My "anti-Christian" rant
There is something on my heart, that has always been on my heart and I need to express it as best I can. My apologies for any misspellings or bad grammar; this is being written in a heated fury of sorts.
It bothers me greatly how some would consider it a sin to question the Bible. Actually, let me rephrase that. It bothers me greatly how some would consider it a sin to question the many versions of God's supposed word which has been interpreted, written and re-written by hundreds of men over thousands of years. And it unnerves me even more that there are those who have the patience to read nothing more than the Bible and anything else that pertains to it.
I suppose I am writing all of this as a result of years of disagreeing with conservative family members and friends whom I know would more than likely consider me a heathen destined for hell simply because I refuse to live and think as they would have me live and think. Yes, I will agree, I am the very definition of a "sinner" - I question every Christian thing that was ever taught to me, I am curious about other belief systems including Islam and, yes, I believe that evolution is a fact.
I try my best to understand as many things as I can, though I can acknowledge that I usually fail miserably in the process. But the one thing that I will never understand is why it is considered such a sin to question and to wonder and to think. Isn't that what makes us so unique as human beings? That we have the ability and the capacity to look at everything around us and pry it apart, analyze it, compartmentalize our thoughts and break the rest down into words, mathematical terms and scientific explanations? We have the intelligence and the intellect to observe everything around us and find out for ourselves how and why everything is the way that it is and yet there are those of us who refuse to use what I would consdier to be our greatest God-given talents.
I love that this world is so diverse and I love the fact that people can never agree. What I hate is when people refuse to think for themselves. I hate how it is wrong of me to have the audacity to disagree with what supposed Christian scholars have to say, not just about the Bible, but of this universe. I don't care if the Bible is "the word of God"; it was interpreted for the masses by men who are as corrupt as I am and that is what I do not trust.
And as an aside, on the topic of evolution, you Christians have got to be kidding me, right? You are trying to tell me that you believe in a God who is omniscient, omnipresent and omnipotent but you refuse to believe in evolution? You are telling me that you have the faith enough to believe in a being so great that he created this entire universe, as infinite and marvelous as it is, but not enough to believe that he allowed evolution to occur even as a tool in creation? You have got to be FUCKING kidding me! I would much rather believe in a God powerful enough to allow his creation to evolve than a God so unimaginative that something as magnificent as evolution could never occur.
And I would much rather believe in the potential of a sinful life than in the promises of a perfect one. I believe that God created humans because of sin. Because despite all of the wretchedness, misery, suffering and pain he saw in the world that he desired to make, he also saw all of the beauty that would result in the process. I believe that he saw a greater capacity for love in a world filled with, rather than deprived, of sin and depravity.
I would much rather be the most depraved and corrupt of the sinners in this universe than the holiest of all holies because through me and the ugliness that is found in my blackened heart, you would be able to find and recognize all that is beautiful and holy and sacred. You would find forgiveness. And isn't that the point of God and his love and the fact that he even allowed us to live so much as a millisecond in his creation? That he could show us forgiveness and how to love? We would never know that without sin. We would never know that without hate or corruption or even death. How could we ever possibly truly live without knowing death?
I just can't do it. I can't perceive a world, a life, without sin, nor would I ever want to, because I choose to live, as painful as it may seem.
Because I want to die
and live again
and again
and again.
And that is my rant for the day.
My apologies for my lack of apologies in writing anything offensive to anyone.
It bothers me greatly how some would consider it a sin to question the Bible. Actually, let me rephrase that. It bothers me greatly how some would consider it a sin to question the many versions of God's supposed word which has been interpreted, written and re-written by hundreds of men over thousands of years. And it unnerves me even more that there are those who have the patience to read nothing more than the Bible and anything else that pertains to it.
I suppose I am writing all of this as a result of years of disagreeing with conservative family members and friends whom I know would more than likely consider me a heathen destined for hell simply because I refuse to live and think as they would have me live and think. Yes, I will agree, I am the very definition of a "sinner" - I question every Christian thing that was ever taught to me, I am curious about other belief systems including Islam and, yes, I believe that evolution is a fact.
I try my best to understand as many things as I can, though I can acknowledge that I usually fail miserably in the process. But the one thing that I will never understand is why it is considered such a sin to question and to wonder and to think. Isn't that what makes us so unique as human beings? That we have the ability and the capacity to look at everything around us and pry it apart, analyze it, compartmentalize our thoughts and break the rest down into words, mathematical terms and scientific explanations? We have the intelligence and the intellect to observe everything around us and find out for ourselves how and why everything is the way that it is and yet there are those of us who refuse to use what I would consdier to be our greatest God-given talents.
I love that this world is so diverse and I love the fact that people can never agree. What I hate is when people refuse to think for themselves. I hate how it is wrong of me to have the audacity to disagree with what supposed Christian scholars have to say, not just about the Bible, but of this universe. I don't care if the Bible is "the word of God"; it was interpreted for the masses by men who are as corrupt as I am and that is what I do not trust.
And as an aside, on the topic of evolution, you Christians have got to be kidding me, right? You are trying to tell me that you believe in a God who is omniscient, omnipresent and omnipotent but you refuse to believe in evolution? You are telling me that you have the faith enough to believe in a being so great that he created this entire universe, as infinite and marvelous as it is, but not enough to believe that he allowed evolution to occur even as a tool in creation? You have got to be FUCKING kidding me! I would much rather believe in a God powerful enough to allow his creation to evolve than a God so unimaginative that something as magnificent as evolution could never occur.
And I would much rather believe in the potential of a sinful life than in the promises of a perfect one. I believe that God created humans because of sin. Because despite all of the wretchedness, misery, suffering and pain he saw in the world that he desired to make, he also saw all of the beauty that would result in the process. I believe that he saw a greater capacity for love in a world filled with, rather than deprived, of sin and depravity.
I would much rather be the most depraved and corrupt of the sinners in this universe than the holiest of all holies because through me and the ugliness that is found in my blackened heart, you would be able to find and recognize all that is beautiful and holy and sacred. You would find forgiveness. And isn't that the point of God and his love and the fact that he even allowed us to live so much as a millisecond in his creation? That he could show us forgiveness and how to love? We would never know that without sin. We would never know that without hate or corruption or even death. How could we ever possibly truly live without knowing death?
I just can't do it. I can't perceive a world, a life, without sin, nor would I ever want to, because I choose to live, as painful as it may seem.
Because I want to die
and live again
and again
and again.
And that is my rant for the day.
My apologies for my lack of apologies in writing anything offensive to anyone.