to address some of that. I'm taken it into my hands to take care of myself. I feel mostly good and i hope this week marks the beginning of a good time for me and those I love. There are a lot of people I'm thinking about right now because there are a lot of people who have had some really crappy times recently. So, my hope is that God will walk us all through them and turn this winter into a time when people come back together and rely on each other, especially in my immediate family. This sounds kind of sappy, but I'm really hoping that this winter can be a time of healing., you know?
Alright. Time to go walk before it gets even darker or starts snowing. I hope peoples' weekends are going good. I''m puppy sitting and Pippin is dejected because Mom isn't here...
- DS
This has been a weekend of highs and lows, good things and bad. I went to Against the Grain friday night, which is the college kid to 30-something social group at mom and dad's church. It was a lot of fun. Although, I did beam Jeremy in the back of the head from four feet away during a game of dodgeball (he was on my team... oops!). It was good to meet some new people and I'm looking forward to going back next week. I also graduated from training at work friday. Sixteen weeks. Four months of training. Some of those weeks were very difficult, but now I'm on the other side. I really hope I do a good job. I don't want to let anybody down, especially Eric. I know they took a chance on me and I want to show them that their chance was a good idea. I start writing monday for the Northern New England team. Paul from training is also on my team, which is good because his jokes keep me from getting too serious.
I talked to Betta today and I told her some of the things that i had been feeling but I couldn't articulate before. I feel a lot better. I hope she knows where i'm coming from now, and I'm glad that she's patient with me. I really feel a lot better because I couldn't really express what I was feeling or where I was at. I've also been dealing with some personal stuff this weekend, things that I've needed to resolve for a long time. It feels good to be addressing some of the problems that I've let get me down for so long.
I rented Legends of the Fall because it was supposed to be a good guy movie, a movie about what it is to be a man. But most of the good people died, and everybody who loved anybody didn't get to be with the one they loved. It was really sad, especially the second part of what I just said. But it's given me a lot of things to think about. I'm going to go for a walk now and think about them some more.
I still feel lonely and i still feel like the walls that bound my reality have been blown away; it's been hard to know what to do outside of the protective walls of college. But this week I've started to address some of that. I'm taken it into my hands to take care of myself. I feel mostly good and i hope this week marks the beginning of a good time for me and those I love. There are a lot of people I'm thinking about right now because there are a lot of people who have had some really crappy times recently. So, my hope is that God will walk us all through them and turn this winter into a time when people come back together and rely on each other, especially in my immediate family. This sounds kind of sappy, but I'm really hoping that this winter can be a time of healing., you know?
Alright. Time to go walk before it gets even darker or starts snowing. I hope peoples' weekends are going good. I''m puppy sitting and Pippin is dejected because Mom isn't here...
- DS