stream of consciousness
Hello, it's been a long time! This is the me who has pretty much turned hikikomori and socially stupid after months of hanging out with my best buddies, my studies. I was trying to emulate my O-levels determination where I hardly touched any form of recreation at all, so I banned sites involving most social media, k-pop, tumblr and all that jazz
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Reading again about all the school pain you had to go through...Man. Have a hug. At least it's over now AND YOUR ART EXHIBITION DUDE CONGRATS AGAIN. That's a great opportunity to make a name for yourself and I'm glad you got it! And those paintings...so neat! I love the colours and the perspectives in the first and fourth ones are great. Also, hellooo, Mr.Horseman. You've got plenty of great ideas, so take advantage of them and forget about conventions. If not even art is about expressing yourself, then what is?
Shut up, I am here to talk about fandom and nerdy stuff. If you think you're alone, then you should see my posts..All wind and tumbleweeds. And I don't know how to make new friends so eeeeh Anyway! I love Gintoki too. How could you even think he was a useless oyaji, shame on you, Dora. Hibari as in KHR's Hibari, right? He's always been one of my favourites. I don't know why exactly he's the most popular character, but I really liked his style. Not the SILENT BADASS FUCK YEAH part, but the indestructible calm one. And then the little things, like Hibird, his allergy to sakura, his love for solitude and his ability to make a gang of delinquents his subordinates even though he was, like, half their size. Did he ever get a backstory or some insight? I feel that Amano only wanted to make him the cool lone wolf with a quirk and it's a pity, really.
...why am I writing essays about a character I haven't thought of for years
P.S. Don't starve yourself in order to lose weight, it's the worst method one could think of. Just have small but regular meals, drink lots of water and exercise.
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Aw man, thanks Ayumu my man. ; A ; I'm so glad I made it through in one piece too! a;slkdjfa thanks my lovely, I realise it's one thing to be skilled at art, but gosh, all the famous contemporary artists seem to prioritise originality and thwarting convention over skill itself which is troll-like but rather interesting. I'll work towards mastering both (someday) as well! (`Д´)ノ
(MAKES GRABBY HANDS) MY FANDOM FRIEND!! Hey I know what you mean; I bet if this post wasn't about RL and about solely fandom, I would get similar responses. orz H-hey, I want to know too! ; A ; man, two years ago when I was into anime, my main interest was young boys in shorts and high socks -- which probably explains why I was so into Rolo at that time (apart from the fact that he tugged at my heartstrings). I even thought Sugita's voice sounded kinda boring - imagine that! Then this year, Gintoki just got a lot cooler. :| :| Damn. No wonder females form Japan rank him as the number one character they want as a husband (though... if they want to live a rather impoverished life. LOL).
Oh, I think I'm liking him now for these exact reasons! I mean, he's cool and all but... it's these small details that make him so adorable. Did you watch that episode/chapter in the TYL arc when he met his hedgehog box weapon for the first time? I found is exceedingly adorable that he wanted to touch/pat it (though he wound up getting hurt instead) - so much for hating small animals, haha. AND I AGREE WITH YOU ENTIRELY ABOUT THE LACK OF BACKSTORY. That's the main reason I could only see him as a rather two-dimensional character before, when I wasn't paying too much attention tho these small quirks - the lone wolf character is too overdone, and he needs more development to stand out. orz like... does he even have parents does he live in school what happened when he was younger /random
IT'S BECAUSE FANDOM DOES THINGS TO PEOPLE ♥ Man! I haven't spoken to anyone about fandom like this for ages. Let's talk more about various fandoms in future too ♥ and what happened to our animu watching plans? ehehehe.
OTL Yes mum. I've started jumping rope to exercise and yes, I think my determination is too low to actually imitate an ano and starve. @_@ food shall be eaten!
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It's kind of funny how things change, don't you think? First you've got people following a certain style, then everyone preaches following your own style, which in turn becomes some sort of common practice. dat irony mon dat irony
Um, sorry, had a Lit seminar today and it made me ramble a lot...
