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Quick update...not much been going on, just been busy at work and of course with Emily. Trying to get ready for Christmas and it's finally here and over. I know gifts arent what makes Christmas, that it was Christ being born on a cold night in a stable. I know it should be all about enjoying it, but here lately it's hard to enjoy anything. I have been so down the past few months. I have been very unhappy. I cant seem to find that right person for me, I thought I had, but he just had sex with me and I havent spoke to him since.
I would like to know that he's ok and that he's happy. But I must not have meant anything to him because he cant even leave me a message and say that he's ok, or at least that he's alive. Sometimes I just want to hate him, but for some reason I just cant seem to bring myself to. I loved him, I still love him with everything in me. Why cant he see that?
Well Emily got lots of toys and clothes. Santa even stopped by and gave her some toys lol. We have been blessed this year and I am thankful for that.
Well that's about it for now, I'll try to update more later.
I would like to know that he's ok and that he's happy. But I must not have meant anything to him because he cant even leave me a message and say that he's ok, or at least that he's alive. Sometimes I just want to hate him, but for some reason I just cant seem to bring myself to. I loved him, I still love him with everything in me. Why cant he see that?
Well Emily got lots of toys and clothes. Santa even stopped by and gave her some toys lol. We have been blessed this year and I am thankful for that.
Well that's about it for now, I'll try to update more later.