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Ok, so tomorrow, or rather today, since its like 3 something in the morning, I am going to college. I am leaving my home that I love so much and my family that I love, sometimes, and its just going to be crazy. I have met a lot of new people this past year and it sucks that I have to leave them without getting to know some of them as much as I could if I was staying home for another year, why couldn't I have met them like a year ago? Uhh, well thats just the way it goes, I suppose. I hope to meet a lot of new cool people in college, but I am not very good at meeting and approaching new people, so that's a negative, but I am excited but also incredibly scared, not such a good feeling, you know its like a nervous feeling has been in my stomach all week. I have been moody and depressed all week. I am sure I have annoyed the shit out of a lot of people. But maybe that's just the way it should be? People should be mad at me before I leave, so when I am gone they wont miss me as much? But then after they forgive me, I suppose that wont be the case anymore, I dont even know what I am talking about anymore, I just don't wanna fall asleep tonight because I don't want to leave to go to St.Cloud....ohh I do, but don't, its hard to explain, I mean I wanna leave and become more indepent but yet I still wanna be kinda like a child and be able to rely on people and have other people take care of me... wait, thats what I need to get away from, oh man, I am ramblin on, well I suppose I haven't posted in quite awhile, so I kinda have the right to? Well at least I am not going to a college that is super far away, so I can never see my friends again, it could be worse, trying to think positive....and I will be back home briefly for the KILLERS concert, because I couldn't miss that, no way jose, haha, its getting late, I really should go, I need to face reality, the reality that today I will move in with a stranger and have a different lifestyle and will be attending college classes in a few days.....I have a long day tomorrow, uhhhh...alright, this is the end of my pointless and dragged on entry.