okay...
so yeah. i know i'm a sucky lj friend. i never update anymore, and i don't even comment like i did. but i have to make a very necessary update now.
let me first start out by saying, i love all my friends. i've always said, i may not have a bunch of friends, but what few i have are awesome. and even my strictly lj friends that i've never even met...i couldn't ask for better people. so yeah, i just want to address that.
now. my dear spencer made this huge post about our friendship, and i started typing a comment to him in reply and i realized that it was too long for a comment, and it just needed its own special post, so that's what this is. so spencer, this post is specifically for you and i'm going to address it directly to you.
k, so first off. your post. omg. spencer. you have absolutely no idea how much i needed to read that. that seriously just made like my entire year. i had to fight back tears because there was like a ton of people in here and i don't want everyone being like OMG WTH IS WRONG WITH YOU?! lol but i'm still on the verge of crying.
but you know, i totally feel the same way about you. i am so very, very blessed to have had the pleasure of meeting you. i can't even imagine my life without you. i feel like i've known you since...well since i was born. lol like you said, we go through a lot of the same types of situations, and i always know when something is happening that i can come to you and you'll completely understand me and back me up 100%.
in the last year, we've both dealt with a lot of crap. we've had ups and downs, and through it all, you've been there for me. we can go days without talking, and i know that i can still call you and we can pick up exactly where we left off. you always listen to me, and you take what i say seriously. you make me feel like what i have to say is important. you make me feel like i'm important.
i know you worry that you're never going to find anyone. i worry about that with myself. but regardless, it doesn't matter. yes, it would be nice to have somebody relationship wise, but no matter what i know i have you. we are like soul mates, i totally agree. i mean what are the odds that we'd meet on a random internet blog site and end up living within two hours of one another? like you said, God had to have arranged that. it's too big of a coincidence. you were what i needed at the time, and what i still need. i only hope that i can do as much for you and be there as much for you as you are for me.
it's so sucky that we don't see each other more than we do. it's basically a visit two or three times a year. that bites. but some of the best memories of my entire twenty years have been the times that i was there or you were here. i wouldn't trade any of that for all of the money in the world.
as you know, on my shelf above my desk i have the very first picture ever taken of us. it's such a sucky picture of me...and you're making this random goofy face...lmao but i love it. i look at it and i'm reminded of what true friendship is, and i know deep down that i'm never going to be completely alone. so thank you for putting that in my life.
i know you get down on yourself sometimes...and i know you feel like life is just too much. but seriously...you're like the best guy i've ever met. period. i couldn't ask for a better person. everything about you is just so amazing. i don't know how else to describe you other than that. amazing. there are not enough words in the english language to show my appreciation for you, so i'm just going to stop now before i start rambling. lol
sorry for my scariness lol
spencer, i love you more than life. thank you for being you. <3333
let me first start out by saying, i love all my friends. i've always said, i may not have a bunch of friends, but what few i have are awesome. and even my strictly lj friends that i've never even met...i couldn't ask for better people. so yeah, i just want to address that.
now. my dear spencer made this huge post about our friendship, and i started typing a comment to him in reply and i realized that it was too long for a comment, and it just needed its own special post, so that's what this is. so spencer, this post is specifically for you and i'm going to address it directly to you.
k, so first off. your post. omg. spencer. you have absolutely no idea how much i needed to read that. that seriously just made like my entire year. i had to fight back tears because there was like a ton of people in here and i don't want everyone being like OMG WTH IS WRONG WITH YOU?! lol but i'm still on the verge of crying.
but you know, i totally feel the same way about you. i am so very, very blessed to have had the pleasure of meeting you. i can't even imagine my life without you. i feel like i've known you since...well since i was born. lol like you said, we go through a lot of the same types of situations, and i always know when something is happening that i can come to you and you'll completely understand me and back me up 100%.
in the last year, we've both dealt with a lot of crap. we've had ups and downs, and through it all, you've been there for me. we can go days without talking, and i know that i can still call you and we can pick up exactly where we left off. you always listen to me, and you take what i say seriously. you make me feel like what i have to say is important. you make me feel like i'm important.
i know you worry that you're never going to find anyone. i worry about that with myself. but regardless, it doesn't matter. yes, it would be nice to have somebody relationship wise, but no matter what i know i have you. we are like soul mates, i totally agree. i mean what are the odds that we'd meet on a random internet blog site and end up living within two hours of one another? like you said, God had to have arranged that. it's too big of a coincidence. you were what i needed at the time, and what i still need. i only hope that i can do as much for you and be there as much for you as you are for me.
it's so sucky that we don't see each other more than we do. it's basically a visit two or three times a year. that bites. but some of the best memories of my entire twenty years have been the times that i was there or you were here. i wouldn't trade any of that for all of the money in the world.
as you know, on my shelf above my desk i have the very first picture ever taken of us. it's such a sucky picture of me...and you're making this random goofy face...lmao but i love it. i look at it and i'm reminded of what true friendship is, and i know deep down that i'm never going to be completely alone. so thank you for putting that in my life.
i know you get down on yourself sometimes...and i know you feel like life is just too much. but seriously...you're like the best guy i've ever met. period. i couldn't ask for a better person. everything about you is just so amazing. i don't know how else to describe you other than that. amazing. there are not enough words in the english language to show my appreciation for you, so i'm just going to stop now before i start rambling. lol
sorry for my scariness lol
spencer, i love you more than life. thank you for being you. <3333