i got my first real six string
so i guess ill just let it all out.
what did i want? well i dont know what i wanted.. i wanted some space and i wanted some appreciation. i wanted some fun with friends and to feel free to make new ones without jealousy and nagging and why cant i come and annoying immature stuff. i wanted TRUST. this is good, keep reminding yourself of what you wanted and it makes you feel better about what you did. except i wanted all that and i wanted you back with it. instead i got the freedom to have all those things but no one to give them to me. i got all my friends who are the bestttt but i still find myself calling the same phone number when im bored or if i need to talk and listening to the same songs for comfort or just to get the tears out. instead of gaining more of my 'self' im losing the part of me that was most important. along with all the love and romance i completely gave up my best friend. i gave up something that i dont feel like i could have with anyone else, which is what i wanted to test at first, i guess. since we couldnt stay away from each other i guess that would be my answer. we shouldnt stay away from each other.... i guess? i didnt think i would be this upset or lost or anything cuz all i wanted was to have some time for me. some time alone to refresh things. then again i guess i dont know what i wanted.
so what now? well who the hell knows. i just miss my best friend. i feel like the time i have to myself now is time i could be spending with you, and im missing out on the great times we could be having and i know its times like those that have brought us to the point of best friendliness. so basically im tearing it apart.
I took for granted all the times
that I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
but I cant get near you now
oh can't you see it baby
you've got me going crazy
wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
whatever it takes, or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I wonder how we can survive this romance
but in the end if im with you, I'll take the chance
what did i want? well i dont know what i wanted.. i wanted some space and i wanted some appreciation. i wanted some fun with friends and to feel free to make new ones without jealousy and nagging and why cant i come and annoying immature stuff. i wanted TRUST. this is good, keep reminding yourself of what you wanted and it makes you feel better about what you did. except i wanted all that and i wanted you back with it. instead i got the freedom to have all those things but no one to give them to me. i got all my friends who are the bestttt but i still find myself calling the same phone number when im bored or if i need to talk and listening to the same songs for comfort or just to get the tears out. instead of gaining more of my 'self' im losing the part of me that was most important. along with all the love and romance i completely gave up my best friend. i gave up something that i dont feel like i could have with anyone else, which is what i wanted to test at first, i guess. since we couldnt stay away from each other i guess that would be my answer. we shouldnt stay away from each other.... i guess? i didnt think i would be this upset or lost or anything cuz all i wanted was to have some time for me. some time alone to refresh things. then again i guess i dont know what i wanted.
so what now? well who the hell knows. i just miss my best friend. i feel like the time i have to myself now is time i could be spending with you, and im missing out on the great times we could be having and i know its times like those that have brought us to the point of best friendliness. so basically im tearing it apart.
I took for granted all the times
that I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
but I cant get near you now
oh can't you see it baby
you've got me going crazy
wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
whatever it takes, or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I wonder how we can survive this romance
but in the end if im with you, I'll take the chance