Blood In My Mouth Cause I've Been Biting My Tongue
If I said what was on my mind would it even matter? I feel my heart beat so fast when I think about him and I don't know why. I shouldn't feel this way. This is not how I work. C'mon aloof Meg where are you? Be an ice queen to him. Ignore him. Resist texting him. You can do it... you need to.. for your sanity. Move on. You'll be happier. He'll only cause you heartache again. I'm trying though. I really am. To space myself. But when I give in and text him he always says the right thing and sucks me back in. I hate it. Say the wrong thing. I know I have other options. And I'm rolling with it, trying to see what will happen. But they never usually go anywhere. Not yet at least. I know, I know. Patience. I'm just not used to being single like this. Not even dating anyone either. Its weird. I should get used to it though. I'm young. I don't need love and such right now. But it would be nice though. Oh well. I'll find someone when I'm meant to. Just relax, Meg. Dating isn't really my priority but I think about it so much. Weird. How does someone who thinks about dating a lot not even date? I've been turning guys down left and right. What's wrong with me? Ehh think about something else. Like family...
I'm in Washington right now visiting family. I saw my grandpa today. I felt so uncomfortable and sad for him. He cried today while talking to grandma. That's true love right there. I wish I could find a love like that. He couldn't imagine being without her and loved her so so much. It was like she was his wife and best friend. Which is the best. They're really lucky to have had that bond. When he cried, I didn't know what to do. Comfort him or let him be. Crying is healthy. I don't know how to comfort crying people. Mainly because no one comforts me when I cry. But that's because I only cry when I'm by myself. I wish I knew what to do. Instead of look around awkwardly debating what to do. I wanted to say grandma is in a better place that its okay. But id feel weird saying that. Wow I'm weird.. it made me sad when he walked or did little movements. It would take the air out of him. Worried me a bit..
One day left.
-Me
I'm in Washington right now visiting family. I saw my grandpa today. I felt so uncomfortable and sad for him. He cried today while talking to grandma. That's true love right there. I wish I could find a love like that. He couldn't imagine being without her and loved her so so much. It was like she was his wife and best friend. Which is the best. They're really lucky to have had that bond. When he cried, I didn't know what to do. Comfort him or let him be. Crying is healthy. I don't know how to comfort crying people. Mainly because no one comforts me when I cry. But that's because I only cry when I'm by myself. I wish I knew what to do. Instead of look around awkwardly debating what to do. I wanted to say grandma is in a better place that its okay. But id feel weird saying that. Wow I'm weird.. it made me sad when he walked or did little movements. It would take the air out of him. Worried me a bit..
One day left.
-Me