I dunno....
It's days like these that make me not want to be here. I get so stressed out about everything. Not to mention it's about 10:30 pm and I've been up since about 4AM to stand in the freezing cold at 5 AM yea so much fun... haha NOT REALLY. So, I go to bed at maybe like midnight, didn't sleep for shit, then i'm up at 4ish, stand in line for 2 hours and don't get all my classes. Now I have to take an 8 AM class, something I was hoping I would not have to do. But, who knows I'm not even staying in it, no way I'm gettin up that early for a stupid class. FuCk ThAt!!
So, I was thinking about leaving for the semester and coming back in the fall because I'm stressing about the whole money thing and I don't have a full time job, so I don't have that much money. But the only thing that is stopping me is.....MY SNHU PEOPLE!! jane and kristin are the BIGGEST reason for me staying. Jen too. If it wasn't for all you guys, I would be gone. I think you guys are helping me through this. And it's awesome to know that I can talk to you guys about pretty much anything b/c right now i REALLY need someone to talk to. And you guys are here for me and that means so much to me and i thank you so much for it. I love you guys. I have so much fun w/all of you. All the fun times and the memories and the laughs is what keeps me going! Thanks for being there for me. And the same goes for you, I'm here for you guys too!
So, on the other hand, the parental units just are a little troubling. Does that make sense? In other words, things havent been the coolest w/us. My mom and I have been fighting for a few days, and I hate fighting w/my mom b/c i think we are pretty close and I hate to fuck that up. A lot of the times we just argue about the stupidest things ever. Maybe I'm a bitch sometimes, but I have my reasons. My dad and I are close sometimes too, but I dont tell him as much as i tell my mom b/c he's not as easy to talk to. Sometimes i guess I'm scared of the things he'll say. But sometimes he just doesnt understand me or the things i say and do. It's always been like that. He doesn't always show that he cares. Or if I am excited about something he doesnt always seem like he is happy for me or proud of me. I hope things will change, but we'll c. It's like that song by Simple Plan "Perfect." Listen to it and you'll know. Right kristin? But I love both my parents a lot. I wouldn't be here w/out them and I wouldnt be able to make it w/out them now either.
So this past weekend was pretty good. Friday we (me, kristin, jane, jen and steff) went to kristin's moms. For some reason i think i wrote about this in a different entry, maybe my last one. Whatever it was a fun time!
Saturday, I went to visit my brother and his fiancee/gf whatever she is. LOL. And of course my little neice Rhiannon. She's the best. I love going to my brothers. I love the relationship we have, it's great. We used to be distant and didn't really talk to each other. We were two totally different people. We always argued and pissed each other off. But things changed, for the better that is. We grew up. Now me and my brother are really close and I know he'll always be there for me. He cares about me. Not a lot of sisters are lucky like that. If I need to call my brother to talk, I know I can just pick up the phone and call him and he'll listen. He likes to hear what I have to say, or what's wrong. He knows me pretty well, I can't get by him if something is wrong. My brother is awesome. I dont know what I would do w/out him. ANd Lish, his g/f /fiancee, she's great too, great to talk to. And Rhiannon, she's only 15 months, she's the cutest thing!!
So I guess that's all I have to say for tonight. Just wanna say thanks again to my SNHU people for being there for me. ANd thanks for all the fun times so far!! I'm having fun, well outside of classes lol. Jane, my roommie!!! Kristin, Jen, Matty, Steff. And Kerry I don't talk to you as much, but you are fuckin awesome! You should definitely hang out w/us a lot!! Crazy fun!
LOVE U ALL SNHU CREW!!!!!! AND ALL THE REST OF MY FRIENDS. BUT THIS ENTRY IS MOSTLY TO THE SNHU PEEPS... AND THE REST OF MY BLABBING ABOUT MY PROBLEMS! But, ya know what, that just felt good i think to get all of that out. I feel relieved and ready to go to sleep lol. I feel like a huge boulder has just been lifted from my shoulders... ahhhh.. :) And the game of pool tonight Kristin, thanks, it helped me get my mind off of the shitty day i had! oh and umm i won!! LOL haha. That's for the foosball!! lol.
So, I was thinking about leaving for the semester and coming back in the fall because I'm stressing about the whole money thing and I don't have a full time job, so I don't have that much money. But the only thing that is stopping me is.....MY SNHU PEOPLE!! jane and kristin are the BIGGEST reason for me staying. Jen too. If it wasn't for all you guys, I would be gone. I think you guys are helping me through this. And it's awesome to know that I can talk to you guys about pretty much anything b/c right now i REALLY need someone to talk to. And you guys are here for me and that means so much to me and i thank you so much for it. I love you guys. I have so much fun w/all of you. All the fun times and the memories and the laughs is what keeps me going! Thanks for being there for me. And the same goes for you, I'm here for you guys too!
So, on the other hand, the parental units just are a little troubling. Does that make sense? In other words, things havent been the coolest w/us. My mom and I have been fighting for a few days, and I hate fighting w/my mom b/c i think we are pretty close and I hate to fuck that up. A lot of the times we just argue about the stupidest things ever. Maybe I'm a bitch sometimes, but I have my reasons. My dad and I are close sometimes too, but I dont tell him as much as i tell my mom b/c he's not as easy to talk to. Sometimes i guess I'm scared of the things he'll say. But sometimes he just doesnt understand me or the things i say and do. It's always been like that. He doesn't always show that he cares. Or if I am excited about something he doesnt always seem like he is happy for me or proud of me. I hope things will change, but we'll c. It's like that song by Simple Plan "Perfect." Listen to it and you'll know. Right kristin? But I love both my parents a lot. I wouldn't be here w/out them and I wouldnt be able to make it w/out them now either.
So this past weekend was pretty good. Friday we (me, kristin, jane, jen and steff) went to kristin's moms. For some reason i think i wrote about this in a different entry, maybe my last one. Whatever it was a fun time!
Saturday, I went to visit my brother and his fiancee/gf whatever she is. LOL. And of course my little neice Rhiannon. She's the best. I love going to my brothers. I love the relationship we have, it's great. We used to be distant and didn't really talk to each other. We were two totally different people. We always argued and pissed each other off. But things changed, for the better that is. We grew up. Now me and my brother are really close and I know he'll always be there for me. He cares about me. Not a lot of sisters are lucky like that. If I need to call my brother to talk, I know I can just pick up the phone and call him and he'll listen. He likes to hear what I have to say, or what's wrong. He knows me pretty well, I can't get by him if something is wrong. My brother is awesome. I dont know what I would do w/out him. ANd Lish, his g/f /fiancee, she's great too, great to talk to. And Rhiannon, she's only 15 months, she's the cutest thing!!
So I guess that's all I have to say for tonight. Just wanna say thanks again to my SNHU people for being there for me. ANd thanks for all the fun times so far!! I'm having fun, well outside of classes lol. Jane, my roommie!!! Kristin, Jen, Matty, Steff. And Kerry I don't talk to you as much, but you are fuckin awesome! You should definitely hang out w/us a lot!! Crazy fun!
LOVE U ALL SNHU CREW!!!!!! AND ALL THE REST OF MY FRIENDS. BUT THIS ENTRY IS MOSTLY TO THE SNHU PEEPS... AND THE REST OF MY BLABBING ABOUT MY PROBLEMS! But, ya know what, that just felt good i think to get all of that out. I feel relieved and ready to go to sleep lol. I feel like a huge boulder has just been lifted from my shoulders... ahhhh.. :) And the game of pool tonight Kristin, thanks, it helped me get my mind off of the shitty day i had! oh and umm i won!! LOL haha. That's for the foosball!! lol.