GP RANT
So, if anyone still reads this- you probably wont understand. I just need to vent. 1) Im kind of sick of not knowing about GP events, or crew invitations mysteriously getting lost. I dont really care, but most of my crewies do. And i feel like the cast is intentionally excluding crew from everything, or they invite us out of pity. There is a definite rift this year. 2) Senior talk. No. Sorry. I dont at all feel like i should have to profess my undying love for gp- to the cast. They dont know me, i dont know them. I dont love them. My heart is with crew. I think it was utterly ridiculous for me to have to try to explain to people with whom i feel alienated, how much i love GP. Yes, i know its tradition- all seniors have to do it. But i doubt any cast members cared what i had to say. Then again it would have been nice to know about it BEFOREhand. I found out 10 minutes before fourth block ended. Yeah. So that was awkward. Then everyone started crying, and i felt even more out of place. Which was kind of like at the girls sleep over. It was fun, but awkward. Extraordinarily awkward. I dont really know what i was expecting, but i thing i should stop trying to fit into the crowd that im clearly not a part of. 3) Drama. It all just needs to end. For a long time, i wasnt myself. I was unhappy, tired, dragging through each day. I finally feel like im starting to find myself again, which is a good thing. Today is the first genuine day that i have been happy. And i was at school for 15 hours today. Which is crazy, but i loved it. Crew made my day. Honestly. Im glad things have started to turn around because i was getting sick of being irritable and upset. My optimism is gaining strength- its about time. End rant. And i just realized its been forever since ive updated. Wow.