sorry its been so long...
ok so i have had a really good past two days, well other than my sara getting hurt and bering my broken heart out to aaron, but at least some good came out of the later of the two.
so last night we went to EC, which was so much fun! and not to sound stuck up but i looked hott! i know vain much but i really went all out for it.and shannon was my girlfriend for the evening which was so fun... and i danced at a club and had fun and didnt care:) um lets see, James(shannon)won the drag king thingy sorry dont really know how to um describe it, but she looked so hott as a man, ahhh....hehe lets see then i talked to a today and it was good for me at least... i think i pissed him off at the end, well i know i did but i need to do what i did. he was such a huge part of my life and i just need to let it go. so thats what im doing. or well at least trying to do.
i want to send out a huge thank you to sara, laura frank and jd. not that i dont love everybody else because i do. but i would never have survived without you. ok. so i mine as well say it. i love aaron, hehe,not him now i love the him that was mine. and ill always have that. no one can take it away from me.i just have to realise we are different people now. he doesnt want to be with me, and as weird as it is i dont really want to be with him, hes changed, hes not the same aaron if you know what i mean. and i have to figure out what i want, and then i have to figure out how to get it.hmm... now on to that problem
WHAT DO I WANT.....well i want to be a mom....hmm... i need a guy for that....hmm... he has to be....sweet loving,cute trust worthy, and well in order to have that i need time...time to heal and time to play around and have friends.so this is gonna be a big ordeal.... yay... something to keep me busy.
ps. sorry if what i did hurt but i needed to do it. i cant hold on to my old dream because there us no way that it will happen. please dont be mad at me for it
any ways i love you all bunches! mwaw
so last night we went to EC, which was so much fun! and not to sound stuck up but i looked hott! i know vain much but i really went all out for it.and shannon was my girlfriend for the evening which was so fun... and i danced at a club and had fun and didnt care:) um lets see, James(shannon)won the drag king thingy sorry dont really know how to um describe it, but she looked so hott as a man, ahhh....hehe lets see then i talked to a today and it was good for me at least... i think i pissed him off at the end, well i know i did but i need to do what i did. he was such a huge part of my life and i just need to let it go. so thats what im doing. or well at least trying to do.
i want to send out a huge thank you to sara, laura frank and jd. not that i dont love everybody else because i do. but i would never have survived without you. ok. so i mine as well say it. i love aaron, hehe,not him now i love the him that was mine. and ill always have that. no one can take it away from me.i just have to realise we are different people now. he doesnt want to be with me, and as weird as it is i dont really want to be with him, hes changed, hes not the same aaron if you know what i mean. and i have to figure out what i want, and then i have to figure out how to get it.hmm... now on to that problem
WHAT DO I WANT.....well i want to be a mom....hmm... i need a guy for that....hmm... he has to be....sweet loving,cute trust worthy, and well in order to have that i need time...time to heal and time to play around and have friends.so this is gonna be a big ordeal.... yay... something to keep me busy.
ps. sorry if what i did hurt but i needed to do it. i cant hold on to my old dream because there us no way that it will happen. please dont be mad at me for it
any ways i love you all bunches! mwaw