"and let me love you, oh baby, let me love you."
Day 01 - Introduce yourself
Day 02 - Your first love, in great detail
I had this friend named Leslie who used to get crushes and then not talk to them. Finally I decided I was going to do something about it. She was a sweet awesome girl who I adored and I wanted her to see that in herself. So one Saturday I took her to the place where her crush worked. I met his mom (she worked there, too) and hung out in the back room hoping Leslie would MAKE HER MOVE. She didn’t, but we invited him out to a movie that night and I hoped that would work out. It didn’t. And then I did something I’m not proud of. I developed a crush. A HUGE CRUSH. But I tried my best to hide it.
That’s how I met Michael. We started dating about a month later. I still feel a pang of guilt about how it hurt Les even though it's been nearly a DECADE. (JAYSUS.)
Michael was… I don’t know. Everything that a high school boyfriend should be. He was a little inept, a little dorky, but he really tried and as a girl who thought she was never going to find a guy who could put up with her I was sunk pretty quick. About two weeks after we started I was in a pretty heinous roll over accident and he was on the phone with me at the time. He met me at the hospital and held my hand even when I looked like crap.
We had one of those relationships that ran hot and cold and I take my half of the blame for that. I was guarded and nervous and clingy. He was closed off and self centered and not really invested. We did have good times, however. Like when I first told him about my leg and was convinced he would break up with me (I'm a FREAK) and instead he brought over a bag of Hershey's hugs and we lay in my backyard and watched the stars. Or when he wrote me a poem in French for Valentine's Day.
But at the very end it was just bad bad bad juju. He joined a fraternity and basically started to date the fraternity rather than me. He forgot dates and got upset when I went into clingy mode (which made me more clingy, you see the trend). We were both still trying to be who we were in high school and it just wasn't possible.
We dated for three and a half years and probably hung on for about two years too long. Maybe it was the fact that I was only a kid but I genuinely believed us to be something special. He broke up with me (at the same place he asked me out!) claiming a need for “space” and to be single and then started dating a prettier, sweeter and more accomplished girl than me. She was blonde hair blue eyed and GORGEOUS. The worst part was she was too sweet for me to hate. The bitch.
Stupidly I went back up to NAU and spent a semester continually crying, acting like I was fine and drinking my problems away. It was ill advised.
It took me an embarrassing amount of time, tears, and not well thought out emails to get over him. But the good thing is I got the best part of the break up. I still see his mom (whom I love) and his sister (who is like my sister). Now I see him as Danielle’s brother, pure and simple. It’s nice this way. Plus without him I wouldn’t have met Timm. So silver lining and all that, haha. ;)
Day 03 - Your parents, in great detail
Day 04 - What you ate today, in great detail
Day 05 - Your definition of love, in great detail
Day 06 - Your day, in great detail
Day 07 - Your best friend, in great detail
Day 08 - A moment, in great detail
Day 09 - Your beliefs, in great detail
Day 10 - What you wore today, in great detail
Day 11 - Your siblings, in great detail
Day 12 - What’s in your bag, in great detail
Day 13 - This week, in great detail
Day 14 - What you wore today, in great detail
Day 15 - Your dreams, in great detail
Day 16 - Your first kiss, in great detail
Day 17 - Your favorite memory, in great detail
Day 18 - Your favorite birthday, in great detail
Day 19 - Something you regret, in great detail
Day 20 - This month, in great detail
Day 21 - Another moment, in great detail
Day 22 - Something that upsets you, in great detail
Day 23 - Something that makes you feel better, in great detail
Day 24 - Something that makes you cry, in great detail
Day 25 - A first, in great detail
Day 26 - Your fears, in great detail
Day 27 - Your favorite place, in great detail
Day 28 - Something that you miss, in great detail
Day 29 - Your aspirations, in great detail
Day 30 - One last moment, in great detail
Day 02 - Your first love, in great detail
I had this friend named Leslie who used to get crushes and then not talk to them. Finally I decided I was going to do something about it. She was a sweet awesome girl who I adored and I wanted her to see that in herself. So one Saturday I took her to the place where her crush worked. I met his mom (she worked there, too) and hung out in the back room hoping Leslie would MAKE HER MOVE. She didn’t, but we invited him out to a movie that night and I hoped that would work out. It didn’t. And then I did something I’m not proud of. I developed a crush. A HUGE CRUSH. But I tried my best to hide it.
That’s how I met Michael. We started dating about a month later. I still feel a pang of guilt about how it hurt Les even though it's been nearly a DECADE. (JAYSUS.)
Michael was… I don’t know. Everything that a high school boyfriend should be. He was a little inept, a little dorky, but he really tried and as a girl who thought she was never going to find a guy who could put up with her I was sunk pretty quick. About two weeks after we started I was in a pretty heinous roll over accident and he was on the phone with me at the time. He met me at the hospital and held my hand even when I looked like crap.
We had one of those relationships that ran hot and cold and I take my half of the blame for that. I was guarded and nervous and clingy. He was closed off and self centered and not really invested. We did have good times, however. Like when I first told him about my leg and was convinced he would break up with me (I'm a FREAK) and instead he brought over a bag of Hershey's hugs and we lay in my backyard and watched the stars. Or when he wrote me a poem in French for Valentine's Day.
But at the very end it was just bad bad bad juju. He joined a fraternity and basically started to date the fraternity rather than me. He forgot dates and got upset when I went into clingy mode (which made me more clingy, you see the trend). We were both still trying to be who we were in high school and it just wasn't possible.
We dated for three and a half years and probably hung on for about two years too long. Maybe it was the fact that I was only a kid but I genuinely believed us to be something special. He broke up with me (at the same place he asked me out!) claiming a need for “space” and to be single and then started dating a prettier, sweeter and more accomplished girl than me. She was blonde hair blue eyed and GORGEOUS. The worst part was she was too sweet for me to hate. The bitch.
Stupidly I went back up to NAU and spent a semester continually crying, acting like I was fine and drinking my problems away. It was ill advised.
It took me an embarrassing amount of time, tears, and not well thought out emails to get over him. But the good thing is I got the best part of the break up. I still see his mom (whom I love) and his sister (who is like my sister). Now I see him as Danielle’s brother, pure and simple. It’s nice this way. Plus without him I wouldn’t have met Timm. So silver lining and all that, haha. ;)
Day 03 - Your parents, in great detail
Day 04 - What you ate today, in great detail
Day 05 - Your definition of love, in great detail
Day 06 - Your day, in great detail
Day 07 - Your best friend, in great detail
Day 08 - A moment, in great detail
Day 09 - Your beliefs, in great detail
Day 10 - What you wore today, in great detail
Day 11 - Your siblings, in great detail
Day 12 - What’s in your bag, in great detail
Day 13 - This week, in great detail
Day 14 - What you wore today, in great detail
Day 15 - Your dreams, in great detail
Day 16 - Your first kiss, in great detail
Day 17 - Your favorite memory, in great detail
Day 18 - Your favorite birthday, in great detail
Day 19 - Something you regret, in great detail
Day 20 - This month, in great detail
Day 21 - Another moment, in great detail
Day 22 - Something that upsets you, in great detail
Day 23 - Something that makes you feel better, in great detail
Day 24 - Something that makes you cry, in great detail
Day 25 - A first, in great detail
Day 26 - Your fears, in great detail
Day 27 - Your favorite place, in great detail
Day 28 - Something that you miss, in great detail
Day 29 - Your aspirations, in great detail
Day 30 - One last moment, in great detail