I have an irrational dislike for socks, shorts and feet, hahaha, with the exception of thigh-highs. But, anyway, I've always been the type to gravitate towards the more mature (age and personality-wise) characters. I don't know why. I mean, yeah, sure, I'm not attracted solely to that kind of characters, it would get dull really fast, but still. How could you hate his voice, man, especially when he gets desperate! Although...number one husband..nope. He'd be an awesome bro or uncle though. I don't think any of the Gintama guys would make good husbands actually. Maybe Hijikata, but he's kind of really really really job-oriented, so yeah no. And I'm biased anyway, heh.
I think? I don't remember, I don't think I've touched anything Reborn in about three years. If it was the TYL arc then maybe. Wait are you telling me he still hasn't gotten a backstory what is this madness Amano snap out of it
Yes, we should! I've only discussed with people on other boards, but it's not the same. Our plans, yes, I was going to ask you the same thing. I doubt I'll be too busy this holiday (or maybe it's just wishful thinking idk). When are you free?
Good child. Hahaha well you can always actually forget to eat, like I do, and then get slowly and painfully consumed by hunger because you forgot to bring food with you.
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Exactly!! Not to mention, when someone starts a radically new style, most people would reject it at firs.t I mean hey, wasn't that what you said? Oh well, we're all walking contradictions.
No sweat, dude! It's actually interesting to talk to you like that 8D ehehe.
I know what you mean. It took me a little too long to start liking such mature characters - though I think it was partly because many main characters were really popular, which led me to think they were overrated. (I mean, Naruto was a small boy and I never liked him much) HAHA YES I AGREE, since Sorachi pretty much screwed all of them up in one way or another for the genre, heh. Though I would like to see a Gin in love sometime. I just... can't see it happening. That guy seems plenty hormonal (maybe not as much as Shinpachi but still) but I just can't seem to visualise him in a relationship with anyone, though not quite asexual. But Hijikata would be wonderful, I think! judging from how adorable he was in the Mitsuba arc. XD but yes about the workaholic thing, that'll drive most people crazy. xD
i'm still watching it really slowly, about two mini arcs from then? but as of now, NO BACKSTORY. I agree with it, c'mon fans, spam her with fanletters and demand for one. D:
hehe ♥ that's great! Hmm I'm free for all of next week (except Monday atm), and my nights are usually free! From about 10 pm onwards... which is about 4 pm there I think? o: how's your schedule like?
... Ayumu that isn't good >8 you're skinny enough as it is! It's always good to bring a snackbar or something around~ SHALL I PREPARE BENTO FOR YOU EVERYDAY
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Oh god I fucking hate Naruto if I see his face one more time I'll just I'LL JUST
But yes, main characters tend to be overrated because most of them are everything teenage boys/girls want to be and this gets old really fast. Wish fulfillment at its finest. Lol yeah, I wanted to say Katsura at first, but the man is basically socially impared, so no. I think Gin is more like the one night stand type of guy? I can't see him getting settled and all that jazz. Maybe an on-and-off, friends with benefits kind of relationship...I think he's got mad chemistry with Tae (the umbrella scene!!) and Tsukuyo (when he rescued her from Jiraiya, ah, that whole episode was beautiful), but I just can't..see him with anyone. It's weird, man. Yes, oh god, Mitsuba's arc, my favourite Gintama arc and the one I'll probably rewatch a couple of years from now because TEARS SO MANY TEARS. Those were the exact episodes I had in mind when I mentioned him, especially the part where he fights all those guys and almost gets himself killed. Reminded me a lot of Spike from Cowboy Bebop. (I don't think you've seen it? Watch the show, it's great)
Nah, man, fangirls won't care as long as he's pretty, dangerous and can get shipped with Dino/Mukuro/Tsuna/etc
Well now, Tuesday will be my last day of school, so we're great! And you got the time difference right, six hours it is. Now I need to download Kuroshit ok
Naw, man, that's only happened two days in a row, I'm actually trying to have a tight eating schedule now. A small snack every three or so hours, mostly because of my stomach (being skinny is no problem lol)
And prease be my kawaii waifu who makes bentou for me every day \(◕ ◡ ◕\)
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lawl i know exactly what you mean. he's too boisterous for me. :| i would've like sasuke if he idk, pulled off the disappearing act which is just really annoying omg.
that's very true. well, wish fulfillment to a certain extent - these days when i watch at anime like reborn, i mean being tsuna would be pretty cool but most of the time i just think how happy i am i'm not any of them. powers are cool but i wouldn't wanna be in 80932423 battles, poor kids. LOL KATSURA that guy is craaazy plus he's technically a terrorist right. hur hur. i agree with you about the one night stand arc - either that, or a darn dysfunctional relationship. i can't remember the tae umbrella scene but YES I LOVED THE JIRAIYA ARC. tsukuyo is definitely one of my favourite female characters, and i'm always pleased when i see interactions between gin and tsukuyo.
