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[cinnimonphoenix]

This year at Central Michigan University has simply flown by, I've met some incredible people many of whom I am certain will be friends for a long time to come. There have been alot of changes in my life, the biggest of which is finding myself. No I wasn't lost, but I liked to hide behind the surface and only wear a smile when the camera was on me. My relationship with God, I realize alot of people don't believe in God and that is their choice. I am not going to push my beliefs on anyone and I certainly don't plan on telling you to change who you are. Being honest with myself I am very aware how much I depend on other people. Too much in fact. I am going to try to simply depend on God for awhile. I have a flexible job that I enjoy very much. I am moving out not simply for school but period. When school is done I'll find an apartment somewhere, where ever my career takes me. This year has taught me alot of things. When I leave the dorms in 29 days, I will look for a few jobs in the Dearborn area. These two semesters have been very tough but amazingly REWARDING. I've come to know who I am, who I was, who I want to be, and what I can never be. More then that I've learned to not be so afraid. Especially that when I leave or someone I love leaves its not always for good, in fact it hardly ever is unless God choses to take them from my life. I am in a really good place. I've had six really confusing years, and i'm glad to break free from the pain I let, bring me down. Yes I am always going to have fibromyalgia, I will always have parents who feel overwhelmed by the illness' they have. But I believe when something like that happens...call it genetics, God, accidents. That they teach us how to grow through pain, and maybe help someone who later on will go through something just as horrible, well they won't feel as alone.I will always be Liz, the zany goofy fun, sometimes obnoxious girl...woman, who no matter what has the ability to evok some feeling or response from you. For the first time in my life, I love who I am, I trust that no matter what somehow everything will work out for the best. Random miracles do happen, for instance both my parents are still alive when they could have died several times, and i am alive when i almost did twice. I believe there is a reason I'm here, and I'm sure it will be a good one even if in twenty years i get hit by a car trying to push a kid out of the way or I die in child birth. I believe there is a reason for everything.
I also believe that i have two of the best friends in the world that would be there no matter what, sure i have alot more people that love me... but I know no matter what happens in my life I have them always. I am a very blessed person, even on the days when it hurts to move. I'm glad to know all of you and I'm sorry I haven't written in forever, I've been insanely busy. By the way incase you haven't already heard which I doubt. My Best Friend Forever Lydia is going to Marry one Keith Michaluk