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one thing my mom's friend patricia said was
"i know you're young and are capable of starting your future, starting a new beginning"
and i couldn't agree anymore
i may miss my mom and the strength i had
but mellow-leveled, i look forward to a new beginning.
i look forward to a new beginning
and when i see her in heaven
it'll all be worth it
i'll remember how hard it was to lose her
and we'll laugh about it
laugh about it
i don't want to lose my smile, it's not worth it. really. i need to think about my own life. i have my wholeee life to look forward to. i thank god for ruth being in my life and getting me off that medication. she's the reason for why i'm still alive today or otherwise i would've committed suicide, i couldn't take it. she's the only one that believes me, encourages me, supports me, tells me i'm capable of anything. plus she's had experience of the hopelessness of psych meds. they're aweful. especially antidepressants. they make people commit suicide. they ruin people's lives, they almost ruined hers so she says. she almost lost her job because she kept forgetting things and wasn't able to stay awake. i will never take an antidepressant again. or any other psych med for that matter. unless it's anti-anxiety. those make you sleep, so ya, those rock. but otherwise... i'm not. such a sickening thing these mental health clinics... they're legal drug pushers. i don't like psychiatrists.
"i know you're young and are capable of starting your future, starting a new beginning"
and i couldn't agree anymore
i may miss my mom and the strength i had
but mellow-leveled, i look forward to a new beginning.
i look forward to a new beginning
and when i see her in heaven
it'll all be worth it
i'll remember how hard it was to lose her
and we'll laugh about it
laugh about it
i don't want to lose my smile, it's not worth it. really. i need to think about my own life. i have my wholeee life to look forward to. i thank god for ruth being in my life and getting me off that medication. she's the reason for why i'm still alive today or otherwise i would've committed suicide, i couldn't take it. she's the only one that believes me, encourages me, supports me, tells me i'm capable of anything. plus she's had experience of the hopelessness of psych meds. they're aweful. especially antidepressants. they make people commit suicide. they ruin people's lives, they almost ruined hers so she says. she almost lost her job because she kept forgetting things and wasn't able to stay awake. i will never take an antidepressant again. or any other psych med for that matter. unless it's anti-anxiety. those make you sleep, so ya, those rock. but otherwise... i'm not. such a sickening thing these mental health clinics... they're legal drug pushers. i don't like psychiatrists.