YES when was the last time i watched that? 2 years ago? i actually thinking of rewatching the first season because it's been such a long time as;dlfkjasf especially for arcs like those. woah okay, i'll check out bebop. it's not really about cowboys, is it?
AWESOME. i'll probably be loading it beforehand and watching it online because my computer memory space is definitely not coping. ; A ; rofl i remember the times we had a hard time syncing our timings. how bout we start watching on wednesday 12 am for me... 6 pm for you? :3 not sure if i've got something on tuesday just yet! also awesome, i always remember we have clashing holidays right around this time. \o/
dude is that even healthy. yes i'll make bento with lots of love and hearts and wonderful poison cooking in it.
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lmao i don't know if people think if it's a masterpiece but it looks REALLY scary to be eating lulu's face
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Anyway. I apologise for not being online today. I literally came home an hour ago (home-home!) after spending all day with a uni mate. Yesterday was my last day of school and all days between Sunday and Tuesday were spent writing retarded essays..I'm sorry, Dora. How about tomorrow, same time? I honestly doubt I'll do anything special. And isn't it a little too late for you?
I remember that pretty post of yours! And thanks for the compliment, hehe. I'm the type of person who writes a lot of fiction in their head, but has problems putting it on paper. I've always had a penchant for writing, though, as if it wasn't obvious. But, as a matter of fact, I did write a fic once...anonymously...for KHR. It was Mukuro->Tsuna (wtf, I don't even like the pairing and I don't feel too strongly about either character) and it was all poetic and abstract and shit. I wonder if I still have it bookmarked. Oh the shame
Naruto just looks retarded to me, I hate those lines on his face, his smile, his stupid orange suit, the way he always yells instead on talk and uuhgifh I'll shut up now. Yeah, it's interesting how we, as Western readers/viewers perceive this whole shounen hero differently. It's to be expected though, seeing how they're aimed towards 12-16 year old boys who want to be cool superheroes. Consequences? What are those? :/ The Tae umbrella scene was in the Benizakura arc after Gin is terribly injured. She nurses him for a while, then pretends she's got some work to do and when he wants to leave he realises she'd left him his clothes in order and her umbrella. Then they pass by each other and NICE MUSIC AHH KIMOCHI hahah. It was very touching and I was rather disappointed when the movie changed it to Tae watching him from a balcony or something. Oh man, remember how the image suddenly went black and white when Gin went berserk? So cool.
Definitely not! It's actually set in the future. It's about classy people, bounty hunters, jazz, spaceships, heartbreak and mushrooms. That kind of mushrooms. Also, lots of music references. But there will be one obnoxious cowboy at one point.
I can't eat someone who's looking at me with that face. It's just. Oh god take it away
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anyway, good that you're home-home! how long will you be staying there?
wait, was it for a kink meme? HAHA. i used to stalk those not so much for the smut but... a lot of weird fic gets written because it's all anonymous. the only fic (anon too) that i wrote was for a junjou romantica meme... which was usagi/misaki and i don't even know why i wrote it because i absolutely have an aversion to that couple. ahh, youth.
HEY I'M INTERESTED SHOW ME!! hey poetic and abstract is the way to go. it's mukuro we're talking about. upon watching reborn now, i feel pretty disturbed by him though he seems like an interesting character to explore. you know, when fandom isn't just fangirling about how he's cool and hot and stuff.
