... this wasnt supposed to be deep and meaningful.
for once. i think that my entry will not be the deep thought provoking one. i just read through the last five or six on my friends page to catch up since i was in dc. and... wow. intense.
all i want to say is this -- the past week has made me realize something. we all have found our little niche. whether we like to think school had a part of it or not, somehow, in the past four years, with or without the help of country day... we've been able to find solace in doing what we love. whether its just being surrounded by sports for christy, doing anything lithuanian for me, or finding friends that truely fit like alx has, weve managed to come across something that just... clicks.
and thats exactly why i couldnt fall asleep last night. as much as i love georgetown, the campus, the people, and the mere idea of being in college, i realize that my life, and probably the lives of many of my friends, is starting to... un-click. christy isnt able to study the major she wants to, i am the only lithuanian at georgetown, and alx and her two best friends are being scattered to opposite ends of the country. while sure... these are inevitable things that college is bound to bring, i cant help but wish there was someway to fix it.
and i think thats when i came to the somewhat hard-to-accept idea that life is just a series of finding these comfort zones and leaping out of them over and over again. its this perpetual game of baseball -- sprinting from base to base, unsure of wether to run for it or stay put for the timebeing -- that we are all forced to play throughout the course of our lives.
sure, in college, hopefully we'll find something that we enjoy, perhaps even love, to do. but after college? getting jobs in the real world? and after finding a career... falling in love? getting married? starting a family? (well, i wont get ahead of myself... im not exactly too experienced in the whole boyfriend front. so lets focus on that first) but thats what it is. if i plan to get married by the time im 30, i sure as hell better find atleast a couple of boyfriends before that. and love -- all those songs upon songs are written about it. my favorite one, beautiful love by the afters, is just so amazing... the words are so beautiful. i guess it must really be an amazing feeling to have.
but really. life is just hopping from one stepping stone to the next. in some situations, you have to leap alone. and sometimes, you have a friend that will hold your hand and be there to leap alongside you. but whatever the case may be... we have to take that leap. and all we can hope for is that the next stone will be that much better than the previous.
all i want to say is this -- the past week has made me realize something. we all have found our little niche. whether we like to think school had a part of it or not, somehow, in the past four years, with or without the help of country day... we've been able to find solace in doing what we love. whether its just being surrounded by sports for christy, doing anything lithuanian for me, or finding friends that truely fit like alx has, weve managed to come across something that just... clicks.
and thats exactly why i couldnt fall asleep last night. as much as i love georgetown, the campus, the people, and the mere idea of being in college, i realize that my life, and probably the lives of many of my friends, is starting to... un-click. christy isnt able to study the major she wants to, i am the only lithuanian at georgetown, and alx and her two best friends are being scattered to opposite ends of the country. while sure... these are inevitable things that college is bound to bring, i cant help but wish there was someway to fix it.
and i think thats when i came to the somewhat hard-to-accept idea that life is just a series of finding these comfort zones and leaping out of them over and over again. its this perpetual game of baseball -- sprinting from base to base, unsure of wether to run for it or stay put for the timebeing -- that we are all forced to play throughout the course of our lives.
sure, in college, hopefully we'll find something that we enjoy, perhaps even love, to do. but after college? getting jobs in the real world? and after finding a career... falling in love? getting married? starting a family? (well, i wont get ahead of myself... im not exactly too experienced in the whole boyfriend front. so lets focus on that first) but thats what it is. if i plan to get married by the time im 30, i sure as hell better find atleast a couple of boyfriends before that. and love -- all those songs upon songs are written about it. my favorite one, beautiful love by the afters, is just so amazing... the words are so beautiful. i guess it must really be an amazing feeling to have.
but really. life is just hopping from one stepping stone to the next. in some situations, you have to leap alone. and sometimes, you have a friend that will hold your hand and be there to leap alongside you. but whatever the case may be... we have to take that leap. and all we can hope for is that the next stone will be that much better than the previous.