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I am feeling nostalgic tonight. I don't get a lot of time to myself to sit and reflect at night. That's something I really miss. Chris and I sit in the den watching TV and surfing the web all night, until we inevitably have to take it to the bedroom. I miss being able to lie in bed all by myself and day dream, think or pray. It sorta sucks.
Oh, and I also miss David. I go through these spells where I miss my ex'es from time to time. Believe it or not, he was so sweet and romantic. He was just so thoughtful, and fun to talk to. The porn addiction kinda deterred me. But that aside, I think he came from a great family! I was reading over his favorite Christmas memories on FB, and it just melted my heart! Anyway, I'll stop being sappy.
This time last year, Colton was in my TUMMY! I tell him that all the time. Its very strange. At the same time, I almost don't believe he's my child. I was there when he was born... LOL.. and I've done a FULL YEAR of diaper changes, feedings, and baths.... but its hard to believe. He looks so grown up already. I am honestly excited about him growing up. Learning to walk, and play. I can't wait to do all the really FUN kiddie stuff with him as he gets older! It's going to be awesome!
Anyway, I should go to bed. I enjoy being with Chris every now and then. It's just very far and few... It might just be me - the way I am. I would probably be that way with any guy I ended up with. I am never satisfied. Seriously. But I am having a great week.
I got back on Strattera. I don't know if I told anybody. And I'm doing super great. I was dealing with a loosing battle..... our house was so dirty all the time that I was afraid DHR was going to take Colton away from me if they ever saw it. There were lots of bugs in our house, and junk laying around everywhere. :-( And Chris came home and yelled at me for it every day. I finally got on Strattera for ADD... and the house started magically cleaning itself - no joke... it's like I suddenly have all the time in the world and everything is so EASY... things I used to beat myself up over.... just magically takes care of itself and is no hasle.
Oh, and I also miss David. I go through these spells where I miss my ex'es from time to time. Believe it or not, he was so sweet and romantic. He was just so thoughtful, and fun to talk to. The porn addiction kinda deterred me. But that aside, I think he came from a great family! I was reading over his favorite Christmas memories on FB, and it just melted my heart! Anyway, I'll stop being sappy.
This time last year, Colton was in my TUMMY! I tell him that all the time. Its very strange. At the same time, I almost don't believe he's my child. I was there when he was born... LOL.. and I've done a FULL YEAR of diaper changes, feedings, and baths.... but its hard to believe. He looks so grown up already. I am honestly excited about him growing up. Learning to walk, and play. I can't wait to do all the really FUN kiddie stuff with him as he gets older! It's going to be awesome!
Anyway, I should go to bed. I enjoy being with Chris every now and then. It's just very far and few... It might just be me - the way I am. I would probably be that way with any guy I ended up with. I am never satisfied. Seriously. But I am having a great week.
I got back on Strattera. I don't know if I told anybody. And I'm doing super great. I was dealing with a loosing battle..... our house was so dirty all the time that I was afraid DHR was going to take Colton away from me if they ever saw it. There were lots of bugs in our house, and junk laying around everywhere. :-( And Chris came home and yelled at me for it every day. I finally got on Strattera for ADD... and the house started magically cleaning itself - no joke... it's like I suddenly have all the time in the world and everything is so EASY... things I used to beat myself up over.... just magically takes care of itself and is no hasle.