why?

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I'm not in the best mood of my life i guess i will always feel i am not wanted and i don't know why i have been told I'm beautiful, nice, caring, funny, awesome, and the list goes on and on.. but i don't feel like any of those things i feel like I'm ugly and that no one wants anything to do with my i dont fucking get it what did i do? i just want him to tell me what i fucking did to be put threw all this pain that I'm in. all i ever wanted was to talk to him and for him to love me but i guess thats to much to ask for when am I going to learn I can't be loved no one will ever really love me I promised my self i would never cry over a guy but i can't help but cry over him he means everything to me and he doesnt see that and i feel like he doesnt care and it breaks my heart
anyways i start drivers ed on may 12 and me and my mom are talking about moving to canyon lake witch i hope we do i hate san antonio i want to go somewhere were people dont know me and i want to be with my best friend