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[cindermanda7]

What has happened to me?
Why cant i have the perfect boyfriend?
Why cant i just have a boyfriend?
Why do i get stuck at home when all my best friends are out with there boyfriends?
How can life be so good and yet at the same time be so shitty?
How come i cant just be content with who i am?

God! Why cant i just be more like them?

Comments

[cherrychick069]

what the hell, amanda? not all ofyour best friends have boyfriends anyway...silly girl. and you don't want to be "more like" us. none of us are perfect...stop worrying...sometimes you have to wait longer than you'd like to. everybody is different...i'm sorry that you are upset..i'm so sorry. id on't like seeing you sad.

i lovelot you.

[cindermanda7]

Ashley the only one of my Best friends who doesnt have a boyfriend is Candis. I am just so sick of waiting. You have no idea what its like to sit home by yourself on saturday night because all of your friends are out with there boyfriends. I hate it. I am just sick of being me. Its so hard for all you guys to understand and im not asking you to. Its just me, im just being difficult, like always, thats me....The dificult one who doesnt believe anything but what i think.

((If any of that even makes sense))

[ponkminkeys]

i know how that feels, thats why we are always together on saturday nights lol i love you...and we will sit and not wait, but wonder when its going to happen for us, and then we will dream about our perfect boy... then when we wake up we will discuss our dreams and make WAFFLES!!!!

[cindermanda7]

I love you! You just made my day!

[cpt_crunch16]

hey, if i count as one of your "bestest" friends, i sit at home alone almost every saturday night.... and i'm of the opposite gender.... i think we MIGHT be able to help each other out....

[cindermanda7]

Joey i love you! and for the record you are one of my bestest friends!

[cherrychick069]

well you need to start listening..if you know whats wrong, then maybe you can fix it? at one point, i sat at home alomst every saturday night while you and everyone else was out partying or what not. you may feel like you are alone..but thats just because it was one saturday night where you got screwed over because she never called you back..and other people made plans by that time..it used to happen to me allll the time.... no one ever calls me back...i'm used to it by now. ((this may come out mean..but its not meant to be..its just to letyou know that i've been tehre too...just not right now))

i love you.
ashley

[cindermanda7]

Yeah well...it just hurts and you always seem to have a boyfriend....and if you dont then i dont, and we always hang out when you dont have a boyfriend. But when i dont have a boyfriend we rarely see each other

[cherrychick069]

there was like, a long while where i didn't have a boyfriend. it seems like i do because it feels like me and bryan have been together for longer than we really have been. our 4 month hasn't even come up yet. i know we don't hang out as much, and i'm sorry for that. i guess its just when i'm not with hanging out with him, you already have plans..or we do hang out. next year will be different, with him not living here, ya know? just these next couple months you're going to have to cut me some slack... i'm going to be a mess once hes gone. i'm sorry that i hurt you.

[cindermanda7]

You didnt hurt me. I just really dont want to talk about this anymore.

[cherrychick069]

oh.sorry.