Rest In Peace Michael
So today is 2 years. 2 years ago on this day, I lost the one person who I thought would never leave me. Sounds selfish saying "me" but that's not how I mean it. It's just still so unbelievable that he is gone. My big brother, my protector. The one who was always there for me when I needed him. It's so I don't know.. weird, the things I remember the most about him. I remember this one time, I was sitting on my bed crying because I had just been betrayed by a good friend of mine. He walked in my room because he was going to get the phone from me. He sat next to me and he was like what's wrong. So I told him and I just cried and cried, he hugged me and told me not to worry about it, that if someone was going to treat me like that , then they were never really a friend to me. He made me feel better. I remember another time that I was feeling really down on myself, and I confided in him about it and he told me that I was pretty and he didn't care what anybody else thought about me because he was always going to think that of me. As much as we fought, and all the times when we were younger that he'd make fun of me because I was fat.... He was also the only one that really made me feel good about myself in that one moment. I think it's because of him that I don't care what anybody else thinks about me. I don't embarrass easily like I used to. There are so many things running through my head right now about how protective he was of me. He was always willing to kick someone's ass for me. Guys of course. I don't have that person in my life anymore. The one who I know I can count on to be like "don't worry dude, I'll kick his ass for you" My brother was the only one who would ever fight for me. I lost my protector, my big brother. I still carry him in my heart every single day and I hope that he watches over me. I know he does. He's my guardian angel. I couldn't ask for a better one. I still to this day look up to him. How he fought for weeks in that hospital bed till he couldn't fight anymore. He never gave up, I admire him so much. He's my hero. He will always be my hero. I love you Michael. May you rest in peace. Until we meet again... like you used to tell me... "laters fool"
"I'll see you on the other side, if I make it. It might be a long hard ride, but I'm gonna take it. Sometimes it seems that I don't have a prayer, let the weather take me anywhere. But I know that I wanna go where the streets are gold, cause you'll be there."