I'm too young to be this old.
Eve Of Destruction by Barry McGuire
The eastern world, it is explodin’.
Violence flarin’, bullets loadin’
You’re old enough to kill, but not for votin’
You don’t believe in war, but what’s that gun you’re totin’
And even the Jordan River has bodies floatin’
But you tell me
Over and over and over again, my friend
Ah, you don’t believe
We’re on the eve of destruction.
Don’t you understand what I’m tryin’ to say
Can’t you feel the fears I’m feelin’ today?
If the button is pushed, there’s no runnin’ away
There’ll be no one to save, with the world in a grave
Take a look around you boy
It’s bound to scare you boy
And you tell me
Over and over and over again, my friend
Ah, you don’t believe
We’re on the eve of destruction.
Yeah, my blood’s so mad feels like coagulatin’
I’m sitting here just contemplatin’
I can’t twist the truth, it knows no regulation.
Handful of senators don’t pass legislation
And marches alone can’t bring integration
When human respect is disintegratin’
This whole crazy world is just too frustratin’
And you tell me
Over and over and over again, my friend
Ah, you don’t believe
We’re on the eve of destruction.
Think of all the hate there is in Red China
Then take a look around to Selma, Alabama
You may leave here for 4 days in space
But when you return, it’s the same old place
The poundin’ of the drums, the pride and disgrace
You can bury your dead, but don’t leave a trace
Hate your next-door neighbor, but don’t forget to say grace
And… tell me over and over and over and over again, my friend
You don’t believe
We’re on the eve of destruction
Mm, no no, you don’t believe
We’re on the eve of destruction.
Fuck me. I'm here again. Pointlessly typing away on the computer when I know that noone will even read what I write. But maybe that's why I feel like I can be so honest.
I feel really fucking panicky. I have all weekend. On friday night I had this nightmare that I (I wasn't me, I was someone who grew up there) was somewhere in Africa, I think Rwanda, and where I was was suddenly attacked. No one knew what was going on. And I ran. And all of these other people where running with me, but so many of them fell. I didn't know it was a dream when I was having it. It felt so real. My heart was racing, I thought I was going to die. I was confused, and scared. For my life, for the lives of everyone around me. It was so overwhelming. All of these thoughts racing through my mind. Why would someone want to kill us? Where am I running? Oh God, what if I bullet is heading towards me right this second? What if someone grabs me? Where's my family? Who is doing this? Who's gotten killed so far? What can I do...? All of these fucking thoughts. It felt real. All of it. My heart, my head. It really fucking shook me up. God, people really have to go through that. Oh god, I'm crying. Emotionally I've been a wreck since that dream. I can't wait until I'm older. When I can work with UNHCR, the Red Cross, Peace Corps...someone. Anyone, just to help these people. All of them. I wish I could take every single person in this world into my arms, hug them, listen to them, cry for them, and tell them that I'll do everything I can to make everything alright. I feel so helpless. People shouldn't have to suffer like that. No one should. Why is there so much hate in the world? God fucking damnit. Why is everyone so judgemental, and...just hateful. To everyone and everything. I fucking love this world to pieces. But it gets so hard. I don't want to loose my faith in humanity, I don't want to loose hope...but when I hear people speak and the hate that comes from their mouths and how they so often don't even realize it...I don't understand. I wish I could be a better person. That I could set an example. But the few things that I do that I'm not OK with, wearing makeup mostly, my occasional shallow comment...are the few things that other people are ok with about me. The rest of them...I'm just a weirdo. People have such closed minds. No, not all of them. There are alot of good people in the world. Fuck, honestly I would say everyone in the world is good...but theyre ignorant. What can I do? How can help people? Physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually. I wish I believed in miracles..then maybe I'd be able to get some sleep tonight.
All my life I've been a lonley man
Teaching the people that don't understand
And even though I tried my best
I still can't find no happiness
Stop that train, I'm leavin'
I don't care what you say.
-Bob Marley
In a few days I'm gonna make a new LJ and just post Anti-War and similar lyrics on it.
I'll post what it is then. Please add it, when I do. Maybe the lyrics will help both of us.
Take care. And fuck it I don't care how lame I sound- I love each and every fucking one of you. I don't give a fuck how "uncool" it is to be all about love and peace. We need it. We're all so fucking young. We could do so fucking much. So why don't we? I say we try. I say we start to care, start to give a damn, start to love...and to give it all that we've got. We can't let the world keep going like this. We can't destroy each other. Please, let's just help each other out for once. We all deserve it.
I want to start a youth group (no not those lame ass kinde ones..who knows maybe well get stoned at the meetings). Our generation needs to get involved. We NEED to stand up against the people who have been fucking things up for way too fucking long. Don't let the stereotypical teen images control you- *do something*
The basics of it is "I just want the America I've been promised." One of hope, one of peace, one of equality, one of love. Standing up for an end of ALL wars, an end to ALL unjust persecution, and an end to ALL poverty. We Can do these things. All we need to do is work together. "If you're not part of the solution you're part of the problem." Keep that in mind. And when you go to sleep tonight know that they're are millions of other people in the world, on your corner and beyond, going to be hungry, suffering from war, disease, scared for their lives, scared for their children's lives. Think, wouldn't you be desperatley begging to God everyday night and day that someone, anyone would help? It's time we say "yes" to these people and give them a hand. It's time we say "no" to the immorality. It's time we stand together and let people know that we, the next generation, aren't going to take it.
