forgive my hesitation, i'm giving it away..
it just seems like no one ever has the answer that i want. and how do i know you're good for me when i don't even know what it is that i need. a black cat sits there watching my every move..making sure i do everything wrong. and you wanna know what's wrong? well thanks for acting like you care when i know you don't, it shows just how unreal the real world really is. i hate being here. and i hate being transparent, but what i hate the most is being hollow. people see through to the nothing that i feel, and they don't even care. because why should you care about someone you don't even know? my emotions are like the days of the week..and when you think you got enough rest on sunday, you have to wake up on monday and start all over. and once you get used to monday.. tuesday is coming on strong. and i don't understand any of it. it's that something that i want so badly to try to get..but i just get side tracked by the hole that i'm digging for myself. it's getting deeper and deeper. and i don't know what i'm doing anymore..and i don't even know what i'm talking about...