Mianhae, my love [one-shot]
Title: Mianhae, My love.
Author: Cieda
Pairing: haehyuk, sj couple
Genre:G, Angst
Warning: character death!!!
Words:2089 words
Category: One-shot
Summary: Mianhae, my love...because I’m not kept my promise to you... [What’s the suck summary]
A/N: English is not my language...sorry for grammatical error...try to write angst...but I think it’s a fails fic.
[Italic and bold word was donghae part]
-at cemetery-
Eleven people was standing with one person kneel in front of one graveyard.
For eleven person, their friend also their family was buried inside it.
But for that one person, he lost his best friend, his lover, his soul mate and his everything.
“Hae, you promise me...you promise you will not leave me alone.” Hyukjae say slowly more to whisper.
“Hyukkie, don’t be like this.” Soothe Jungsoo while hug Hyukjae.
“Hyung, he promise me but you see right now...He leave me alone...He will not come back, hyung” Hyukjae cried on Jungsoo embrace.
“You not alone Hyukkie...You have me and others...You not alone...”Jungsoo just stared one by one of his band mate. His tears already fall.
Heechul cried on Hankyung embrace. Hankyung take a first flight from China when he heard about his band mate. Kangin’s eyes were red. He excuse from his army activity to see his dongsaeng for last time. Kyuhyung try to soothe Sungmin in his embrace. Ryeowook, he is the one that nonstop cries from the beginning still cried on Yesung embrace. Kibum, he runs from his shooting site, now he tightened his hand that hold by Siwon. Shindong, left his head to other side. He not too strong to faced this situation.
‘You guys unite when I was gone’
“Hyung, I love him but why he leaves me alone? Why he not bring me together?” The last question from Hyukjae shocked everyone.
“Look at me Hyukkie,” Jungsoo raise up Hyukjae’s chin.
“Hae not leave you alone... He always lives in your heart...in our heart...you have me and the rest of Suju members...We will not leave you...The reason he not bring you together, he want the best thing for you...He want you live happy even he not at beside you. Take it in your heart... he’s gone is not meaning he leave you...he always beside you but as your angel...the angel that will protect you.” It seems that Hyukjae slowly become calm.
‘Thanks hyung. I owe you forever’
-at dorm-
“Hyukkie, just go bath first. I will prepare the dinner.”Jungsoo push Hyukjae to his bedroom.
“Okay.” Said Hyukjae slowly.
Once he opens his door room, he just stared at his bed... Not to move for the inch. When he closes the door and his leg was weak to support his body, he slides his back at door. All the memories that his have with his lover started play in front of his eyes like déjà vu.
“Hyukkie...wake up.”His childish boyfriend burst into his room.
“HYUKKIIEEEE” said Donghae while jump on his bed.
“Hae...” Hyukjae groan with the disturbance by his boyfriend.
“It’s still early...And we don’t have any schedule for today...so, please...give me more time to sleep.” Murmur Hyukjae with his eyes still close.
“Aniyo...today, you and me have a date...so, PLEASE WAKE UP, BABY.” Donghae pull Hyukjae’s hand and push him to bathroom.
“Yah, this guy... I hate you very much” said Hyukjae loudly when they on the way to bathroom.
“Ne...I love you very much, Hyukkie.” Donghae kiss his boyfriend’s cheek.
Hyukjae smile at that memory.
“I start to miss you, Hae” mumble Hyukjae
‘I miss you too, Hyukkie. Mianhae...I’m here but I cannot touch you right now...’
He stands from his spot and walk to the bed. When he reached his bed, he laid down his body and tears start falling again.
“Hyukkie, I love you...for past, now and forever.” They still cuddle with each other after their make love session, with Hyukjae on Donghae’s arm and their fingers intertwine.
“Hae, I love you too...for past, now and forever...”Hyukjae’s voice become slower. When Donghae turn his face to saw Hyukjae, his lips curve small smile.
“Already sleep, my baby...Good night and dream of me ne...” Donghae kiss his boyfriend hair, down to cheek and stop at his red plump lips. ‘I addicted to it’ thought Donghae.
“Good night...”murmur Hyukjae in his sleep.
When that memories play on his head, he know...he not strong guy to faced it suddenly. His body curl into a ball at the bed. The hard sob will be heard from outside.
