a lil of me.. my last post for a while.. thank you all
Warning!!! forgive my spelling and grammer.. i didnt not feel i need to change it for this blog that and im too lazy! ha, jk, this will be my last post for a while..basicly untill i can pay for an account! wich i plan on doing!! in a month i hope! but i thougt i woudl leave you with a lil bit of me .. and another side of my art. take care eveyone and have a wondeful rest of the summer! ... http://www.myspace.com/cillyphreak
-cilly
Medieval nights
We are foolish kids
Playing queen and king
Thoughts of swords, armor, and shields
Illusions of demons,
Dragons and fairies
Slaying the monsters beneath the sea
Fighting the dark knight to the death
Crossing fiery lakes
Living in a world with wizards
Were magic is all around
Being the prince lifting his princess up to the star filled sky
Living in a world where only a golden medallion
Will save us from the evil that will end all life
But remember
We are just foolish kids
Playing in the flower garden at night
The one we call God
As the night sky glows with the city lights
Rows of graves are lined up in my site
As the clouds open up the world starts to cry
For the one that you called god has died.
As we all kneel down and give our respects
We are handed a glass were his blood rests
As we Pour it into the ground
We're Hoping he will come back.
We lost a worrier, lost the father of our lives
We see his soldiers in font of us,
Glowing cross from the moons lights.
As the fog consumes us in its stomach we lie
For we hold the one we call god for he has died.
As we all kneel down and give our respects
We are handed a glass were his blood rests,
As we pour it into the ground.
We're Hoping he will come back.
For our leader is gone.
How shall we push on?
For our leader is lost
And so will be us
What is the price for the
Lost of Christ..
What is the price for the lost of..
Winter tears
I can't heal without a tear
close my eyes, dream of life
while I'm bleeding my pain away
Holding on to this last breath
As the cold air fills my lungs
I pray, I pray
My tears turn to ice
As I die away
I close my eyes for the last time
On this winter day
flowers blooming, as my life is ending
I smile as she cries kneeling over me
This pain just needs to go away
For this world lost all meaning
my tears turn to ice
As I die away
I close my eyes for the last time
On this winter day
I can't heal without a tear
She cared why?
She let me die
she cared why?
She let me die
She cared why????
:::spoken:: forever lost in this painful dream as she cries over me as the tears turn to ice on this winter day
After the End
As these childish games play on
The time goes by so fast, how much longer can it last?
It's like a dream, with fake smiles and fake laughs
nothing to remember, only the past
what to remember? Who to bring back?
This is all I ask
with every step on the dirt
And ever new birth of a day
Will you stop and breathe for a moment
And will you remember me?
Don't let it be your fault, don't think it was mine
Don't hang your head with shame
because I didn't die hanging mine
open your eyes wide, and look at the stars
One or maybe two are me
Just another soul lost in the black sea
with every step on the dirt
And every new birth of a day
Will you stop and breathe for a moment
And will you remember me?
Times have changed and years have passed,
with people coming and going, emptiness is left
you have passed the test of life, with love and heartbreak
Alone here you stand waiting for the final breath
As you wipe away the spilled blood from the past
After this war of life is long gone
this is all I ask
Will you remember me?
How to Leave
The rain falls upon my head, like stones
my hand opens up like a rose, waits for its final wilt
my eyes open with the sadness of the days end
my head drops with shame but with grace
for my life is ending.. ending for one more day
walking across these graves
nothing is left for me
life seems to be sinking
where to go? How to leave?
I pull away for the love, walking away to save face
fear for being hurt and for hurting I couldn't bear this fate
rolled up on the floor, shedding tears from the soul
eyes glazed over , I am no one.. I am no more
walking across these graves
nothing is left for me
life seems to be sinking
where to go? How to leave?
Step upon step, across the lake
My blood is cold; years of no use, numbed pain
I look pass the horizon, for the sun has set
One more day gone by, nothing left
Not a pull of the trigger. Or a slice of the skin
nothing will do it for what is already dead
walking across these graves
nothing is left for me
life seems to be sinking
where to go? How to leave
pointless yes, nothing for me
as I walk across these graves
how can I die when I'm already dead
in my mind you see?
Tears of autumn
Tears from this child break our hearts
Tears from this child break our hearts
As I look past this wall
I see this Childs sad face
Not even a smile will be broken
With the crashing of the waves
From yellow to red
The fire burins inside with rage
As I see this child die with the autumn change
As the tears start to fall
The blood washes away
As the rain comes down
Everything will be white out
With this change
look into this Childs eyes, and forever see the pain
For the ones he loved have gone away
From yellow to red
The fire burins inside with rage
As I see this child die with the autumn change
As the tears start to fall
The blood washes away
As the rain comes down
Everything will be white out
With this change
hold up this candle
as his sprit burns away
Free this Childs soul
let him burn away
as the tears start to fall
The blood washes away
As the rain comes down
Everything will be white out
With this autumn change
She Spoke Words
The tear drops down my face
The lovely spoken script has weighted down my heart
My hand unfolds to guide her
For in my arms I want her to lie
close to my chest forever will you stay?
She speaks words to me,
loving, caring and deeply moving
Forever will she breathe?
As her mouth opens up the cold air is like a misty ghost
I open my arms to let her in my life
Within this hug we shall die together
she speaks words to me
loving caring and deeply moving
forever will she breathe?
As my hand goes over her eyes
I pray for the same faith tonight
For she knew what to say
she knew what to say
she knew what to say to me
She spoke words to me
Loving, caring, deeply moving
why did she have to stop breathing?
