holy fucking shit, man!
so yeah, today i got that pang. that feeling of your world being turned upside down. and it was done by one person, my professor for intro to cultural theory. i can't even begin to describe to you how much we are all victims of culture (but dont hate culture...hate what money and adexecs have made culture become).
right now it's one of those things where i get so excited (eventhough i was still drunk from the night before and running on like 4 hours sleep and had 4 classes, three of which i went to today). those little clicks that happen when you connect something and then you get PERSPECTIVE. i have thought about it...and i might just be obsessed with PERSPECTIVE, or the idea of it. i guess i am more intrigued by the idea that our biases and manner in which we were raised can cloud THE TRUTH. i guess also that you have to believe in some kind of absolute truth (at least on some less contentious subjects). but yeah, i got that feeling first from a polisci class, then philosophy class, then an english class...whoa!
i guess also that i feel more responsible in the sense that i choose who i am. and, so far at college i think i have really fallen into who i really am, now that makes me a weird/eccentric kid here even though i couldnt possibly be more balanced (part sarcastic). but what i am trying to say is that i guess the whole idea of free will and responsible choices makes me part scared about making a wrong choice (but what if there arent any wrong choices...only more right ones (that was *cough* cliche)) and part fucking happy that as long as i know "what system i am fighting against" then i have a better chance at not being said system's bitch. or something along those lines.
for any interested, you should read an article called "The Culture Industry" by Adorno and Horkheimer. it's dense and i disagree with many parts of it...but where else can you find a prediction about the prevalence of suburbia before the end of world war II? fuck it. i cant say anymore. i dont know what to say. and in fact all this is probably a garbled version of what i really wanted to say, because (lets face it) your ideas never transfer to paper quite as well as you would like them. i guess also that i feel so small in the face of so many great ideas.
other than that, i am alive and well, thanks for asking. ciao!
right now it's one of those things where i get so excited (eventhough i was still drunk from the night before and running on like 4 hours sleep and had 4 classes, three of which i went to today). those little clicks that happen when you connect something and then you get PERSPECTIVE. i have thought about it...and i might just be obsessed with PERSPECTIVE, or the idea of it. i guess i am more intrigued by the idea that our biases and manner in which we were raised can cloud THE TRUTH. i guess also that you have to believe in some kind of absolute truth (at least on some less contentious subjects). but yeah, i got that feeling first from a polisci class, then philosophy class, then an english class...whoa!
i guess also that i feel more responsible in the sense that i choose who i am. and, so far at college i think i have really fallen into who i really am, now that makes me a weird/eccentric kid here even though i couldnt possibly be more balanced (part sarcastic). but what i am trying to say is that i guess the whole idea of free will and responsible choices makes me part scared about making a wrong choice (but what if there arent any wrong choices...only more right ones (that was *cough* cliche)) and part fucking happy that as long as i know "what system i am fighting against" then i have a better chance at not being said system's bitch. or something along those lines.
for any interested, you should read an article called "The Culture Industry" by Adorno and Horkheimer. it's dense and i disagree with many parts of it...but where else can you find a prediction about the prevalence of suburbia before the end of world war II? fuck it. i cant say anymore. i dont know what to say. and in fact all this is probably a garbled version of what i really wanted to say, because (lets face it) your ideas never transfer to paper quite as well as you would like them. i guess also that i feel so small in the face of so many great ideas.
other than that, i am alive and well, thanks for asking. ciao!