“It’s my fault, Hae. If we don’t fight that night, you will not drive in bad emotion and you will not meet an accident. The important thing, you will not leave me right now alone...”
“Lee Hyukjae, listen to me...” Donghae pull Hyukjae’s shoulder to make his faced him right now.
“I don’t want to hear...Mr. Lee Donghae... I saw you kiss that bitch, and now you want me to hear your explaination. It’s so funny.”
“It’s not the way you think, Hyukkie...I’m not kiss her but she the first one kiss me.”
“And you enjoy with her kiss...”
“No...I’m not, Hyukkie...please trust me...please...”
“NO” just a single word but it crashes his world.
“.....Fine, you just not trust me anymore...Thanks for everything...” Donghae grabbed his car keys before walk towards the door.
“Goodbye, Hyukkie...”
“It the last time I heard your voice,Hae...the last time...and now, I regretted it...”
-30 minute later-
“Hyukkie, I just receive a call from hospital...Donghae, he met an accident.”Jungsoo burst into Hyukjae’s room.
“Donghae...”said Hyukjae slow before he passed out.
-Seoul Hospital-
“How’s Donghae?” asked Jungsoo impatiently.
“Sorry, he in really critical condition...His heart... I did not know how to telling you, but right now, he’s in coma...just pray for him.” The doctor sigh before leave them.
“Hyung, how’s he?” asked Hyukjae.
“He’s in coma...”
“He will be okay,right hyung?” tears slowly down to his cheek.
“I don’t know, Hyuk.”
“Hyuk-oppa”Hyukjae heard someone call his name. When he turns, he sees Jessica come to him with lower head.
SLAP/
“Go...I don’t want see your face, Jes.”
“I’m sorry, oppa.”
“All of this is because of you...if you not kiss Hae, I will not hurt him...not hurt him...”Hyukjae’s fall down on his knee.
“Hyukkie, be yourself please.”
-a week later-
“Hae, please wake up...” still did not have reaction.
“I miss you,Hae...Wake up soon ne.”
“I love you,Hae” Hyukjae kiss the dry lips.
After that he heard the long beep sound from the machine. The doctor and nurse runs to Donghae’s room after their magnae called them.
“Sorry...” At that time, he already knows that he was lost his precious love, his everything. His world turns dark.
“Hae, if I keep trust you that night...” His body was shaking because of his sob.
“Hyukkie, dinner is already.” Sungmin called from outside. He bites his inner cheek from prevent him to burst out the tears when he heard the Hyukjae’s sob from inside.
“I don’t have any apetite, Minnie-hyung” Hyukjae’s voice cracked.
“Hyukkie...you should eat. Just a little, you did not eat from yesterday.” Soothe Jungsoo from the outside.
“Teukie, I think, just let him alone for a while...It too sudden for him.” Heechul pull Jungsoo that stand in front of Hyukjae’s room door.
“Chul-ah...but he...”
“Teukie, it’s same with you when first day Kangin go to army, but that time you know, one day he will come back. It’s also same with me when Hannie leave me and go back to China, he will came back every time he want...But it different with Hyuk...Hae leave him forever...and we all know that he will never come back... try imagining put you on his shoes...and you will know that feelings...”
“But, I dead worry about him...”
“Not just you worry about him, Teukie...the rest of Super Junior and E.L.F also worried about him. You’re ‘umma’ and ‘angel’ in this group, so you should strong and don’t faced Hyuk with this face expression. You just make him become sadder.” Heechul tap Jungsoo shoulder and walk to his lover.
“He’s right, Teukie. Just give Hyuk the time...I know, he will move on one day.” Said Kangin on Jungsoo’s ear when he hug his lover from behind.
‘Buddies, please take care of the person that I love because he’s my everything...’
-one month later-
“Hyukkie...Let’s go to shopping mall.”Sungmin burst into Hyukjae’s room.
“I don’t have mood to go shopping, Hyung,”
“But...today was your birthday...I want treat you a dinner.” Said Sungmin, pouted.
“Don’t pout Minnie hyung. I’m not that evil magnae that easy fall for your pout.” Hyukjae was out the small chuckle when he sees his Hyung expression.
“Did I hear my name was being mention in this discussion?”Kyuhyun step in the room with the present on his hand.
“Yah...What are you doing in here, Kyu?”
