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Dec 06, 2011 16:21

Hello, it's been a long time! This is the me who has pretty much turned hikikomori and socially stupid after months of hanging out with my best buddies, my studies. I was trying to emulate my O-levels determination where I hardly touched any form of recreation at all, so I banned sites involving most social media, k-pop, tumblr and all that jazz ( Read more... )

school, photo diaries, friends, animu, art, &artworks

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ciette December 6 2011, 14:03:11 UTC
I LOVE YOU TOO ♥ gosh my heart feels like it's going to burst just reading your comment, I must hug you nowwwww well okay fine, after your school. ; A ; HAHA LAND OF PORN I LAUGHED OUT LOUD. So true, dude. More than a month there? She'll come back a changed person.

HAHAHA THANK YOU, I'm glad my photos managed to bring that across!! I'm semi-regretting taking pictures now because I'm getting a huge craving as well. (๑◕︵◕๑) The place is Let's Sweets at Bugis Junction. Lunch hour there is the best because they keep replacing all the food with piping hot new ones. * A *

A;SDLFAJKSF aaaa you're killing me ; A ; I'm so glad it had that effect, really really glad! At the end of it, when I stared at my work, I felt extremely unsatisfied because the work just looked plain boring to me despite the knowledge that I spent a long time on it. Thank you for your kind words ♥ but you know, son, it wouldn't have been possible without your precious words of encouragement that you've consistently offered me all this time! With them I've become a braver person - likewise, I'm so glad I have you! :"> ♥

*HUGS YOU TIGHTLY*
CAKEEEE except I put on so much weight during the mugging period I'd feel guilty aaaaa. Yes, your advance standing is definitely worth it! Don't worry dear, good things come to people who wait ♥ I remember feeling the same way when I saw classmates going off to NJC in sec 2 because of their IP program... though I'm now glad I didn't came to the temptation. I'll never forget about you, let's keep in contact whatever happens! Distance won't get in our way ♥

I kinda know what you mean. ; A ; up till today, I honestly still find shipping people irl hard to digest - though I have to admit I've more than given in to that and stopped caring so much. OTL what have you been reading/watching lately? /curious

!!! WAIT! WHY DOES SHE WANT TO GET RID OF IT! I-I MEAN! I'd gladly have it! In fact, please give it to me! a;ldjfalskdfjasdf /shameless

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yoursubtext December 6 2011, 14:23:48 UTC
♥ ♥ ♥ I CAN'T WAIT TO HUG YOU UNTIL YOU BURST AND THEN FEED YOU WITH LOTS OF NOMNOM GOODNESS BECAUSE I DON'T THINK YOUV'E BEEN TAKING CARE OF YOURSELF AFTER ALL THOSE EXAMS!!!! Hahaha Maddy and porn really don't go together. Is she gonna be there for that long? O:

OOOOH OKAY thanks! :D I'm gonna check it out soon too! I think I'd be too hungry to restrain myself for some photos though lol. And pfsh, your photos are ten times better than the ones on that blog!

:') AWW I TEARED UP AT THAT ONE. i think, as artists/designers/writers, we will never be satisfied with our work so i can't accuse you of being ridiculous for thinking that way lol. but ya know, if you were still in mgs and you came up with pieces like these... they'd probably haul you over to the counselor's office lol.

DISTANCE IS NOTHING ♥ WHAT. I DON'T BELIEVE YOU PUT ON WEIGHT :T don't you tend to starve yourself during exam period? TSK TSK.

hmm, i haven't been watching anything since Tiger & Bunny a few months back... and before that the last i watched was Michiko to Hatchin (nearly two or three years ago! lol), which was really enjoyable but i lost track of where i was and just stopped watching completely hahaha. but i'm always regularly updated on the manga front. i still read Naruto, One Piece, Bakuman, D.Gray-Man, and a hell lot of shoujo comics...... yeah ;;;

lol well... "get rid of it" translates to she got it for free in korea, her sister wants it but her mom won't let her have it because she already has too many posters, and so my friend intends to sell the poster because it's so nice lol. want me to ask how much she's selling it for? ^^

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yoursubtext December 6 2011, 14:26:34 UTC
btw i also wanted to say this - i recently realised that your "sub rosa" is the pictorial depiction of the exact kind of books i love to read: poignant, terrifyingly, beautifully human with a dose of surreality (because what's the point in reading books if the lives they depict occur in the same realm as ours?)

