Jun 17, 2007 13:05
I feel so frozen much of the time. So much to get done and I can't seem to start. Too much emotion...always. And at the bottom of myself, a hollow inadequacy. If I look at myself from a removed perspective...it just doesn't make sense. There is nothing heinous about me.
It's the maintenance issues of life that I have trouble with. I am irresponsible. I let things go. And then guilt ensues.
My mother always felt the same about herself. And she was full of all things good. I need to see myself with a less critical eye.
Does anyone know a good place to look for educational grants? I am a little worried about how I will pay for this program.
My brother is going to help my sister in Arizona with my Dad and the 100 horses. Thank the Lord. This is a blessed relief.