“I did not come here for you, my bunny Minnie.” Kyuhyun just mock his boyfriend.
“Hish, this little brat...”
Hyukjae just laugh at the couple in front of him.
“But, I come here for you, my lovely Hyung. There have a present for you. I wish ‘Happy birthday’, Hyukkie hyung.” Hyukjae widened his eyes with the present that he gets from the magnae.
“Not from me, hyung. Someone send in front our dorm this morning.” He stills the genius that can read his hyung’s mind.
“Anyway, thanks Kyu” He show his gummy smile for their magnae.
‘I really miss your gummy smile, my baby...’
“I miss that smile, hyung. Err...I think, I’m better go now, hyung because I can see right now someone want to explode anytime.” Kyuhyun run out from Hyukjae room with laugh.
“Hish...that evil...always want tease me...So, Hyuk...still care for shopping...”
“I think, I’ll pass hyung...I want go to see Hae this evening.”
“Okay...I should go now...want to punish that little brat...See you at night, Hyuk.”Sungmin wave good bye.
‘I wonder, who the person that sent present for me...May be someone from my fans.’
‘It’s from me, baby...’
“It’s Hae...”said Hyukjae, slowly after he opens and read the card on the present.
Dear Hyukkie baby,
I’m realllyyyyy....realllllyyy miss you, my baby....Don’t mad at me pleaseeeee... When you got this present from other person than me....I just want to surprise in your birthday. I asked the delivery boy to send this present in front on our dorm at your birthday... If I don’t have at beside you this time, at least that has my present for your birthday this year... So, baby...just continue your walk...don’t turn back because I will always on your side...
Happy Birthday, Love....and Mianhae, baby....If I did not keep my promise to you... the promise that I will not leave you alone...
Your only love,
Lee donghae...
“Hae...at that time...did you feel that you will leave me before my birthday?” Hyukjae’s tears fall t his cheek.
‘Baby, please stop cry...I’m really hurt see you like this...’
“Hae...where are you right now? I want to hug you...to feel your presence right now...to feel that you care about me right now...I want you as my birthday present now,Hae...please...” Hyukjae close his eyes...In the dark, he can see his love smile for him... He can feel the presence of his lover...
“Hae...”
“Hyukkie...please don’t be like this...”
“I miss you, Hae.” Hyukjae’s lips curve into small smile.
“I miss you too, Hyukkie..”
“Take me with you now,Hae...”
“NO, Hyukkie...You should life...Many people need you...Your family, Super Junior and E.L.F also need you.”Donghae hugs his lover.
“But, I need you, Hae...”
“I also need you Hyukkie... when the right time comes, we will be together again. So,baby... promise me... you will move on...and be happy with your life...”
“I will try, Hae...”When he opens his eyes, he can smell vanilla scent around his rooms.
“I know...you will comes,Hae.”
-One year later-
-at cemetery-
“It has been a year, Hae...
And I follow your advice...be happy with my life...
It’s true...
I’m dance like before...
I’m laugh with Leeteuk-hyung dork jokes...
I’m smile when see Kyumin couple argue about PSP...
I’m still shock when ddangkoma blink his eyes to me...
I’m still eating a lot...
But, all that are mask, Hae...
A mask that I put on my face to not make them worried...
I know,
Even I wear that mask,
They still worried about me...
Because I can see it on their eyes...
So, I could not have to hurt them anymore, Hae...
Its burden me from inside...
Mianhae, my love,
I will break one of my promises...
God, please take me away.... ”
With that, Hyukjae’s slicing his wrist with a knife that he brings from home.
“Umma, Appa, Sora noona...mianhae,
Leeteuk, Heechul, Hankyung, Kangin, Yesung, Shindong, Sungmin...Mianhae
Siwon, Kibum, Ryeowook and Kyuhyun...mianhae....
E.L.F....mianhae...”
“Hae, we will be together again now...so,waiting for me.”Hyukjae’s close his both eyes... his beautiful world turn to dark.
‘Hyuk, it’s not your right time...but I will grant your wish this time...I will not against you...’
The all love needs is... SACRIFICE...
A/N: Kya, I finish it in the middle my exam weeks... with 4 papers left, I write this fic... WTH...YOU NOT STUDY BUT YOU WRITE FIC...OH NO!!!!!!!IT’S WILL NOT IN YOUR EXAM....
