"I'm watching through my own light as it tints the shade of you"
I should be working on my statistics final for Futures which is due in about three hours but that would be too responsible of me. I have so much stuff to do between now and Saturday and all I want to do is sit on my ass and watch TV or sleep (yes, I know, I'm very lazy and I'm sleeping my life away but I'm having fun doing it or at least I would be if I was).
I'm considering getting a Mystic Tan for prom. Does anybody know much about it? I think Selena's the only one who reads this, but if anybody else is and has some input...I was going to do the whole tanning bed thing (which I'm normally against because it gives you skin cancer, etc.) because I figured once or twice wouldn't be that bad (right?). But my mom talked to my dermatologist who said that because of the meds I'm taking for my skin, which make me more sensitive to the sun, I would probably get a really bad burn and blister. So that was out. I don't want to look really pale for prom but I also don't want something to go wrong and end up orange or "streaky". Oh well, I might not even have time. We'll see...
I'm really not a superstitious person, but I see myself as a generally unlucky person, especially when it comes to big dances. I'm just waiting for something to go horribly wrong and I keep trying to remind myself that it doesn't have to be perfect, that I just have to relax (heh heh) and have fun. Or, as my sister always tells me, "Chill out". I need to, at some point in my life, get a hold of myself because this constant anxiety over anything and everything will eventually kill me. I need to be a responsible, organized, efficient, well-motivated person if I want to succeed, but I also want to be a confident, compassionate, intelligent, well-liked person. I feel that by having all of these high expectations for myself I'm just setting myself up to be disappointed in the end.
I'm considering getting a Mystic Tan for prom. Does anybody know much about it? I think Selena's the only one who reads this, but if anybody else is and has some input...I was going to do the whole tanning bed thing (which I'm normally against because it gives you skin cancer, etc.) because I figured once or twice wouldn't be that bad (right?). But my mom talked to my dermatologist who said that because of the meds I'm taking for my skin, which make me more sensitive to the sun, I would probably get a really bad burn and blister. So that was out. I don't want to look really pale for prom but I also don't want something to go wrong and end up orange or "streaky". Oh well, I might not even have time. We'll see...
I'm really not a superstitious person, but I see myself as a generally unlucky person, especially when it comes to big dances. I'm just waiting for something to go horribly wrong and I keep trying to remind myself that it doesn't have to be perfect, that I just have to relax (heh heh) and have fun. Or, as my sister always tells me, "Chill out". I need to, at some point in my life, get a hold of myself because this constant anxiety over anything and everything will eventually kill me. I need to be a responsible, organized, efficient, well-motivated person if I want to succeed, but I also want to be a confident, compassionate, intelligent, well-liked person. I feel that by having all of these high expectations for myself I'm just setting myself up to be disappointed in the end.