I'm a Mess....
Can guys differentiate between what is 'playful' and what is 'disrespectful'?
Is that what characterizes them as "horny assholes" to so many girls?
In their minds, are they just being 'playful'? Is that what they tell themselves?!
Why doesn't he just say it?!
"I wouldn't have to try to force you if you did it more often (or even wanted to do it at all!)!"
I am so infinitely sick of this fight--and I'm sure he is, too... but for much different reasons.
I am making this phenomenal effort not to get upset with him--the way that Mom always does to Dad.
I think that's unhealthy.
I deserve to be mad sometimes!!!
Why am I not mad!?
I'm suddenly so disappointed in myself.
I'd rather be cowardly and run away from who I am (so much like my mom) than face up to what I should feel.
I even make compromising promises to myself to control my emotions.
I convince myself otherwise.
Maybe the way he loves me is just different than the way that I love him.
Or do I just not know what love is?
Is that what characterizes them as "horny assholes" to so many girls?
In their minds, are they just being 'playful'? Is that what they tell themselves?!
Why doesn't he just say it?!
"I wouldn't have to try to force you if you did it more often (or even wanted to do it at all!)!"
I am so infinitely sick of this fight--and I'm sure he is, too... but for much different reasons.
I am making this phenomenal effort not to get upset with him--the way that Mom always does to Dad.
I think that's unhealthy.
I deserve to be mad sometimes!!!
Why am I not mad!?
I'm suddenly so disappointed in myself.
I'd rather be cowardly and run away from who I am (so much like my mom) than face up to what I should feel.
I even make compromising promises to myself to control my emotions.
I convince myself otherwise.
Maybe the way he loves me is just different than the way that I love him.
Or do I just not know what love is?