I'm sick of this shit
last night i had another bad dream when I know my dad loved me and he knows i loved him i just feel really bad for all the mean things i have said to him i would do anything to take it back people tell me "sarah its not your fault dont feel bad" but i cant help it i was the worst daughter in the world i told him so many times i wanted him to die and to leave me the fuck alone and now i have to live with that my whole life.. and no one understands that everyday i think why him.. i wanted it to be me i wanted to die more then anything .. and i made a lot of people dislike my dad but hes wasnt has bad as i made him seem he was a father that just didnt want his only daughter to grow up