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ciette December 7 2011, 13:47:08 UTC
I'LL BE ANTICIPATING THAT! I've been eating rather unhealthily (lots of instant food like instant noodles and all that jazz) but sadly, I've been starting to get really addicted to those! Oops, maybe that's why I kept falling ill this year. x_x Trying desperately to fix that now. And man, that's true. Actually, Maddy mentioned that she's returning on the 16th, but for some reason I interpreted that as 16th January but wait, wouldn't that be expensive. I suppose she meant December. ' o '

Hahaha aw man you cutie! ♥ (hugs) I thought so as well, especially since they actually put on a timer (!!!) as to how long you can eat for. ' o ' but after the first round, my friends and I actually got really full so we had to talk in order to wait for our stomachs to "clear" for some empty space. That's where you can keep yourself occupied with your camera! XD

HAHAHA I LAUGHED OUT LOUD. Man, I'm so with you there about MGS. Eh, what was her name again - Miss Rhombus or something? I remember so many of our classmates were hauled there for relatively insignificant reasons. =/ Were you subjected to that trauma too? That's seriously no good for one's self esteem.
And I think that's why we can connect so well! Writers, artists - as much self-driven, they also take an incredible toil on one's self esteem and inspiration. But as long as we're always there for each other, we'll be okay. ♥ \(^∀^)メ(^∀^)ノ

D": Though I didn't eat much, but I think my stationary lifestyle (i.e. pretty much living in front of the study table 24/7) has possibly taken its toll! I've started exercising again though, hopefully its effect will show. ;;;

Oh, Tiger and Bunny! I remember Joyce talking about that a lot! XD I've heard many nice things about it, is it good? ' o ' My impression of it was something similar to that of Gurren Lagaan - with an bold art style and characters and lots of action. No idea how accurate that assumption is though. orz Woah you're still up to date with Naruto? I've recently thinking of picking that up again after reading this particular LeeGaara fic for kicks, which was apparently THE fic which made fandom ship it. ' o ' Interesting stuff.

Oh, please do! It'll be nice if I could have a picture/photo of it too? ^ ^ I'm not really a huge fan of Big Bang, but G-dragon!! * q * I'll see if I can make some wallet space for it. 8'>

As for the theme of books you like, I AGREE EXACTLY WITH YOU! (makes grabby hands) I think exactly that way when doing art, because what's the use of rendering things that you can see in banal life, albeit its experience will be different? It's with this different touch that makes writing/drawing so much more meaningful. If you happen to have any good books that are of this perception, please please recommend them to me! (。✧‿✧。) I'm so underread. orz

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yoursubtext December 7 2011, 14:58:28 UTC
Oh no, that's bad! Eat fruits or yoghurt instead of snacking! ....but I really shouldn't be talking since I've been snacking a lot these past few days alone lol. Oh she'll be back right in time for when my term break begins! ^^ (though it's not really a break with the amount of work I have to do...)

Oooh okay that makes sense! What's the timer for, though?! They only give you a certain amount of time to eat, right? No nonsense like charging you based on how long you take, right?

HAHAHAHA RHOMBUS. We certainly called her that, but her name is Mrs Robers lol. Yeah I was under her therapy for ten to eleven months in Sec 2 :| during that whole clinical/reactive depression thing. I didn't get better and I think she got fed up with me because towards the end she stopped being nice and just told me that there are girls with worse problems than I do, and I was pretty much wasting both her time and mine lol.

Oh that's good! I'd love to start exercising again too but I've got to wait for my system to clear up before I can even attempt to swim or something :T

I've never seen Gurren Lagaan because I get really turned off by shounen that shamelessly has voluptuous, skimpily-dressed female characters lol (yet somehow I find it in myself to forgive Oda-sensei of One Piece). Tiger and Bunny was good in the beginning... but the ending disappointed me greatly because both the universe it's set in and the characters had so, so, SO much potential that was left completely untapped. I think there's going to be a second season from the reveal in the last episode, and I do hope they develop that potential then. Oooh mind linking me to that fic? I don't really read slash anymore, but if it's that groundbreaking I'd love to take a look haha.

