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I don't know what I should do. My mom just told me my dad was worried I would drop out of school to try to support the family. It's scary 'cause that's what I was actually planning to do if things really got that bad.
He doesn't want to do chemo because the cancer has already spread throughout his body and it's probably in his lymph system. Why weren't there any signs? We only found out just recently. It couldn't have spread that fast.
I know that I'm supposed to give support and stuff but I can't even look at him without my eyes tearing up. I can't accept this yet. My sister hasn't even graduated high school yet. I only just started university.
2 to 6 months. How can this be.
What's worse is that I think I am scared of this. I can't face it. I'm scared to look at him. I'm scared to be at the hospital but I feel like I'm obligated to go there after school.
Should he do chemo? His body is already so weak. What if they target the cancer in the intestines and the cancer in his liver acts up.
I've always felt like I was the stronger sibling but now it seems like my sister is taking it better than I am.
What do I do?
I feel like I've lost all connection with God. I can't seem to be able to pray or anything. There's something blocking me. Usually when these things happen, don't people find the truth and turn to Him?
Funny but not so funny thing is, I've always imagined something happening. It didn't come as a surprise actually. It was only a matter of time but how that it has, I never thought that it would be so hard to accept.
He doesn't want to do chemo because the cancer has already spread throughout his body and it's probably in his lymph system. Why weren't there any signs? We only found out just recently. It couldn't have spread that fast.
I know that I'm supposed to give support and stuff but I can't even look at him without my eyes tearing up. I can't accept this yet. My sister hasn't even graduated high school yet. I only just started university.
2 to 6 months. How can this be.
What's worse is that I think I am scared of this. I can't face it. I'm scared to look at him. I'm scared to be at the hospital but I feel like I'm obligated to go there after school.
Should he do chemo? His body is already so weak. What if they target the cancer in the intestines and the cancer in his liver acts up.
I've always felt like I was the stronger sibling but now it seems like my sister is taking it better than I am.
What do I do?
I feel like I've lost all connection with God. I can't seem to be able to pray or anything. There's something blocking me. Usually when these things happen, don't people find the truth and turn to Him?
Funny but not so funny thing is, I've always imagined something happening. It didn't come as a surprise actually. It was only a matter of time but how that it has, I never thought that it would be so hard to accept.