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I have been e-mailing an old friend I had lost touch with lately. She knew me and she knew my ex as well. We had a double wedding together. I always knew she didn't quite believe me about how bad he was to me. She never said as much but it was definately implied. Anyway, I just got done repling to her again. She says how sad it is he won't get help from a doctor so he could be old Andy again. I about shit. I mean he was awful to me and everything he was before was a lie. He lied to me from day one. It was so hard to read that. I wrote back how he has seen doctors and has borderline personality disorder (actually I still believe it's more like anti-social), andyway and how he doesn't care much about his kid and seeing him regularly and all that. How he and his friend got me drunk and basically raped me, and how he would just explode and hit me about the head and back with his fists or kick with his feet, or even pull my around by my hair. I endured this for two and a half years before I got out. I really hurts that she knows this and doesn't believe me. I suffer from post traumatic stress disorder, and yet, here we are. I guess, she wasn't there. Damn it still hurts.