Okay I'll let you know soon :'D IT'S REALLY GORGEOUS INDEED.

YAAAAY I WAS JUST WAITING FOR YOU TO ASK! Murakami's Kafka on the Shore is what first comes to mind, along with Gabriel Garcia Marquez's One Hundred Years of Solitude *A* Milan Kundera's The Book of Laughter and Forgetting comes close too, but I don't recommend it if you're uncomfortable with books that take a lot of liberty with sex and politics. My grandmother was angry I recommended it to her HAHAHAHA. Also, Beloved by Toni Morrison is a beautiful read as well :)

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yoursubtext December 7 2011, 15:14:15 UTC
oh if i remember correctly, the poster image is this one:



if i could get my hands on a poster of them looking like this, i'd buy it in a heartbeat:



(i foam at the mouth whenever i see these two together lol. THEY ARE SO HOT /fans self)

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ciette December 9 2011, 15:46:46 UTC
Man, it's hard to control your diet when you're working! Fruits and yoghurt, okay! Wait, you already have work assigned to do during your "break"? Man, that's hardly motivating, isn't it? ; A ; Faito, my dear son!

YES THEY DO! The timer is more like… a countdown! I thought it was pretty stressful at first but… orz it's near impossible to be eating all the time!

She got "fed up of you"? What kind of counsellor is that? She doesn't seem well certified at all… man, just talking about her makes me really mad. JY used to make me go with her as well, and now I can figure why JY never really got better after speaking to her despite the frequent visits… >": you poor kids. (hugs)

Clear up? From… your bronchitis? /medically stupid/ But yes, better not to push yourself, bb! Though on the other hand, I hope your huge workload isn't going to hinder your recovery as well TT A TT How are stress levels right now?

Hahaha yes, I got rather turned off by Yoko's character design as well. =x though I could forgive her after realizing that her personality is strong to make up for it. XD if she was a weak character however, I'd oppose violently. :T Oh man, if that's the case, I think I might leave it for the second season's airing and (hopefully) better reviews before watching it, to avoid disappointment. Sure thing! Diplomatic Relations - more than the writing, I think it's how the author managed to pull of the pairing despite how odd it was at that time (especially Lee, I think XD).

THANK YOU SO MUCH FR ALL THE RECOMMENDATIONS! I haven't touched books properly for so long, I'll be trying to find these in bookstores! ♥ LOL oh you XD y you so cute.

OH THAT PHOTOSHOOT!! I think I'll take a look and the price and try to decide! > < and I agree with you TOTALLY about the second poster; I have a huge thing about suits! *__* these two are really on a different level from typical guys a;kjdfaklsdf

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yoursubtext December 9 2011, 22:02:37 UTC
You're working right now? o: For me it's more of a matter of staying healthy lol. When I work regularly or when my school assignments are just insane I sometimes forget to eat completely lol. And yeah... same with last semester. I was in California on vacation and I was stressed all the time about making deadlines when I got back. It's just ridiculous. The good thing is that we're completely untouched during the long breaks in between academic years!

LOL I wouldn't feel the pressure then since I eat really quickly :x I spend an average of five minutes or less at the dining table per meal lol.

Yeahhhh well, she's just world-weary, I guess :| She's been doing this for so long. Her husband is a psychoanalyst as well. I even went to see him once. He's completely emotionally detached and relies too much on medical instruments to do the thinking for him. (I was hooked up to some kind of machine that recorded my responses)

Welll I had allergic rhinitis along with my bronchitis too lol. So I have a lot of stuff still congested in my head and chest. I'm getting a lot better already though ^^ As for stress... Um, the past two weeks were deadline weeks and right after completing one assignment we got the next ones thrown at us @_@ Next week is going to be particularly taxing, but I hope to let my body recover during the first few days of my term break. I'm kind of already used to this hectic lifestyle, though. My body clock hasn't been the same since August, either. Some days I can completely go at 120% without sleep, or with just clocking in three hours or less (once I was awake for two days on just a fifteen-minute nap in a cab lol). Other days I crash in the afternoon and don't wake up until the next day (this usually happens after meeting a deadline hahaha gosh I feel like a mangaka).

