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Have you ever had someone who is close to you pass away? Do you have any idea what it feels like to know someone you love is going to pass away? The worst feeling in the world is knowing that that person is never going to be around. Shes never going to be there to watch me get married, and shes never going to see me have kids...but i now that in my heart she will always be there watching over me watching over my someday family...she will always be there in my heart! I love her!
I worry about her so much that i cant even begin to tell you howmuch my family is going to miss her! She helped raise me, she taught me good manners and when my mom or dad was mean she would be there holding my hand and telling me everthing is okay. Now i am the one holding her hand and telling her everthing is going to be okay. Shes so weak so little...so confused that it saddens my heart to she her like this. Sitting day after day in a hospital that she has no interest to be in! She has no idea whats going to happen to her and half the time she is not even there! She knows that i love her and then we all love her! But she cant do this anymore! We have been hoping for 10 years that she would hold on. But she cant! I just wish that she could go peacefully and and not have to suffer anymore! The doctor says that we have up to a month left with her, and if that month mark comes along and she still sitting in that hospital, i dont what i am going to do! I want her to be there forever and see me grow up! But i dont want her to suffer anymore! At this rate it would take a miracle to save her. And miracles only happen once in a blue moon. I just want to make sure that she knows how much i love her! How much we all love her! I dont want her to go, but i know in my heart its best for her. I know in my heart and i believe that god will do the right thing whatever that may be!
I love you Nana! You will always be in my heart!
Always and Forever..Amanda
I worry about her so much that i cant even begin to tell you howmuch my family is going to miss her! She helped raise me, she taught me good manners and when my mom or dad was mean she would be there holding my hand and telling me everthing is okay. Now i am the one holding her hand and telling her everthing is going to be okay. Shes so weak so little...so confused that it saddens my heart to she her like this. Sitting day after day in a hospital that she has no interest to be in! She has no idea whats going to happen to her and half the time she is not even there! She knows that i love her and then we all love her! But she cant do this anymore! We have been hoping for 10 years that she would hold on. But she cant! I just wish that she could go peacefully and and not have to suffer anymore! The doctor says that we have up to a month left with her, and if that month mark comes along and she still sitting in that hospital, i dont what i am going to do! I want her to be there forever and see me grow up! But i dont want her to suffer anymore! At this rate it would take a miracle to save her. And miracles only happen once in a blue moon. I just want to make sure that she knows how much i love her! How much we all love her! I dont want her to go, but i know in my heart its best for her. I know in my heart and i believe that god will do the right thing whatever that may be!
I love you Nana! You will always be in my heart!
Always and Forever..Amanda