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sometimes I wonder why I even try, I don't want to give up even though any person in their right mind would have by now. I know the situation is bleak and hopeless feeling, but I want to be the tough gal, the one who sees the light at the end of the tunnel.So I just keep trudging through. I'll wait until july 18th to make a decision and see it the hopeless has become a bit more hopefull. By then with school and work and time to build trust things really hould be better.
It's like I explained to him the other night "Do you think that Jesse and Chris and Hannah are so bonded with me because we have fun together? No, we're close because these people are the friends who say 'you are going through some tough shit and yea you aren't pleasnt to be around right now. But, I love you all of you and I'm not going to cop out just because your not fun right now. I'm going to sit down and love you through this because even though you might not think so I know you are so totally worth it.' That's what I'm doing for you, cause I love you just as much as I love them"
Part of me is very very tired right now ( I think it's the PMS )and another part of me is so excited to see the end result of what will happen.
School keeps me busy and right now my workouts are small meditation moments and great times to de-stress. I'm getting pretty strong too I graduated from lifting soup cans to 10 lb weights (you have no idea how kick ass that makes me feel) and even my dog is losing weight. I think as long as I do these good helpful things for me, I'll be strong enough to help those around me.
Overall, things are looking up.
How are you today?
SOTW
(the best most pretty love song ever ever ever seriously download this or comment and I'll send you a copy of it)
Brass Bed
Josh Gracin
(Josh Gracin)
Baby, the clock on the wall is lying
It's not really that late
It's too cold outside to be walking around
the streets of this town
Anywhere if you think you have to be can wait
[chorus]
(Baby) Why don't you stay with me
Share all your secrets tonight
We can make believe the morning sun never will rise
Come and lay your head on this big brass bed
And we'll be alright as long as you stay with me, yeah
Baby, there's just no use in hiding
The way that I am feeling right now
With you standing there baby I swear I can't help but stare
Girl you're wearing me out, wearing me out
[chorus]
(Baby) So why dont you stay with me share all your secrets tonight
We can make believe
the morning sun never will rise
Come and lay your head on this big brass bed
We'll be alright as long as you stay with me
[Bridge]
Baby don't go it looks like it's starting to rain
And it's so warm here in this apartment wrapped up in this blanket
[Repeat chorus]
Stay with me
QOTW
"Hope begins in the dark, the stubborn hope that if you just show up and try to do the right thing, the dawn will come. You wait and watch and work: you don't give up."
(I couldnt' decide which I liked better so there are 2 quotes)
"Hope can always cope."
?OTW
If you could tell one person anything who? and what would you say?
It's like I explained to him the other night "Do you think that Jesse and Chris and Hannah are so bonded with me because we have fun together? No, we're close because these people are the friends who say 'you are going through some tough shit and yea you aren't pleasnt to be around right now. But, I love you all of you and I'm not going to cop out just because your not fun right now. I'm going to sit down and love you through this because even though you might not think so I know you are so totally worth it.' That's what I'm doing for you, cause I love you just as much as I love them"
Part of me is very very tired right now ( I think it's the PMS )and another part of me is so excited to see the end result of what will happen.
School keeps me busy and right now my workouts are small meditation moments and great times to de-stress. I'm getting pretty strong too I graduated from lifting soup cans to 10 lb weights (you have no idea how kick ass that makes me feel) and even my dog is losing weight. I think as long as I do these good helpful things for me, I'll be strong enough to help those around me.
Overall, things are looking up.
How are you today?
SOTW
(the best most pretty love song ever ever ever seriously download this or comment and I'll send you a copy of it)
Brass Bed
Josh Gracin
(Josh Gracin)
Baby, the clock on the wall is lying
It's not really that late
It's too cold outside to be walking around
the streets of this town
Anywhere if you think you have to be can wait
[chorus]
(Baby) Why don't you stay with me
Share all your secrets tonight
We can make believe the morning sun never will rise
Come and lay your head on this big brass bed
And we'll be alright as long as you stay with me, yeah
Baby, there's just no use in hiding
The way that I am feeling right now
With you standing there baby I swear I can't help but stare
Girl you're wearing me out, wearing me out
[chorus]
(Baby) So why dont you stay with me share all your secrets tonight
We can make believe
the morning sun never will rise
Come and lay your head on this big brass bed
We'll be alright as long as you stay with me
[Bridge]
Baby don't go it looks like it's starting to rain
And it's so warm here in this apartment wrapped up in this blanket
[Repeat chorus]
Stay with me
QOTW
"Hope begins in the dark, the stubborn hope that if you just show up and try to do the right thing, the dawn will come. You wait and watch and work: you don't give up."
(I couldnt' decide which I liked better so there are 2 quotes)
"Hope can always cope."
?OTW
If you could tell one person anything who? and what would you say?