If you agree call me (917) 882 0524...we'll help schedule meetings and events.
The eastern world, it is explodin’.
Violence flarin’, bullets loadin’
You’re old enough to kill, but not for votin’
You don’t believe in war, but what’s that gun you’re totin’
And even the Jordan River has bodies floatin’
But you tell me
Over and over and over again, my friend
Ah, you don’t believe
We’re on the eve of destruction.
Don’t you understand what I’m tryin’ to say
Can’t you feel the fears I’m feelin’ today?
If the button is pushed, there’s no runnin’ away
There’ll be no one to save, with the world in a grave
Take a look around you boy
It’s bound to scare you boy
And you tell me
Over and over and over again, my friend
Ah, you don’t believe
We’re on the eve of destruction.
Yeah, my blood’s so mad feels like coagulatin’
I’m sitting here just contemplatin’
I can’t twist the truth, it knows no regulation.
Handful of senators don’t pass legislation
And marches alone can’t bring integration
When human respect is disintegratin’
This whole crazy world is just too frustratin’
And you tell me
Over and over and over again, my friend
Ah, you don’t believe
We’re on the eve of destruction.
Think of all the hate there is in Red China
Then take a look around to Selma, Alabama
You may leave here for 4 days in space
But when you return, it’s the same old place
The poundin’ of the drums, the pride and disgrace
You can bury your dead, but don’t leave a trace
Hate your next-door neighbor, but don’t forget to say grace
And… tell me over and over and over and over again, my friend
You don’t believe
We’re on the eve of destruction
Mm, no no, you don’t believe
We’re on the eve of destruction.
Fuck me. I'm here again. Pointlessly typing away on the computer when I know that noone will even read what I write. But maybe that's why I feel like I can be so honest.
I feel really fucking panicky. I have all weekend. On friday night I had this nightmare that I (I wasn't me, I was someone who grew up there) was somewhere in Africa, I think Rwanda, and where I was was suddenly attacked. No one knew what was going on. And I ran. And all of these other people where running with me, but so many of them fell. I didn't know it was a dream when I was having it. It felt so real. My heart was racing, I thought I was going to die. I was confused, and scared. For my life, for the lives of everyone around me. It was so overwhelming. All of these thoughts racing through my mind. Why would someone want to kill us? Where am I running? Oh God, what if I bullet is heading towards me right this second? What if someone grabs me? Where's my family? Who is doing this? Who's gotten killed so far? What can I do...? All of these fucking thoughts. It felt real. All of it. My heart, my head. It really fucking shook me up. God, people really have to go through that. Oh god, I'm crying. Emotionally I've been a wreck since that dream. I can't wait until I'm older. When I can work with UNHCR, the Red Cross, Peace Corps...someone. Anyone, just to help these people. All of them. I wish I could take every single person in this world into my arms, hug them, listen to them, cry for them, and tell them that I'll do everything I can to make everything alright. I feel so helpless. People shouldn't have to suffer like that. No one should. Why is there so much hate in the world? God fucking damnit. Why is everyone so judgemental, and...just hateful. To everyone and everything. I fucking love this world to pieces. But it gets so hard. I don't want to loose my faith in humanity, I don't want to loose hope...but when I hear people speak and the hate that comes from their mouths and how they so often don't even realize it...I don't understand. I wish I could be a better person. That I could set an example. But the few things that I do that I'm not OK with, wearing makeup mostly, my occasional shallow comment...are the few things that other people are ok with about me. The rest of them...I'm just a weirdo. People have such closed minds. No, not all of them. There are alot of good people in the world. Fuck, honestly I would say everyone in the world is good...but theyre ignorant. What can I do? How can help people? Physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually. I wish I believed in miracles..then maybe I'd be able to get some sleep tonight.
All my life I've been a lonley man
Teaching the people that don't understand
And even though I tried my best
I still can't find no happiness
Stop that train, I'm leavin'
I don't care what you say.
-Bob Marley
In a few days I'm gonna make a new LJ and just post Anti-War and similar lyrics on it.
I'll post what it is then. Please add it, when I do. Maybe the lyrics will help both of us.
Take care. And fuck it I don't care how lame I sound- I love each and every fucking one of you. I don't give a fuck how "uncool" it is to be all about love and peace. We need it. We're all so fucking young. We could do so fucking much. So why don't we? I say we try. I say we start to care, start to give a damn, start to love...and to give it all that we've got. We can't let the world keep going like this. We can't destroy each other. Please, let's just help each other out for once. We all deserve it.
I want to start a youth group (no not those lame ass kinde ones..who knows maybe well get stoned at the meetings). Our generation needs to get involved. We NEED to stand up against the people who have been fucking things up for way too fucking long. Don't let the stereotypical teen images control you- *do something*
The basics of it is "I just want the America I've been promised." One of hope, one of peace, one of equality, one of love. Standing up for an end of ALL wars, an end to ALL unjust persecution, and an end to ALL poverty. We Can do these things. All we need to do is work together. "If you're not part of the solution you're part of the problem." Keep that in mind. And when you go to sleep tonight know that they're are millions of other people in the world, on your corner and beyond, going to be hungry, suffering from war, disease, scared for their lives, scared for their children's lives. Think, wouldn't you be desperatley begging to God everyday night and day that someone, anyone would help? It's time we say "yes" to these people and give them a hand. It's time we say "no" to the immorality. It's time we stand together and let people know that we, the next generation, aren't going to take it.
If you agree call me (917) 882 0524...we'll help schedule meetings and events.