Author: Cieda
Pairing: haehyuk, sj couple
Genre:G, Angst
Warning: character death!!!
Words:2089 words
Category: One-shot
Summary: Mianhae, my love...because I’m not kept my promise to you... [What’s the suck summary]
A/N: English is not my language...sorry for grammatical error...try to write angst...but I think it’s a fails fic.
[Italic and bold word was donghae part]
-at cemetery-
Eleven people was standing with one person kneel in front of one graveyard.
For eleven person, their friend also their family was buried inside it.
But for that one person, he lost his best friend, his lover, his soul mate and his everything.
“Hae, you promise me...you promise you will not leave me alone.” Hyukjae say slowly more to whisper.
“Hyukkie, don’t be like this.” Soothe Jungsoo while hug Hyukjae.
“Hyung, he promise me but you see right now...He leave me alone...He will not come back, hyung” Hyukjae cried on Jungsoo embrace.
“You not alone Hyukkie...You have me and others...You not alone...”Jungsoo just stared one by one of his band mate. His tears already fall.
Heechul cried on Hankyung embrace. Hankyung take a first flight from China when he heard about his band mate. Kangin’s eyes were red. He excuse from his army activity to see his dongsaeng for last time. Kyuhyung try to soothe Sungmin in his embrace. Ryeowook, he is the one that nonstop cries from the beginning still cried on Yesung embrace. Kibum, he runs from his shooting site, now he tightened his hand that hold by Siwon. Shindong, left his head to other side. He not too strong to faced this situation.
‘You guys unite when I was gone’
“Hyung, I love him but why he leaves me alone? Why he not bring me together?” The last question from Hyukjae shocked everyone.
“Look at me Hyukkie,” Jungsoo raise up Hyukjae’s chin.
“Hae not leave you alone... He always lives in your heart...in our heart...you have me and the rest of Suju members...We will not leave you...The reason he not bring you together, he want the best thing for you...He want you live happy even he not at beside you. Take it in your heart... he’s gone is not meaning he leave you...he always beside you but as your angel...the angel that will protect you.” It seems that Hyukjae slowly become calm.
‘Thanks hyung. I owe you forever’
-at dorm-
“Hyukkie, just go bath first. I will prepare the dinner.”Jungsoo push Hyukjae to his bedroom.
“Okay.” Said Hyukjae slowly.
Once he opens his door room, he just stared at his bed... Not to move for the inch. When he closes the door and his leg was weak to support his body, he slides his back at door. All the memories that his have with his lover started play in front of his eyes like déjà vu.
“Hyukkie...wake up.”His childish boyfriend burst into his room.
“HYUKKIIEEEE” said Donghae while jump on his bed.
“Hae...” Hyukjae groan with the disturbance by his boyfriend.
“It’s still early...And we don’t have any schedule for today...so, please...give me more time to sleep.” Murmur Hyukjae with his eyes still close.
“Aniyo...today, you and me have a date...so, PLEASE WAKE UP, BABY.” Donghae pull Hyukjae’s hand and push him to bathroom.
“Yah, this guy... I hate you very much” said Hyukjae loudly when they on the way to bathroom.
“Ne...I love you very much, Hyukkie.” Donghae kiss his boyfriend’s cheek.
Hyukjae smile at that memory.
“I start to miss you, Hae” mumble Hyukjae
‘I miss you too, Hyukkie. Mianhae...I’m here but I cannot touch you right now...’
He stands from his spot and walk to the bed. When he reached his bed, he laid down his body and tears start falling again.
“Hyukkie, I love you...for past, now and forever.” They still cuddle with each other after their make love session, with Hyukjae on Donghae’s arm and their fingers intertwine.
“Hae, I love you too...for past, now and forever...”Hyukjae’s voice become slower. When Donghae turn his face to saw Hyukjae, his lips curve small smile.
“Already sleep, my baby...Good night and dream of me ne...” Donghae kiss his boyfriend hair, down to cheek and stop at his red plump lips. ‘I addicted to it’ thought Donghae.
“Good night...”murmur Hyukjae in his sleep.
When that memories play on his head, he know...he not strong guy to faced it suddenly. His body curl into a ball at the bed. The hard sob will be heard from outside.
