now that i have found someone, i'm feeling more alone..than i ever have before..

[cidith2289]

i really do believe that some friendships never die. you prove it to me everytime we are together. and i never know how much i missed something until i have it again. and now i've been home since 7 45-8 o' clock..which is the earliest i've been home in weeks..listening to depressing music and thinking about you and how i'm scared to death that we're falling apart. and i know that sometimes statements don't mean anything..and aren't meant how they come out..but i believe every word you say..because it's all i know how to do. and sometimes your words hurt, but i don't know the difference between what you mean and what you say..what is right and what is wrong. you are my happiness, and you're supposed to trust those that make you happy. so i trust in everything you do and say with all my heart, and when you talk like nothing matters..it's like you ripped it apart. i want to matter to you in a way that no one else does..but sometimes i don't think i do.

It's three o' clock we're driving in your car
i'm screaming out the window at the stars
"please don't drive me home"
tell me all the places we could go
and count the headlights passing on the road
"please don't drive me home"
"please don't take me home"

life is a beautiful disaster.
<3cid