YES he's too boisterous for my liking! ew. it's kind of annoying though - heroes don't have to be like in your face all the time. there're leaders which are the more silent, calm, thinking sort which should be advocated instead of this crazy kid who goes around driven by action. just. not my kinda thing.
aw man, i have no recollection of the scene ;_; my memory from two/three years ago fails. i'm definitely going to rewatch the series and watch the movie one day though, i'll keep a look out for it. OH YES I DO REMEMBER THE BERSERK PART. it was definitely one of the coolest scenes i've watched. what i pray everyday is for a huge, expanded animated version of the joui war and gin's teacher. i'm so intrigued by the past but it's actually properly expanded upon in an arc. orz
spaceships? okay that's definitely sounding like an interesting sci-fi series right now o: i think i've heard some of the IN sounds before - definitely not conventional.
HEY WHY I PUT SO MUCH HEART INTO IT
how about this
hey i genuinely think this is cute. wait why am i researching on bentos
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I'll be staying until the 8th of January or something? School starts on the 9th, so yeah...bleh. I've got so many things to do, I can't even
Yes, haha. I used to stalk them for the cool ideas too actually! There are some things people don't dare post on regular comms and some people are too shy to post anything outside kink memes, so those are pretty nice. And I like how original, unusual requests aren't buried under a mountain of porn. At least that's how it was in the P4 kink meme. I don't know much right now, since I stopped browsing it and I don't really want to read fic of my newer fandoms. Some things are better left unsaid, you know?
Oh, uh, ok. I thought I'd deleted the link from my delicious account (it's even tagged as lulz hahaha), but... here oh man so embarrassing, I don't even dare reread it. ;_; And I wasn't even 18 back then, oh man, it's been ages hahaha so much nostalgia. By the way, I love the way you write! I mean, come on, even your normal entries are poetic! Oh, just noticed I used the last name - first name basis back then too; such a weeaboo |D Yeha, Mukuro is a pretty cool guy. Was that thing about his reincarnations ever mentioned again? Anyway, I don't know what I liked more - the Mukuro arc or the Varia one. Reborn used to have such a different atmosphere...
That type of leaders is usually in videogames. And then I tend to get pretty bored of them too, hah. It actually took me about three days to watch the movie, because the series events were still fresh in my mind and I had already seen bits and pieces of it at our JP festival. I was kind of disappointed by the new Tae sequence and because there was no more Shura at the end, but the movie had childhood flashbacks so it was cool! I'm actually surprised they managed to turn it into a coherent story in such a short time. Did you know about the other Gintama movie that was announced a couple of months ago? What if...what if?!
Kawaii as fuck I'd eat those kodama.
...did the Totoro bentou work?
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i think i know what you mean, man. the same can be said about the gyakuten saiban kink meme - amongst all that prons (lol my autocorrect changed it to prunes wth), there are some real treasures right there!
AND HEY YOUR FIC IS GOOD OKAY, it isn't bad at all! rofl i totally agree with the unconventional fluff!mukuro fic comment. except… damn ayumu, your concept of love is really screwed up, is all i can say. well done, it's befitting of mukuro. hur hur.i think the early arcs of reborn were really great, both the mukuro and varia arc! man, the mukuro arc legit freaked me out with all that talk about possession and reincarnation. someone on the comm talked how there were buddhist references? NOW THAT IS PRETTY ACE.
hahaha MAN thanks ayumu, but you wouldn't think so if i linked you that kink meme fic i wrote when i was 15. oh god why did i write porn, i don't even like read that stuff. someone kill me now. it's so embarrassing i daren't read it again either.
YES one of the reasons i didn't watch the movie yet was because i can still remember what happened during the series and i was afraid i'd get bored of it. HELL YEAH SHURA that was really important to setting the scene of the series! AND I HEARD OF THAT TOO i'm praying that they're not pulling a fast one on us… ARE THEY? ARE THEY? cause i saw a like 10 minutes video clip and i thought they were kidding…… again. :| BUT PLEASE SUNRISE PLEASE REVERSE TROLL US
it's super effective! damn those totoro teeth look yummy… and creepy. and its tongue…..
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(AND HEY WE CAN ACTUALLY EDIT COMMENTS WITHOUT A PAID ACCOUNT NOW? SWEET.)
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Pffft, thanks, but is that really fluff, man, I just wrote that thing on a whim, it wasn't even my vision of love, what are you talking about, lol. ...now that I think about, why did I write it anyway? Huh. This is strange. I'm not even sure I captured his "darker side" correctly, I mean. Yeah, never mind. Yes, yes, the Buddhist references! I liked that and wished Amano had explored them more instead of lolFutureArc. And the sakura thing with Hibari, that confrontation was awesome.
