Comments | cinicolives: (без темы)

cinicolives

(Untitled)

Jun 29, 2008 21:42

My own impulsiveness has led me to absolute despair again. I've destroyed the chance of friendship with Joe. My clinging to this long-dead relationship is another disturbing sign of how truly crazy I have allowed myself to become. My fixations are a daily embarrassment. I suppose I built all of the disasters of the past two years unto that one ( Read more... )

Comments 12

bad_compulsion June 30 2008, 05:03:21 UTC

Please don't. I like reading your posts, and it'd make me sad if I couldn't read anymore. :(

cinicolives July 5 2008, 20:26:29 UTC

I'm trying not to.

bad_compulsion July 7 2008, 22:48:08 UTC

:)
If you ever need anything, I'm here for you. :)

nightmareteeth June 30 2008, 09:19:01 UTC

i feel like this too. it seems like to me like that faint hope is only biology's cruel survival instinct. something inside that persists, "LIVE!" when your head heart soul can barely speak, much less give any encouragements.

it's a waiting game. passive-aggressive russian roulette.

cinicolives July 5 2008, 20:26:20 UTC

This very thought terrifies me more than anything.

evan_time June 30 2008, 15:12:18 UTC

But you can still write! Fuck, can you write. Your words fall over each other, forming such beautiful sentences. Cling to that, and realise you'll always have it, and that it brings something to others, and even if you think it's pointless at the time, you can look back and read things you've written and (despite every self-flagellating urge in your soul) still somehow admit to yourself that they're pretty fucking shit hot, and full of a meaning that will outlast you ( ... )

cinicolives July 5 2008, 20:25:58 UTC

This comment was so frenzied. I like it. And you.

evan_time July 7 2008, 15:54:22 UTC

Simple but touching, thank you. I like you too.

fairyxcake June 30 2008, 23:27:21 UTC

Heartbreak is a very physical pain, I know.

Please, don't kill yourself. I understand what it's like when you're the lowest of the low but you WILL find the strength to pick yourself up again.

cinicolives July 5 2008, 20:25:06 UTC

catkins July 4 2008, 20:09:45 UTC

i barely know you, but i think i can safely say (something someone said to me, once. and that is:) you deserve so much more than what you've got, baby.

cinicolives July 5 2008, 20:24:48 UTC

Thank you, darling. I'm not sure that's true but hopefully I can make it true by improving my general behavior towards humanity and the world.