spinning at the speed of sound
What's it gonna take to slow us down
To let the silence spin us around
What's it gonna take to drop this town
We've been spinning at the speed of sound
honestly. sometimes we just get caught up in the world. its so hard to seperate ourselves from emotion. it seems that feelings, be they good, amazing, bad, or awful... seem to captivate our own selves to the point that we cant see outside them. or at least lately thats been the case
when did it get to be like this? its been so long since ive just... been. since ive just sat there and enjoyed the moment. its always 'ok im doing this so i can do this later so i can do this even later'.... it doesnt seem to end.
(maybe its all for that 'eudaimonia' that aristotle seems to be so fond of -- basically he says that happiness is the only thing we want for itself. everything else is a means to some other end)
but ok. its good to have lists and goals. i have to believe this because i might actually stop functioning without them. but why has my life become overrun with them? the other night in copley, after a great (although very late) dinner we were all hanging out watching basketball and i couldnt even enjoy the game without figuring out my plans for the next day. i got up, got a pen and paper and planned it out.
am i insane? probably.
so ok its definately ocd-ness this semester, but only because i was so far from it last semester. literally almost blinded by feelings of... aprehension turning into excitement turning into pain... in the span of less than a month. now thats intense. and beyond that, the fact that emotions from one aspect of life (be it boy-drama or other) somehow spilled over into the other parts of my life was something that never really happened before. not cool.
maybe im over compensating now. but hey, im definately one who likes life to be in order. shambles is not my style. of course i leave room for the unexpected... its impossible not too. but i guess people like me just cant leave too much room.... because thats when shit goes down. for me, no plan is a bad plan. (for the most part). and i need to keep things seperate. especially emotions that shouldnt be crossing.
i need to keep myself in better check. so far its been good. i actually have time this semester to have fun. wow, in college? who would think. but yea. i made time. i didnt 'let it happen'. i told myself i need to make time. so i did. i didnt literally put it in my schedule, come on that would be crazy even for me. but a conscious effort on my part is what did the trick.
i guess i dont like when emotions get the better of me. thats not good, for anyone. maybe its that ive slowed myself down this semester, and ive been actually able to see outside of the current moment. and that, right now, is the solution to so many problems for me.
i can feel the silence now. ive missed it.
To let the silence spin us around
What's it gonna take to drop this town
We've been spinning at the speed of sound
honestly. sometimes we just get caught up in the world. its so hard to seperate ourselves from emotion. it seems that feelings, be they good, amazing, bad, or awful... seem to captivate our own selves to the point that we cant see outside them. or at least lately thats been the case
when did it get to be like this? its been so long since ive just... been. since ive just sat there and enjoyed the moment. its always 'ok im doing this so i can do this later so i can do this even later'.... it doesnt seem to end.
(maybe its all for that 'eudaimonia' that aristotle seems to be so fond of -- basically he says that happiness is the only thing we want for itself. everything else is a means to some other end)
but ok. its good to have lists and goals. i have to believe this because i might actually stop functioning without them. but why has my life become overrun with them? the other night in copley, after a great (although very late) dinner we were all hanging out watching basketball and i couldnt even enjoy the game without figuring out my plans for the next day. i got up, got a pen and paper and planned it out.
am i insane? probably.
so ok its definately ocd-ness this semester, but only because i was so far from it last semester. literally almost blinded by feelings of... aprehension turning into excitement turning into pain... in the span of less than a month. now thats intense. and beyond that, the fact that emotions from one aspect of life (be it boy-drama or other) somehow spilled over into the other parts of my life was something that never really happened before. not cool.
maybe im over compensating now. but hey, im definately one who likes life to be in order. shambles is not my style. of course i leave room for the unexpected... its impossible not too. but i guess people like me just cant leave too much room.... because thats when shit goes down. for me, no plan is a bad plan. (for the most part). and i need to keep things seperate. especially emotions that shouldnt be crossing.
i need to keep myself in better check. so far its been good. i actually have time this semester to have fun. wow, in college? who would think. but yea. i made time. i didnt 'let it happen'. i told myself i need to make time. so i did. i didnt literally put it in my schedule, come on that would be crazy even for me. but a conscious effort on my part is what did the trick.
i guess i dont like when emotions get the better of me. thats not good, for anyone. maybe its that ive slowed myself down this semester, and ive been actually able to see outside of the current moment. and that, right now, is the solution to so many problems for me.
i can feel the silence now. ive missed it.