I WANT TO READ IT HAHAHAHAHAH C'mon, show it to me, c'mon. I had no idea it was actually porn and now the whole idea is hilarious to me, ahahaha, show meeee. I don't even know the characters but who cares ahahahahah
Oh, was the 10-minute video clip part of the last episodes? Because it was gorgeous and so intriguing, ah, I want more, stop teasing us. :C
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(ACTUALLY WE CAN ONLY EDIT THEM UNTIL WE GET A REPLY AT LEAST THAT'S WHAT I HEARD)
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it's okay, i have similar questions in my mind. WHY DID I STLAK A KINK MEME FOR REQUESTS. why did i write such a thing. but hey, at least it brought future lulz! i think that's reason enough. hur hur. yes, indeed. i think what amano needs to do is explore existing characters a bit more - it could be anyone, i mean, i don't even mind looking into yamamoto's past (like were tsuna and yama friends before this shit happened), it would be a lot more interesting!
aw man aw man aw man. well. WELL ALRIGHT, HERE. one thing to note: I AM EMBARRASSED TO THE EXTREME I DON'T KNOW WHY I WROTE THIS yep yep yep there is no literary appreciation point about this piece whatsoever YEP AL;SJDFAKLSD.
oh and i did write half a sequel but i stopped in horror
YES THOSE! i was so excited, you know?! i was all ready to get into it and then... i realised the movie didn't exist. "YET" is what i'm gonna tell myself. YET.
wow scary kuma-chan A;KLDJFA
have a guy with tongue piercings.
OHHH i see wow that's weird logic
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Just read it! There was the comparison to a child wishing away his worries that I really loved. I even understood what was going on and that's saying something. I remember reading the beginning of JR a couple of years ago, but got turned off by the art and by the semi-rape from the first three pages or so. Is Usagi's name really Usagi. Because that's weird. Aww, man, you let all those people begging for more; although I'm kind of glad because you stopping in horror made me laugh really hard. The ending was half sad/half DA FUCK and it's obvious that my mind went places and killed poor Mr.Usagi and turned Misaki crazy and etc, etc. Sorry.
Oh lol Kakihara from Ichi the Killer! (movie version) Only read the manga, but damn, it's so gory and screwed up..
Bentou boxes never fail to make me hungry :c
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D:
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LAWL LAWL LAWL ayumu you are terrible!!! i never thought of that ending but heh i kinda favour it too. i love it when characters have psychological problems, damn. :"> YES the semi-rape! THE BIG HANDS. AND HOW ALL THE SEMES LOOK LIKE OTHER SEMES AND UKES LOOK LIKE OTHER UKES and i was thinking that in JR universe, you would immediately be able to tell if your son was a seme and uke just by looking at him. that's how matchmaking in JR verse will be done. nah LOL i think his name is usami akihiko but he needs to have a moe name y'know? since he's absolutely not moe in other aspects. 8'D
wait you recognise it?! amazing. because i sure don't.
i can't see your bentou box ;_; but it's okay. i hope kuroshit brings more delish food to drool at
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I AM TRULY SORRY OR MAYBE NOT! I think reading too many screwed up plots has warped my way of thinking a little; in terms of plots, that is. Exactly. I may be an old man and want my happy lovey-dovey ending with fluff and rainbows and cakes, but psychological problems are much more challenging to read about or write. Heck, we don't even need psychological problems, just some kind of problems or torments or bad qualities. Do I sound like a psycho hopefully not
Hahaha PROPORTIONS they turn me off badly.
i was thinking that in JR universe, you would immediately be able to tell if your son was a seme and uke just by looking at him Oh my god I laughed so hard at this. Living in that universe must be tough, man. What if you want to top yet you're one of those scrawny guys? Ha, fat chance.
Yeah, it was during one my manga reading sprees and it let my mouth hanging for a while. Disturbingly violent.
Well it was something involving tongues! I REFUSE TO DROOL AT KUROSHIT FOOD FUCK THAT I am weeping for Alois now if you'll excuse me
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