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for once in my life, i feel good about the life style i have made for myself. though at times strange, it's pretty fascinating and immensely fucked up. i have a lot of fun doing whatever it is that i do. i hang out with great people. i have control over my out of control'ness. tonight was so amazing. just seeing you for one second is enough. this feeling is so crazy.. i hope it lasts.
anyway, tomorrow i have an appointment with dats. i need to go there before i can get to a doctor that prescribes suboxone. i don't really understand why i need to go. everyone else i know that is on suboxone didn't have to go to there. it's fucked. i hate dats. it's so gross and creepy. i've been doing heroin since last april. i think it's time i do something about it since rehab obviously didn't help.
uuuughhhh i'm gonna miss lil madeline. she's going away for 5 days and like, i don't know how i am going to breathe without her. this blowssss!!
anyway, tomorrow i have an appointment with dats. i need to go there before i can get to a doctor that prescribes suboxone. i don't really understand why i need to go. everyone else i know that is on suboxone didn't have to go to there. it's fucked. i hate dats. it's so gross and creepy. i've been doing heroin since last april. i think it's time i do something about it since rehab obviously didn't help.
uuuughhhh i'm gonna miss lil madeline. she's going away for 5 days and like, i don't know how i am going to breathe without her. this blowssss!!