“It’s my fault, Hae. If we don’t fight that night, you will not drive in bad emotion and you will not meet an accident. The important thing, you will not leave me right now alone...”
“Lee Hyukjae, listen to me...” Donghae pull Hyukjae’s shoulder to make his faced him right now.
“I don’t want to hear...Mr. Lee Donghae... I saw you kiss that bitch, and now you want me to hear your explaination. It’s so funny.”
“It’s not the way you think, Hyukkie...I’m not kiss her but she the first one kiss me.”
“And you enjoy with her kiss...”
“No...I’m not, Hyukkie...please trust me...please...”
“NO” just a single word but it crashes his world.
“.....Fine, you just not trust me anymore...Thanks for everything...” Donghae grabbed his car keys before walk towards the door.
“Goodbye, Hyukkie...”
“It the last time I heard your voice,Hae...the last time...and now, I regretted it...”
-30 minute later-
“Hyukkie, I just receive a call from hospital...Donghae, he met an accident.”Jungsoo burst into Hyukjae’s room.
“Donghae...”said Hyukjae slow before he passed out.
-Seoul Hospital-
“How’s Donghae?” asked Jungsoo impatiently.
“Sorry, he in really critical condition...His heart... I did not know how to telling you, but right now, he’s in coma...just pray for him.” The doctor sigh before leave them.
“Hyung, how’s he?” asked Hyukjae.
“He’s in coma...”
“He will be okay,right hyung?” tears slowly down to his cheek.
“I don’t know, Hyuk.”
“Hyuk-oppa”Hyukjae heard someone call his name. When he turns, he sees Jessica come to him with lower head.
SLAP/
“Go...I don’t want see your face, Jes.”
“I’m sorry, oppa.”
“All of this is because of you...if you not kiss Hae, I will not hurt him...not hurt him...”Hyukjae’s fall down on his knee.
“Hyukkie, be yourself please.”
-a week later-
“Hae, please wake up...” still did not have reaction.
“I miss you,Hae...Wake up soon ne.”
“I love you,Hae” Hyukjae kiss the dry lips.
After that he heard the long beep sound from the machine. The doctor and nurse runs to Donghae’s room after their magnae called them.
“Sorry...” At that time, he already knows that he was lost his precious love, his everything. His world turns dark.
“Hae, if I keep trust you that night...” His body was shaking because of his sob.
“Hyukkie, dinner is already.” Sungmin called from outside. He bites his inner cheek from prevent him to burst out the tears when he heard the Hyukjae’s sob from inside.
“I don’t have any apetite, Minnie-hyung” Hyukjae’s voice cracked.
“Hyukkie...you should eat. Just a little, you did not eat from yesterday.” Soothe Jungsoo from the outside.
“Teukie, I think, just let him alone for a while...It too sudden for him.” Heechul pull Jungsoo that stand in front of Hyukjae’s room door.
“Chul-ah...but he...”
“Teukie, it’s same with you when first day Kangin go to army, but that time you know, one day he will come back. It’s also same with me when Hannie leave me and go back to China, he will came back every time he want...But it different with Hyuk...Hae leave him forever...and we all know that he will never come back... try imagining put you on his shoes...and you will know that feelings...”
“But, I dead worry about him...”
“Not just you worry about him, Teukie...the rest of Super Junior and E.L.F also worried about him. You’re ‘umma’ and ‘angel’ in this group, so you should strong and don’t faced Hyuk with this face expression. You just make him become sadder.” Heechul tap Jungsoo shoulder and walk to his lover.
“He’s right, Teukie. Just give Hyuk the time...I know, he will move on one day.” Said Kangin on Jungsoo’s ear when he hug his lover from behind.
‘Buddies, please take care of the person that I love because he’s my everything...’
-one month later-
“Hyukkie...Let’s go to shopping mall.”Sungmin burst into Hyukjae’s room.
“I don’t have mood to go shopping, Hyung,”
“But...today was your birthday...I want treat you a dinner.” Said Sungmin, pouted.
“Don’t pout Minnie hyung. I’m not that evil magnae that easy fall for your pout.” Hyukjae was out the small chuckle when he sees his Hyung expression.
“Did I hear my name was being mention in this discussion?”Kyuhyun step in the room with the present on his hand.
“Yah...What are you doing in here, Kyu?”
