as winter sets in...
These last few weeks have been tough with a capital T. My home life has been a struggle, school has been more stressful then its ever been before, my social life is stagnant, and I have no clue who the hell I am. Yes that last part sounds so cheesy, but I feel there's no other way to describe what I've been going through lately. I've changed so much in the past few years,(and not always for the better) and it feels like I've lost any grip on who I am as a person. I know I have to remain open when these kinds of changes occur, but sometimes I just feel like shutting everything out.
I'm not writing this as a complaint, or an excuse, I'm just sorting through a lot of what I've been experiencing in my life lately. I'm going to be an adult next year, and off on my own in half that time, and I'm just trying to break out of alot of my old bad habits. Most of them being social ones. I just have so much to sort through, and I'm more confused about everything thats going on than I've ever been in my entire life. I'm being called to grow and be a bigger and better person, Im just not sure how I'll go about doing it. This is about as hard as it gets.
I'm not writing this as a complaint, or an excuse, I'm just sorting through a lot of what I've been experiencing in my life lately. I'm going to be an adult next year, and off on my own in half that time, and I'm just trying to break out of alot of my old bad habits. Most of them being social ones. I just have so much to sort through, and I'm more confused about everything thats going on than I've ever been in my entire life. I'm being called to grow and be a bigger and better person, Im just not sure how I'll go about doing it. This is about as hard as it gets.