Jul 23, 2008 13:54
i got my palm read, which was awesome. pretty insightful, and i *kind of* teared up at some points. especially when he started right off the bat with the most pertinent themes that i struggle with most.
yesterday, i said i was coming in to work today. but i just kind of don't really see the point. it's unpleasant and i don't want to be around any of the people at work. it's almost 2 pm. i kind of doubt i'm going in.
yeah, lots of drama coming out of the whole work thing. my boss and his boss are both crazy assholes. so they've both been picking fights with me because they've taken my leaving like some kind of passive aggressive "fuck you!" when i want to leave because i hate my job. i gave them two weeks notice, but they've made my leaving a huge fucking deal. and i'm very uncomfortable with leaving and being there at the same time. very.
i hate my boss's boss. who micromanages my boss like some kind of goon that she sends out to bully me. it's fucking retarded. she was gone on vacation for two weeks, and my coworker was like "maybe we should water her plants." the next day i went into boss-boss's cubicle and spat on one of the plants on her desk. i hate working in an office, and do not like cubicles.
bob's sick, i think it's most likely bronchitis. if it's anything besides bronchitis, i will not handle it well. outwardly, yes. internally, no.
my parents are back in town, my dad has to meet with his oncologist. my dad's been cocky and acting like a bigshot who owns the world. more likely than not, he will start threatening my mom's life again. which is just about when the cancer comes back. i believe in miracles, kind of. unconventional ones anyway.
i'm struggling with the law of attraction right now because it's hard to be positive. it really is a struggle. oh god, is it hard. i need to exorcise myself of these self-defeating thoughts and burn a witch on a stake because things are just not working right now. they're just not. my brain just feels like it's getting pulled into whirlpools that are not going to take me anywhere good. i totally hate it.
i started taking drum lessons, we'll see how those will go. i think my ability to sight read is kind of working against me now, because i can play more than i actually am ready for. but i'm only two lessons in, so we'll see what happens. paradiddle, paradiddle, paradiddle, paradiddle.
i'm also trying to train for another triathlon in august, but it's hard to be motivated. i'm training with someone who also did lavaman for tnt. so that's cool.