“I did not come here for you, my bunny Minnie.” Kyuhyun just mock his boyfriend.
“Hish, this little brat...”
Hyukjae just laugh at the couple in front of him.
“But, I come here for you, my lovely Hyung. There have a present for you. I wish ‘Happy birthday’, Hyukkie hyung.” Hyukjae widened his eyes with the present that he gets from the magnae.
“Not from me, hyung. Someone send in front our dorm this morning.” He stills the genius that can read his hyung’s mind.
“Anyway, thanks Kyu” He show his gummy smile for their magnae.
‘I really miss your gummy smile, my baby...’
“I miss that smile, hyung. Err...I think, I’m better go now, hyung because I can see right now someone want to explode anytime.” Kyuhyun run out from Hyukjae room with laugh.
“Hish...that evil...always want tease me...So, Hyuk...still care for shopping...”
“I think, I’ll pass hyung...I want go to see Hae this evening.”
“Okay...I should go now...want to punish that little brat...See you at night, Hyuk.”Sungmin wave good bye.
‘I wonder, who the person that sent present for me...May be someone from my fans.’
‘It’s from me, baby...’
“It’s Hae...”said Hyukjae, slowly after he opens and read the card on the present.
Dear Hyukkie baby,
I’m realllyyyyy....realllllyyy miss you, my baby....Don’t mad at me pleaseeeee... When you got this present from other person than me....I just want to surprise in your birthday. I asked the delivery boy to send this present in front on our dorm at your birthday... If I don’t have at beside you this time, at least that has my present for your birthday this year... So, baby...just continue your walk...don’t turn back because I will always on your side...
Happy Birthday, Love....and Mianhae, baby....If I did not keep my promise to you... the promise that I will not leave you alone...
Your only love,
Lee donghae...
“Hae...at that time...did you feel that you will leave me before my birthday?” Hyukjae’s tears fall t his cheek.
‘Baby, please stop cry...I’m really hurt see you like this...’
“Hae...where are you right now? I want to hug you...to feel your presence right now...to feel that you care about me right now...I want you as my birthday present now,Hae...please...” Hyukjae close his eyes...In the dark, he can see his love smile for him... He can feel the presence of his lover...
“Hae...”
“Hyukkie...please don’t be like this...”
“I miss you, Hae.” Hyukjae’s lips curve into small smile.
“I miss you too, Hyukkie..”
“Take me with you now,Hae...”
“NO, Hyukkie...You should life...Many people need you...Your family, Super Junior and E.L.F also need you.”Donghae hugs his lover.
“But, I need you, Hae...”
“I also need you Hyukkie... when the right time comes, we will be together again. So,baby... promise me... you will move on...and be happy with your life...”
“I will try, Hae...”When he opens his eyes, he can smell vanilla scent around his rooms.
“I know...you will comes,Hae.”
-One year later-
-at cemetery-
“It has been a year, Hae...
And I follow your advice...be happy with my life...
It’s true...
I’m dance like before...
I’m laugh with Leeteuk-hyung dork jokes...
I’m smile when see Kyumin couple argue about PSP...
I’m still shock when ddangkoma blink his eyes to me...
I’m still eating a lot...
But, all that are mask, Hae...
A mask that I put on my face to not make them worried...
I know,
Even I wear that mask,
They still worried about me...
Because I can see it on their eyes...
So, I could not have to hurt them anymore, Hae...
Its burden me from inside...
Mianhae, my love,
I will break one of my promises...
God, please take me away.... ”
With that, Hyukjae’s slicing his wrist with a knife that he brings from home.
“Umma, Appa, Sora noona...mianhae,
Leeteuk, Heechul, Hankyung, Kangin, Yesung, Shindong, Sungmin...Mianhae
Siwon, Kibum, Ryeowook and Kyuhyun...mianhae....
E.L.F....mianhae...”
“Hae, we will be together again now...so,waiting for me.”Hyukjae’s close his both eyes... his beautiful world turn to dark.
‘Hyuk, it’s not your right time...but I will grant your wish this time...I will not against you...’
The all love needs is... SACRIFICE...
A/N: Kya, I finish it in the middle my exam weeks... with 4 papers left, I write this fic... WTH...YOU NOT STUDY BUT YOU WRITE FIC...OH NO!!!!!!!IT’S WILL NOT IN YOUR EXAM....