damn it all to hell
damn what is there to say....im just feeling so emotional righ now...i just feel that im not worth anything...andt that im no good..that my whole life in going to spend being lonely and miserable....and that what i have going right now it sooner or later going to turn into shit...that any kind of relationship is not going to happen...that going to beauty school is out of the question...tht me moving back to SD is going to be the same that it was moving to SJ....that someone will back stab be and make me break down and that my diabetes is going to get worse than what it is now....just geel that something bad is always going to happen everytime that im close to being happy...that someone in my family is going to get sick or die...i dont know...maybe this is me trippin...maybe its me not getting enough sleep....but its times like this that makes me feel that when i was all drugged up things werent so bad....damn who knows...im now going to cry myself to sleep