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[cic0405]

today i went over to dee and makaylas grave site. i have been there times before, and everytime i have not been able to find their plot. now, i have always thought that this makes me a bad friend, that i can never find my friend and baby's grave site. i always end up crying because i cant find it, but its not because im a bad person. that entire week, the week of the viewing and the funeral, and everything else, it was and still is a blurr to me. i remember in the area where they we burried, but i couldnt remember exactly where. but today, i just got this feeling to go...so i did. and i found it, i actually found it this time. their stone is beautiful. their names and birth days and death dates on are on, and theres an angel on the top and a dove. and on the bottom is a poem. right under makaylas name is the first picture taken of dee holding her in the hospital. it was put on the stone, so everyone can always remember them. it is beautiful. i am so happy that i found it today, and now i can spend more time over there. today has been a good day.

right now, i have never been more happy in my life, ever. thanks for putting a smile on my face everyday, and being the one person that truly makes me happy :)