Loss

[cindymonkey]

when we lose people, in friendships or in the greater scheme of Life, we mourn the loss of them, but also there is a mourning of ourselves. I am a different person, different facets of me are highlighted or fade out with every person in my life. Losing her, someone so significant, I feel erased. And I feel like I am fighting to not let her be

Comments

[nerak_g]

oh, emchy. hugs & condolences. <3 <3 <3

[slackerstalker]

Cindy, I'm in my own grieving mess right now, so I don't have a lot of energy to send your way, but I just want to say I've been thinking about your posts about the friend/guardian you lost. This is in many ways how I feel about my elderly friend/guardian Barbara back in NNY, and I know I'll be devastated when she goes. She is one of the people who made me not only feel better about everything but made me a better person through her wisdom and kindness. My parents selling the house in NNY and moving away to Michigan last month effectively cuts me off from visiting her (I can't afford the $1000 plane ticket and rental car to travel to/from the airport to see her), so among everything else I've also been grieving her, even though she isn't gone yet.

All I can say is-- I wish you strength and courage and the ability to ask for help and keep asking for help.