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So, how does one really know?
I mean, I feel different ways at different times. Obviously.
But... right now I feel like if I left it would just be better. For everyone.
I want to be someplace where I can really tell I'm loved and cared for. I want to feel it. I want to see it. I want to know it.
I feel like I give my all and only get half in return.
What will it take?
I try to talk about the way I feel. It gets blown up into this huge thing. It gets taken the wrong way. It gets to the point where I feel like it doesn't even matter what I think or feel.
How do I know if this is what I really, truly want?
Yesterday I was happy. I think.
Today, I know I'm not.
Tomorrow I might be happy again.
Who the fuck knows.
I mean, I feel different ways at different times. Obviously.
But... right now I feel like if I left it would just be better. For everyone.
I want to be someplace where I can really tell I'm loved and cared for. I want to feel it. I want to see it. I want to know it.
I feel like I give my all and only get half in return.
What will it take?
I try to talk about the way I feel. It gets blown up into this huge thing. It gets taken the wrong way. It gets to the point where I feel like it doesn't even matter what I think or feel.
How do I know if this is what I really, truly want?
Yesterday I was happy. I think.
Today, I know I'm not.
Tomorrow I might be happy again.
Who the fuck knows.