perfect, doesn't feel so perfect..
i hear people say "love the skin you're in." well when the happiness that i know could never last wears off, i wash my face at night wishing that in the morning i could be a new person. or at least have a new face to hide behind. sometimes i hate myself because i never seem to do anything right. and at these times it's horrible to feel like i have no one to turn too. promises don't mean a thing. all they are to me after so many broken, are an easier way to be told "i'll let you down." well today i'm in a nasty mood and i know i'm being rediculous, but i just want someone to understand what i need. i need you and i'm so scared that i'm going to lose you..that eventually our love will fade and fall away like everything else. i never really understood the meaning of everything until i saw it in you..and i knew that this is what people live for. and let themselves love for. and sacrafice everything for. i understood and then in that same moment i tried to deny how i felt because i've been broken for so long that when i felt this good i was scared it would all be gone too soon. and i don't know what to do with all these feelings i have inside. it's so easy to forget them but one lousy day can make something beautiful into a big drama. i'm tired, i'm torn, and i'm dreading school..but i pray it will be better in the morning.