it's been real............
To all of the people at SNHU, I will miss you guys so much. Even though it's only 4 months that we're gone and we're gonna see each other again soon, it still is sad to leave all of you. I mean think about it, you see each other every day for about 8 months, and then you go to barely seeing each other for 4 months, it's hard. Especially the roomie! Janey! I mean you get so used to living with this one person, especailly when you get along so well, and then you have to leave for 4 months and not be able to have them by your side every day when you need them. I know you will all still be there for me, but it's not the same on the telephone. I am gonna miss you all SO much. And roomie, I'm hear for you any time you need me! And thanks for all the midnight chats and cries. I will never forget any of the memories that we all have together. Next year is gonna be a blast!!
Now Jane, help me out with this one will you?! Ick 1 and Ick 2: so confusing. Yes Ick 1 is the one I really have feelings for right now. And Ick 1 is So sweet and just a great person. Ick 2 the same, it's just the imagine yourself doing something, haha. I guess last night was just, I don't really know. It feels great when someone wants to like be around you and it's nice to have someone to cuddle with ya know? I just don't think it's anything like "that." ya know? Ick 2 is a great person as well, but, I dunno, I guess I'm just really confused about it all. And I feel bad b/c I don't want to lead Ick 2 on. But then it comes back to Ick 1 and it's like, am I wasting my time? Ick 1 has a g/f and I just have that feeling that there will never be anything, nothing will ever come of it. Whether you say you think Ick 1 has those kinda feelings, even in some little way, it's still hard to accept the g/f thing. Just the smile of Ick 1 makes me all happy lol. I'm sure you understand how I feel. And you know Ick 1 better than I do, so I'm not really sure what to think. Last night was great being around Ick 1, and then Ick 2 came along and it felt great to have someone WANT to cuddle with you. Even if it isn't a relationship sorta thing. I just don't think it could ever BE a relationship thing. So Jane, I'm hoping you can understand what last night was. I guess it was just hard to put in words, b/c usually I'm like Oh man, Ick 2 likes me? or what? And I didn't have those same feelings. I mean, definitely great hugs and cuddling. But Ick 1 gives great hugs too. I'm just so confused.
So, I only have less than 2 hours before I leave SNHU for the summer. I am really messed up and confused by the whole thing. I mean going back to my mom's house and not back to my dad's. I moved out of my mom's when I was 16 to go live with my dad, and he wanted me to. Now it's like, I didn't accomplish things that he thought I should have so I have to go elsewhere. Don't get me wrong I love my mom and am happy to go, but there's still a part of me that thinks I should be back at my dad's in Hudson. It's definitely a lot to take in. I mean I will get to see all my friends back in Greenville, but then I won't see my Hudson friends as much. And my brother lives in Greenville, and I am SO excited about that b/c my brother is awesome and I love to hang out with him and Lish and my lil niece Rhiannon. But I'm not so sure that things are ok with them. I think they might want to split up and that kills me. They have been together for a long time and they have a baby together. I have grown attached to Lish. I know that I will still see her, she really is like a sister to me, but it just wont be the same if they aren't together and it really makes me sad.
Anyways, I am sad about leaving SNHU. And again guys, it's been real. SO many memories I don't even know if I can list them all. I guess I will just say my goodbyes and thanks to all of you who have been there for me.
Jane (the best roomie ever), Kristin, Steph, Kerry, Jen, Matty, Derek, Eric, Stehly(i haven't known you that long, but you make Steph so happy, and you are awesome to come to the hospital w/us to get me stitched up! THanks!!), Mary (future roomie!!glad we had a great chat), Jen D (gonna miss you, sad you're not coming back to SNHU in the fall), Julie, and all the rest of you I didn't mention!! I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH, AND I'M GONNA MISS YOU LOTS AND LOTS. PLEASE KEEP IN TOUCH THIS SUMMER!!!!!! MWAH!
Oh and to the first semester people who we chilled with and didnt really second semester, I wont forget you either: Dustin, Adam Tallman, Dan........
So that's that, and vaca from SNHU begins when I leave in an hour..... :-(
Now Jane, help me out with this one will you?! Ick 1 and Ick 2: so confusing. Yes Ick 1 is the one I really have feelings for right now. And Ick 1 is So sweet and just a great person. Ick 2 the same, it's just the imagine yourself doing something, haha. I guess last night was just, I don't really know. It feels great when someone wants to like be around you and it's nice to have someone to cuddle with ya know? I just don't think it's anything like "that." ya know? Ick 2 is a great person as well, but, I dunno, I guess I'm just really confused about it all. And I feel bad b/c I don't want to lead Ick 2 on. But then it comes back to Ick 1 and it's like, am I wasting my time? Ick 1 has a g/f and I just have that feeling that there will never be anything, nothing will ever come of it. Whether you say you think Ick 1 has those kinda feelings, even in some little way, it's still hard to accept the g/f thing. Just the smile of Ick 1 makes me all happy lol. I'm sure you understand how I feel. And you know Ick 1 better than I do, so I'm not really sure what to think. Last night was great being around Ick 1, and then Ick 2 came along and it felt great to have someone WANT to cuddle with you. Even if it isn't a relationship sorta thing. I just don't think it could ever BE a relationship thing. So Jane, I'm hoping you can understand what last night was. I guess it was just hard to put in words, b/c usually I'm like Oh man, Ick 2 likes me? or what? And I didn't have those same feelings. I mean, definitely great hugs and cuddling. But Ick 1 gives great hugs too. I'm just so confused.
So, I only have less than 2 hours before I leave SNHU for the summer. I am really messed up and confused by the whole thing. I mean going back to my mom's house and not back to my dad's. I moved out of my mom's when I was 16 to go live with my dad, and he wanted me to. Now it's like, I didn't accomplish things that he thought I should have so I have to go elsewhere. Don't get me wrong I love my mom and am happy to go, but there's still a part of me that thinks I should be back at my dad's in Hudson. It's definitely a lot to take in. I mean I will get to see all my friends back in Greenville, but then I won't see my Hudson friends as much. And my brother lives in Greenville, and I am SO excited about that b/c my brother is awesome and I love to hang out with him and Lish and my lil niece Rhiannon. But I'm not so sure that things are ok with them. I think they might want to split up and that kills me. They have been together for a long time and they have a baby together. I have grown attached to Lish. I know that I will still see her, she really is like a sister to me, but it just wont be the same if they aren't together and it really makes me sad.
Anyways, I am sad about leaving SNHU. And again guys, it's been real. SO many memories I don't even know if I can list them all. I guess I will just say my goodbyes and thanks to all of you who have been there for me.
Jane (the best roomie ever), Kristin, Steph, Kerry, Jen, Matty, Derek, Eric, Stehly(i haven't known you that long, but you make Steph so happy, and you are awesome to come to the hospital w/us to get me stitched up! THanks!!), Mary (future roomie!!glad we had a great chat), Jen D (gonna miss you, sad you're not coming back to SNHU in the fall), Julie, and all the rest of you I didn't mention!! I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH, AND I'M GONNA MISS YOU LOTS AND LOTS. PLEASE KEEP IN TOUCH THIS SUMMER!!!!!! MWAH!
Oh and to the first semester people who we chilled with and didnt really second semester, I wont forget you either: Dustin, Adam Tallman, Dan........
So that's that, and vaca from SNHU begins when I leave in an hour..... :-(