She spoke words to me
she spoke words to me
My Angel
I walked on the other side of the line.
Wondering in this world of sex and crime
Still innocent but yet influenced
Ready to do something not pure to mind
But you came
Letting me change inside
You set me free
You released me
When you were born you opened up a new world
That I have never seen
You opened up something and put life back into me.
For your so young an so fragile
Black, red, white is all you can see
You rest in my arms as I look at you
So cold but yet filled with warmth
Feeling your heart beat against my skin.
Because you came
I began to change
You set me free
You released me
When you were born you opened up a new world
That I have never seen
You opened up something and put life back into me.
As our journey goes on
Let them know you are my soul
My heart beats with every blink of your eyes
For the blood that runs threw you is also mine
You are the reason for living this life
last good bye....
I waited for your forever
now I cant stand it anymore
this war has gone on for so long
the choice needs to be chose
it maybe be between blood
brothers might be hurt on either side
but this structure world
needs to fall down
this is the last good bye
our worlds will be destroyed
with a blink of an eye
I can give you a kiss,
I will give you my blessing
with my full heart behind
as I walk away this is good bye
me over him , him over me
this it what it comes down to
its has to be
sorry for the push
sorry for the lies
sorry for breaking your heart
but remember you broke mine
don't turn around
because I wont be there
this structured world needs to fall down
this is the last good bye
our worlds will be destroyed
with a blink of an eye
I can give you a kiss,
I will give you my blessing
with my full heart behind
but as I walk away this is....
I can give u a kiss
I will give you my blessing
with my full heart behind
I can forgive you for the choice
with a blink of my eye
but just as fast I disappear out of your life
This structured world falls down
this is my last good bye
Eyes of Light
these angelic eyes
show me the way when there is no light
these angelic eyes
guide me to the painless end
where there is no light
as i wish for a new start i just want end
for the rising stakes my life take
are not compaired to the pain from seeing her face
trying to still grab a hold, of what use to be mine
now is no ones, but forever this empty space in my arms
how shall i fill it, without her by my side
i hold onto this solitary picture in my mine
these angelic eyes
show me the way when there is no light
these angelic eyes
guide me to the painless end
where there is no light
this end is near the new shall begin
i shall not fear the new .. nor what lies within
as i walk threw the mistied air
i feel her present in me
i close eyes and see everything in front of me
these angelic eyes
show me the way when there is no light
these angelic eyes
guide me to the painless end
where there is no light
live on deep inside
you live on deep inside
Tainted Words
One you though we were stupid
Two you thought we were weak
Losers was the tainted word
that you cursed every week!
As I pull away, I think about you as meat
My hand around you, death is a dream
death is just a dream, death is just dream
Death is reality!
Welcome to this nightmare
You wanted popularity
You grinded us too the ground
Now its time for us to treat!
Welcome to this nightmare
Be scared and scream
When play time is over
We will be smiling!
As you picked and pealed away with hate
The continues rapping of our minds was so great
Bloody thoughts twisting with sick games
we were once human, now we're gods in our minds
Once we were so sweet, children with dreams
hard candy and lollipops, sweet tarts like are eyes
Now blackened within, pure hate with bleeding lies
We were once children, now we're gods in our minds
Welcome to this nightmare
You wanted popularity
You grinded us too the ground
Now its time for us to treat!
Welcome to this nightmare
Be scared and scream
When play time is over
We will be smiling!
Silence of December
as the angel cracks her eyes
And looks down on my body
The warmth turns to cold
For the years of bad memories
Child trapped inside the mind
Crying to be set free.
Crying he wants to breath
Wants to touch the moon
And to see the world
Deep inside it's a struggle
To set him free...
Let the child live tonight
Nothing spoken but silence
The angels wings spread and cover me
As this cold metal enters me
I scream out with relief
He just wants to touch the moon
And to see the world without this darkness
Deep inside it's a struggle
Set him free...
Let the child live tonight
Nothing spoken but silence
He just wants to touch the moon
And to see the world without this darkness
It's a quite day in December
As the snow falls into red
It's a quite day in December
As the snow falls with the dead
NAMES WE KNEW
As the days pass on
and the seasons change
the names that once filled the rooms
now I don't see in this place
the moments we share are forever in space
as one more leaves this world
it starts to become a lonely place
a galaxy that drifts away
the memories of good times
and sad stories, will always remain
but only in this place
that is becoming a lonely space
As we become friend, how long will it last?
We come we go, some stay for the whole ride
some rest for the night
will your face show again?
Will we laugh at the joke you said my friend?
Or will we ask what happened?
Will we see him again?
As the stars shin bright.
You name will live on
forever you will remain
in this now lonely place
drifting off into this empty space
Forty Years...
Forty years have past, your face still painted in my mind
Forever lost flesh. But yet memories bloom inside
A change of the heart, no more dark filled corners
Peace filled my life, even tho we couldn't be together
This world we will never know
For the two of us could never be alone
Apart by the views of the world.
Separated because of years
This world we will never know
As I fall asleep I lay in peace
Wishing the winds of times can take me back
And give me a chance, one chance
To glance in her eyes and hold her hand.
This world we will never know
For the two of us could never be alone
Apart by the views of the world.
Separated because of years
This world we will never know
Forty years, all alone
Peace filled heart now gone black
Sadness has set in... Not much longer I won't last
I stop and think in my mind
Finally I will be with her after all this time
For so long we have been apart
Now together we will be holding each others hearts