Okay, I'll let you know what I think of the fic! ^^ I do hope there's a second season for Tiger and Bunny...

I could lend them to you too :D

NO WONDER THEY'RE IDOLS. REALLY. Oh my friend is selling that poster for $10 :) She has a slightly smaller poster of BIGBANG (I'm not sure if the whole crew is on it; I only remember seeing Taeyang on it) that she's selling for $8.

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ciette December 12 2011, 06:56:44 UTC
Nope, I'm just preparing uni apps and my art portfolio! XD Oh dear, that pressure sure doesn't sound healthy! I'm so glad for that annual break though! How long are your breaks between academic years? It had better make up for all that stress accumulated across the year! > <

Oh woah orz I guess you're not the type who relaxes during mealtime? XD During the study period, eating became my only release so I wound up watching anime and eating at the same time orz That's... almost 25 minutes, oops. HAHA.

Man, how ironic that people in these line wind up being less in touch with their heart, emotions and thoughts than before. A machine that recorded your responses? ' o ' are they um, those kind of things that check your heart rate whether you're lying or not? Okay, maybe I've been watching too many variety shows.

That's very reassuring to hear! Your body has been through a lot ; A ; Wow your bioclock is crazy! But I agree with you, deadlines really do push people to the limits. During the coursework period, I absolutely hated staying up but I had to do it for many nights as well. Man, I hate that feeling of not getting enough sleep. It's amazing how your body got used to it, it says a lot about your determination too. ' o ' Hang in there my lovely. With these experiences, I'm sure you'll be able to cope in the working world better than any of us. ^ ^

Oh, you. Thank you for the offer! But I'll see if I can find them online (orz cheapo) or the like first instead! I have a very... bad habit of reading books for very long periods of time since I'm such a slow reader. x_x in sec 4 I picked up a book and only finished at the end of the year. Oh the horrors. D: I wouldn't want to hold onto your stuff for too long! D:

Ohh, at the moment my wallet is kind of tight since I'm saving up for a new phone to replace its predecessor which... got crushed by a car. :| I'll tell you again if my finances improve and if it's still available! thanks so much bb ♥

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yoursubtext December 13 2011, 05:26:19 UTC
Oh dear, so it's not exactly a time for you to rest yet, huh? D: My breaks are about 2 months ^^ (first semester is from April to August; second semester is from October to February, then the new academic year starts in April again) But in my final semester I'll be doing an internship and depending on where I get posted I may not have a break at all until graduation in May 2013 ;;;

Haha no, I'm the type who only eats for the sake of subsisting... Although I do enjoy indulging from time to time (usually when the boyfriend is paying) :3 Well, it's good that you had those mealtimes to relax in haha! What animu are you watching now, bb? o:

Hmm, I can't remember exactly what it did, but I guess it did something to that effect - recording heart rate, some other kind of body function level... stuff like that. I guess it is ironic and sad, but I suppose these people need to have their own coping mechanism too :/ or maybe they've become so desensitised to emotion that they have allowed their hearts to harden.

L-lol I don't think it's determination because I'm really quite a lazy person, ehehehe. When stuff needs to be done... you just need to do it. I don't even remember what it's like to sleep and wake at normal hours anymore :'( I've realised recently that my screwed up body clock has little to do with physical exhaustion - it's more of mental idleness. I need to keep my mind active and challenged somehow, since school has fallen into the usual rhythm of just doing projects and saving my own ass for the sake of meeting deadlines, instead of giving me things to think about.

HAHA, I understand that feeling, don't worry! Maddy held onto my books for nearly two years once haha. And I tend to do the same, borrowing and keeping a book for an inordinate amount of time. I have classmates right now who are still holding on to books I lent them in July, ehehe. Besides, I've read nearly every book I have, and I'm getting a Kindle this month so it's really no trouble ^^ So the offer still stands k! Let me know anytime if you change your mind :)

O__O WHY DO THESE THINGS ALWAYS HAPPEN TO YOU!!! Wasn't that car incident in J1? OR MAYBE EVEN IN SECONDARY SCHOOL? D': Btw I saw a bunch of RI fencing boys the other day carrying tons of McD's to bring back to school....... /random

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