official weigh in day.
To be honest, whenever I go to WW I feel like a fraud. The members of the group are all sane individuals who lose weight sensibly and then I crash in on the party and fuck everything up. I'm waiting for the day when my leader tells me to leave because I'm not treating the plan properly, surely they can do that?
I realise now that I'm thinking less in points and more in calories. We went to Tesco today and I walked around the entire shop looking at the things I would usually buy when following WW (ie, low fat sausages, potatoes, that sort of thing) and I was just shaking my head saying "Nope, nope, definitely nope" - I was looking for cooked chicken breast that was under 100kcal today, and that was a mission (I failed).
I got my 50lb certificate from Weight Watchers - I've now lost 55.5lbs since the start of March, and I hate people asking me how I've done it because I inevitably lie. I tell them I point everything (I do, but I have about 10-12 points left over per day) and exercise a lot (I walk everywhere). I'm sure there are many members who adhere to that and don't lose large amounts.
So, this week I have lost 6.5lbs. I am now under 100kg, into the next stone bracket and am close to losing 4 stone. I should be happy (and I am, sort of) but there is this residual feeling that I am just fucking up. My Mum, who has picked up on my lack of food/food that only consists of salad has said that I can never do things properly, I always have to complicate things. She's basically right. But the thing is, I knew when I started this diet that I would end up like this. I always do, which is why it's taken me so long to diet, because I was scared. I suppose I had good reason to be scared.
I'm still fat. Clinically I am obese. My fat percentage is on the "Poor" scale and I'm still not fully into size 18's. How fucked up does that sound? I just want to be thin. I don't want people congratulating me, I just want to be able to walk into a shop and buy a size 6 again.
Missyb -x-
I realise now that I'm thinking less in points and more in calories. We went to Tesco today and I walked around the entire shop looking at the things I would usually buy when following WW (ie, low fat sausages, potatoes, that sort of thing) and I was just shaking my head saying "Nope, nope, definitely nope" - I was looking for cooked chicken breast that was under 100kcal today, and that was a mission (I failed).
I got my 50lb certificate from Weight Watchers - I've now lost 55.5lbs since the start of March, and I hate people asking me how I've done it because I inevitably lie. I tell them I point everything (I do, but I have about 10-12 points left over per day) and exercise a lot (I walk everywhere). I'm sure there are many members who adhere to that and don't lose large amounts.
So, this week I have lost 6.5lbs. I am now under 100kg, into the next stone bracket and am close to losing 4 stone. I should be happy (and I am, sort of) but there is this residual feeling that I am just fucking up. My Mum, who has picked up on my lack of food/food that only consists of salad has said that I can never do things properly, I always have to complicate things. She's basically right. But the thing is, I knew when I started this diet that I would end up like this. I always do, which is why it's taken me so long to diet, because I was scared. I suppose I had good reason to be scared.
I'm still fat. Clinically I am obese. My fat percentage is on the "Poor" scale and I'm still not fully into size 18's. How fucked up does that sound? I just want to be thin. I don't want people congratulating me, I just want to be able to walk into a shop and buy a size 6 again.
Missyb -x-